tc love DEAD

mornings

2008-04-30T23:30:00.000-07:00

T:8:33: Good morning CC
C:8:40: Morning TT.Gooluck
T:10:28: i imagine u inside ur black rover with ur armany i like this life sorry cc i cant stop thinking of u goodluck with ur new life and to bad about me.hug its better then anything
C:10:38:ur funny TT.I dont want 2 cry over old things.I'm looking 4 a good future.soo much here TT.Wish u were here.
T:10:46:how u wish that and u dont want me in ur lifeeeeee u planing for everything cccccc i never go back but lost u for nothing
c:11:01:TT u lost me cause u dont know how 2 treat a woman.I'm not ur friend tt but was ur wife2B.& u never showed it
c:11;03:I"m sorry I dont want 2complain.Just want 2let go without looking back.4give me.but this was the right 2do tt

faster stronger

2008-04-29T00:05:00.000-07:00

c:7:59:T I had no$ 2call last night.I charge 2night maybe.T,if u know why I took this decision?Y u didnt fix problem
t:9:26: hey cc i feel sick to many things in my head plz cc be care about ur health and ur belly my liffe coming hard without u i cant think
c:9:38:TT.focus babe!Be a better man& try making something of urself.I told u,u cant be like this.U need 2 change.
c:9:;40:I'm fine.I got medicine &restlast night.Know it's hard,but no chance for anything else.Goodluck with nigeria
T:9:49:cc i dint understand change for what in fact u coming more agressive
C;10:01:babe.u always refuse 2B better.Ur satisfied with what u have&makes me angry.I'm sorry,but it helps me forget u faster when I remember the bad things.it's better 4me&hard 2take this decision 4us.but4 the better :-(

T calls me at night to check up on my piercing and health....nigeria seems to be working for him...I;m happpy....and he's getting a laptop if some freelance work goes well

I hate the goodbyes after a relationship...beginnings are always unforgettable

short hellos

2008-04-28T23:11:00.000-07:00

T:8:19;Cc sweet day full of kisses

C:8:27:Thx TT.stay strong&take care of urself.goodluck with Nigeria.I thought u would call last night.i'm fine
t:9:47:Cc hope ur fine i cant open my eyes im so tired i dont know what I can tell u i feel lonely first time in my life my god love u cc
c:10:33:I'm very tired 2.I know ur feelings.I wish u took care of me as woman wants,I would've stayed my life with u
T:10:33:cccccccc i love u beatch
C:My tummy good.but I'm feeling so sick.
I left work earl;y...feeling so exhausted and tired.
need rest. I went o my room and slept...T called me at night.I spoke to him briefly...I didnt know what to say...evenm if I told him why I took this decision he's going to believe something else

THE END

2008-04-27T22:11:00.000-07:00

I can say today was the end of almost 2 years with TT.
things were just not working out, so I ended it.
And I know T must have been hurt as I was and maybe more, but things were not in my hand.He spent the morning with me and dropped me off with watery eyes to the airport.

Bye TT, and I hope Nigeria is a new begining for you.

forgetful

2008-04-24T21:51:00.000-07:00

c;7:42:bonjour tantoun.I 4got 2 misscall last night,but I was soo tired forgot&fell asleep on the bed.sorry 7ayeti
C:43:Wa BONJOURNNE!!!!I"ll see you tomorrow and beep beep u with the real thing!!!vroom vroonm
tomorrow beirut again...I'm soo tired today...I need rest
Briefly spoke to TT today...will c him tomorrow
C:tick tock tic tock..time is close.sahteing TT.I'm so tired 2day&I know Icant rest the coming days.kisses tt

helicopter love

2008-04-23T01:22:00.000-07:00

T:8:31: beep beep hey love miss u ktir waiting helecopter
c:11:19:bonjour TT.happy Iheard u rvoice last night.U read all the letters?!!I wrote many then stopped.hope u liked

Ok long hard day at work, I left work, napped for 1/2 hour, showered and had to get to late dinner....amazing restaurant BICI. Really nice...and piano bar music...prrrr

I forget to misscall TT although I told him I wont...opps!

morning smiles

2008-04-22T23:48:00.000-07:00

C:7:36:Bonjour ya knefeh achta helou namoura il amboura,ya 3asal.Kiss u a sweet goodmorning!MWAHHHHH 2 1/2 days left
T:8:35:sasoun u see my smile love beep beep kisses lal attouch
C:9:47:it's been so long without u.how's that smile doing baby?Is it 1635 KM long yet?kiss u mwah mwah.c u soon

T had meeting with guy from Nigeria today with his dad...after he finished he met with D and she gave him the letters....he read them...called me at night

I was sad

normal

2008-04-21T22:50:00.000-07:00

C:7:40:Bonjour tantoun!!beep bep bp..WAKE UP TT!I know ur still sleeping.kisssssss mwah mwah 3 days left
T:8:37: hey love beep beep ana min b7eb ya ghanoughete kiss u
C:8:47:peep peep beep beep tarattataa!TT...bonjournne.Have a good Monday morning.smile baby smile!!!

T wasn't apparently smiling that day. He's always upset.
We chatted later in the night.
He was at gym....I left work and went to my room for more freelance work...and washing...nothing special tonight

sundays

2008-04-20T03:40:00.000-07:00

sunday...everyone in beirut probably sleeping and I'm at work
C:7:47:boooonnjouurrrr tanton!i cant wait to see u again.kisssssssss uuuuuuu goodmorning
C:9:13:babe.I also want2fix 2 teeth.U think u can manage 2fix appontment with doctor?Maybe sunday morning good.
C:10:03:2 teeth in back,plus whitening.If he can sunday better.&TT catch me baby crab on beach!I want 2 play with it.
jim nice enough to call me evry weekend
c:1:39:fe fish aw ma fish fish bil bahar?hehe.hey T.jim very nice.calls me evry weekend.I cant wait 2 c everyone.
I left work early even though they had some kind of an egg festival going on....I had a big headache and tired...sO I went to my room, put the laundry in the wash, and fell asleep, then got up to the gym, showered and slept again
smsed T before I slept
t:Hey love missed u sweet weather is great not happy like when u r with me kisses love
C;t t.meen 3ando cheghal bokra?wa meen jayii ba3ad 4 days?wa meen kan 3am ya3moul bronzage?Goodnite babe.beep beep tomorrow.sweet dreams tt

Waste

2008-04-19T02:50:00.000-07:00

T still didnt go to get my letters...what a waste....
He was out shopping goods for his parents....I was in my room, went to gym early....then showered sat...had an apple...got bored.....browsed the internet....not much to do...might go out shopping
I left shopping at Burjiman later in the afternoon...had lunch and shopped at BEBE...then went to Qudo's for dinner....so loud I didnt hear TT call, but we spoke later when he called and when I got back to my room
I feel sad he doesn't go out beacause of me
T:love what u doing im going take a nap kisses 7obe

work,eat, shop, eat. watch , eat

2008-04-18T21:09:00.000-07:00

Woke up early to finish last 3 pages of the Carlito book.
then just sat cleaned, washed, made evreything neat...got bored...sO made contact with my client and she invited me to lunch at Meridien with her family and charity fund guy.....then dropped me off at mall....I bought few things, then we met up for coffee...then to her place ....met the iguana....and the cats......lovely.....and we left to the movies....watched Mad Money...nice movie.....T called me up He was with ceasar...stayed up till 2:00 am...I called him up....he was surprises I was still awake but I couldn't get any sleep

early bird

2008-04-17T21:48:00.000-07:00

reached work at 8:30....i think coming earlier better.
C:7:40:bonjour tantoun.thnks 4 calling last night.I was feeling lonely.yalla 7 days to go!!!kissssssssezzzzzz
T:8:38:beeeepppppp love have a nice day kiss u angel
T:8:37:Beep beep angel love u
C:Beep beepHEY TT slow down!!!ur too fast...Intibih idemak..beeep beeep...miss u much much much...kisssss u
c:12;08:hey tt call d 2meet today.U know I'm upset from evryone.I think going 2beirut bad idea.going 2eat now.sahtein
d contacts me...her and Laz patched up....wonder how this wed bet is going to end?!
T didnt meet up with D to collect letters yet...I think he was expecting ssomething expensive or something
anyways,I was soo otired oday, my period killing me...my neck killing me....my back on fire....ughhhhhhh
I left to the villa to rest....got a fresh manicure...and finished all my freelance work
Lucky for me the internet connection worked and me and TT chatted for a while....bit of arguements, but no fighting....
I missed him

thin

2008-04-16T00:58:00.000-07:00

So I bought 2 new pairs of jeans and none of them fit!!
AGH!!!! what a waste of money....I'm becoming too thin...I should watch myself....need to shop in beirut
T:8:21: Beep beep my woman drive fast my god how much i need u kisses
C:8:26; Oh tt,I missed u much.I cant recharge my phone b4 the weekend kiss u all over.have a good day sweety.mwah mwah
C:12:59:I didnt 4get u 2day,but sooo busy&I'm sick.sahtein if u ate.kisses tantoun
C:1:02:wlak tantoun.wainak ya albi.bidalak b3eeed.maybe I can get onlint tonite.I found out the house has intrent.
T:1:03:thx 7ayeto im not eat yet salemtik sansoun be care 7ayeto kisses zlik zlik
c:3:12:hey tantoun.how's work babe?I think if i stay here longer my clothes will fall off.I'm geting thinner!
T:3:20:ya 3omre ya sasoun i offered a new job i ate koussa miss u ya aghla al 3alam
C:3:24:shatein TT.What new job were you offered? A differnet position or a totally different job?

I hate my clothes today...I wanna sho pfor nice things....lebanese clothes dont work for dubai
T:My woman let me know if ur online
C:No I think they gave me wrong password.tt im feeling so lonely here.no one asks about me all day.i just sit and work work work.miss u.goodnite baby

T calls later to calm me down....prrrrrrrr
8 days to go
worked all night and fell asleep alone...few tears

not much.... sleepy again

2008-04-15T05:39:00.000-07:00

which i can get some real sleep.
T8:26:Love good morning beep beep kissing u be care 3omre
C:8:34:hey TT.sorry I forgot to miscall last night.I was so tired.beep beep.drive with eyes open tantoun
c:11:28:10 days 2cu again TT.miss u.so much 2 do.can u c when i can do piercing again B4I fly back 26th night.
C;1:33:sahtein tantoun.I'm feeling si ck today.I think i catch a cold in hot weather.ughhhhhh!wainak ilioum?kuss u
T:3:27:Hey love to much work miss u 3omre take about ur health sasoun what u ate today for me beme!kisses hayeto
C:3:38;7aeyti,I never know what I'm eating.it's all bad.I"m getting my period I think.I'm busy too at work.kisss
went to my room after work....gym for 30 minutes...got really tired....then lonliness....Laz calls to relieve himself from stress.....then I fall asleep...no calls from TT but I sms him goodnite

rent

2008-04-14T01:23:00.000-07:00

Got up to work early...feeling tired still....long day at the office, nothing much going on....Ac still an issue in the room...i hope to solve soon.
went out in the evening with new roomates to meet everyone.nice dinner and shisha...i was sad thoguh at cost and methos of rent
TT calls and I speak to his mom....i am feeling bad

zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

2008-04-13T21:58:00.000-07:00

Sooo tired...no sleep last night and lots of work at the office.TT calls me that he's going to beach for 2 hours with his nephews....I"m low on money to call....had a long sleepy day.
T:hi love kifal ya 3omre im at the beach 2 hours go home kiss u
Left work to sleep, and got stuck with Laz complaining about Darine's behaviour during the weekend...complaints, emotions and bla bla bla....I couldn't sleep...so I just manicured myy toes and hands....then fell asleep.
Thank God TT called me for goodnights...I was feeling lonely
T:Hey Cc what u doing love.im just woke up nothing to do if u can go online send me a msg missed u ghanouge

Over

2008-04-12T23:54:00.001-07:00

Drop my things at new house.....then head to hotel for coffee, tea and breakfast with family....then Helicoptwer ride above dubai, was the surprise....back to hotel...I leave D and dad to head to Dragon Mart and Polo while I go to market to get some goods...come back for intense room cleaning...prepare room and head back to Palace to meet up with family and we leave to wonderful Thai restaurant..which was great but then D and Laz, got to major fight, so back to hotel without Laz...I head back to the stuffy room...can't sleep till 4am.T with his nephews sleeping over today.

Family bonding

2008-04-11T23:51:00.000-07:00

dad and d arrive...go to meet them at lobby of the Palace..
hugs and kisses...we have a light breakfast,then head to al Qasr, some open buffet restaurant...boat ride...then Polo...very hot D and dad get annoyed so we head to hotel...I go to change...then meet up with them at Meridian for a dinner on a boat...then walk around the resort and back to hotels

soooo relaxed

2008-04-10T22:37:00.000-07:00

Called T up early to tell him I found a place to stay
Had a good night sleep last night
T:8:29:Im happy to u love ur so amazing and strong god bless u
T:12:47:hey love where r u waynak ghanoughe im a little bit sad like the weather today missed u baby
C:1:01:tantoun!Sorry babe bas toooo much work today...running and working and so many things.My dad&D coming tonight
T:1:02:no not yet i dont know why I'm crying
C:1:04:TT plz dont be sad.Smile.the sun is shiny here& weather hot.Plz Tantoun be relaxed sweety.u ate?sahtein
C:1:06:I'm sorry TT for all this.Really.I know if I stay in Beirut maybe better 4 us.but things changed somwhow.
C:1:11:I know why.I feel it too believe me.It's not only im my hands.I feel we are falling apart tantoun.really.
C:1:19:I couldn't eat anything today 2 bebe.I cant sleep.last night was hell.what u want me to do.I cant go back.

D engaged

2008-04-09T22:45:00.000-07:00

Get up early to open a bank account.Sms TT: Ya TT.thanks for calling last nnight.i was feeling down.I'm opening a bank account today to put all my hard earned money.good morning 7ayeti.kiss kiss
T;Sansoun love hellooooo ghanoughte min habibi.tatou tatou beep lick lick bon journne cc
C:11:16:Hey TT!Lazlow engaged to Darine yesterday.He got her a diamond ring and stufff.IT's very funny this girl.
C:1:04:hey love.I"m going to vomit from bad food here!UGH!!Dan will call u tomorrow to get 100$ for dentist.okay luv
C:1:35:i'm so tired from work.I wish I can go to sleep.babe how's ur day?i miss u.mwah mwah mwah
after work I went back to hotel and slept....I was so exhausted from all the hard work...I couldn't move even to the bathroom
Later I went out to check the villa I was to share with 5 others....not bad at all.Pool and gym available...I lliked it a lot...and sooo quiet there.so relaxing...people seem fine and friendly.
I had a light dinner and fell asleep again.

sleepy

2008-04-08T22:53:00.000-07:00

T:8:33:Hey love beep beep sansoun love u much be care zlik zlik
Called T up..he was at the site working today
C:TANTOUN amboura TT.how's work baby?Is everything ok.i'm fine.just a lot of work & hungry.kisses 7abibi
T:tizik bel denen 3ach3ouch
SO today noone contacts me from home,I'm feeling down.
T feeling down and in tears...I call him to see what's wrong....I think relationship going down down down...ugh!
go to gym, shower, freelance work
T calls me up to cheer me, I'm sad...I think he is too

shake it off

2008-04-07T22:59:00.000-07:00

Call T around 8:00 he's going to work
T:8:37: sasoun waynek beep beep tizik bil dene
not much going on today...trying to book a ticket to beirut soon....gym, work work work....manicure..
Laz calls late from Munich....I"m a bit bored but got work to finish...sleep and forget to place alarm in the morning

far far away

2008-04-06T22:54:00.000-07:00

normal day at work.after work....light dinner and watched "Spiderwick"
feel T so far far away every day
T:cc im online 3omre
T tries getting online but his connection sucks, I get a bit mad...I had to go out to eat.
weather bad in beirut, not much to do
I'm trying to stay busy here with work

out shopping

2008-04-05T22:40:00.000-07:00

Hotel all day.....left later for polo, to watch the game, then to the souk to buy clothes for work...and after dinner in the mall , and back to hotel.
Clothes so expensive!!
things not going well with T.
C:oh luv.i dont know what to write.But i think a lot about this problem and it hurts so baf.I hate this happening to us
T:whats ur planning today cc
C:Babe i'm going shopping today and laz invite me for dinner and boat ride later.but now in hotel a bit.what u doing?u got work all day?
T:hey love im just finish work going to cut my hair be care cc
T:I cant stop thinking of u cc be strong love

good day

2008-04-03T02:39:00.000-07:00

C:8:00:BONJOURNNE LUV! beautiful day here@ dubai.I'll see u on the bridge.we have many here,come on,come over
T:8:40: hey love beep beep miss u sasoun
C:12:48:meow meow meow...hey luv.I just had lunch earlt today.I miss u.wainak ya T wainak.why u not next to me?
c:2:44:SAHTEIN TANTOUN !Keef il amboura hal iyam?Mich 3am shoufah.I miss u babe.I feel like I'm talking to myself.
not much tonight...just movies and dinner...but TT so strangly far from me...he didn't even misscall at night : (

Insomnia

2008-04-02T22:05:00.000-07:00

Spoke to T this morning...we are both becoming insomniacs...
C:9:36:Hey T.I just spoke 2my dad.I thik he's coming over next week!That's so cool!+I'm worried about u not sleeping
C:1:00:I'm sad.I keep remembering the days in Beirut,&somehow I'm beginning to have a new views of life.for better.
C:1:18:I just had lunch.not bad.Mloukieh,chicken,fattouch,hommos.Sahtein 2u luv.maybe 2nite chat online.i'll tell u
Laz is an a******....he never calls or anything....soo european...
went to gym and went to spa for a Rescue Eye treatment
Then sat in my room tried to finish some work...but i was tired and Wissam and D kept me busy chatting
I forgot I blocked T...we tried to get him to chat with me, but it didnt work : (
He called me laster...he was with Ceasar sticking stickers on the ice cream shop

so far

2008-04-01T22:54:00.000-07:00

GOt up early...walked to the bank and to work

T:8:20: hey love beep u see me yow yow yow kiss u sweetheart
C:11:00:hey love.My heart is aching.I hate this distance between us.I feel the pressure more each day.It's killing me
C:11:04:I want u2 go out movies,eat,play soccer.I am still planning my trip back.I dunno when.luv u.be careful babe
T:11:03:cc i cant do anything without u it's hard but my love never stop try to save money and dont look for man love u cc
C:11:19:me 2 luv,but it's hard here without u by me.how long u think we can stay far apart?promise 2 try ur best plz
T:Love i want to take more experience to can take a high salary there in dubai i need a little time and i promise u to spend my life with u to deth love u cc
C:I understand love.We'll discuss it online or once I reach beirut.It seems like forever 2 see u again.missu
I was kind of sad all day at work....called D, Laz, T, Dan.
Walked to hotel...prepared meeting with Lina. She arrived about 7:00, picked me up and we went out to havanas for dinner with her kids...discussed the book, and had a good talk.
T calls me up at night...was at the gym...he says, that he needs to get his work experience...that could take forever....how long can we be apart.
I couldn't sleep or eat.
Neither could he.

smiles

2008-03-31T23:34:00.000-07:00

SMILES!!!
T:9:13:
Beep beep love love miss u miss u kiss u kiss u take care hayeto and dont let Laz friend behave u plz
C:Babe I'm a good woman.And they are good people helping me.Tt just try ur best to come here.We cant be like this for long u know it's big problem.kisses albi
SO HR calls me today about dress code!!!immmmmmm
welll I have to go shopping cause all my clothes naked like

Got my residence visa!!
Hopefully getting paid too : )
got my check, passport, residency and all good today.
I leave to hotel, some gym, then call up pascal and his wife to meet up at Emirates mall...we had dinner at chilli's and then left to 360 for drinks...Laxlow and Tini join us later...came back around 12:00
Spoke to T...he seemed sad to me, but he said all is ok
CC: sweet dreams love

: ( cry baby

2008-03-30T22:38:00.000-07:00

I woke up bad....I feel empty and lonely...walked to work
Slept crying and cried the rest of the day cause of Stupid fight with Lazlow, Stephan, Darine, Johnny, and evry other person who got involved!
I hated evryone, and just started looking for rooms for rent, and planning the rest of my life.
I went out with Laz's friends for drinks and light dinner and back to hotel
T:Hey love miss u much plz be cool coz tt loved u ktir

the big move

2008-03-29T22:26:00.000-07:00

C:Meow meow.Gooood morning love.How is everything,today beach?i miss u so much.I'm working on coming soon to beirut.cant be so far from you.love u.always.kisses

T:hey love good morning how is Laz friends ? im okl going to Ida home bring money and fix car lebanon say hi to u
C:Babe everything good.i had good time and im going to buy a bed now and moving to Laz place.i call u when i finish.kisses hi from dubai

So I got up packed everything to go.Lazlow in meeting so he sent a cab to pick up my stuff...and drop them off at his place. I arrive at his place, after breakfast, and I had a big shock when I found a completely empty room. Dirty house and nothing for me....I was soo mad....and Lazlow had another man in the house too!!!
SO I grabbed my purse and went looking for a hotel or place to stay...tried buying a bed but they need 10 days to deliver!!! Anywyas....summarry....I had a very fucked up day....stressed, and only strangers around me....I was nowhere.Maybe a loser now.
really depressed....
New hotel...Radissons....very nice room for another 2 weeks....but I still have to find a place to stay.in 2 weeks...
I'm all alone here
We went out for dinner at night and shisha, but I wasn't happy
and T not asking much about me

t:12:36: hey love what u doing im still at massoud nothing to do without u miss u
C:12:41: I'm crying cause all alone here and I dont know what i should do anymore tt.with my life.i need help alll bad here but safe.hard talking to u.
t:3:557:why didnt missed call me before u sleep

hotel

2008-03-28T22:34:00.000-07:00

Spent day in hotel...Lazlow was busy all day, but then we left to watch the polo at 4:00, stupid and boring...all friends there...
we had few drinks then left to walk on the beach....had dinner at a really nice Argentinian restaurant with singing and stuff....then we went for drinks at 360....it was a good night.tomorrow the move!!

love

2008-03-27T23:38:00.000-07:00

c:Morning love.i went to work early.beep beep.did u misscall yasterday cause it dont show on my phone.anyways bonjournne.i love u.have a good day my love
T:8:33:hey love kiss u beep beep waynak ya sasoun ya 3akrout have a lovely day
C:8:40:wlak T...why u fast!!!ntourni,I'm coming.Tomorrow i'm off going 2 buy bed 2 share with u love...when u come
C:10:59:I was thinking it's been a long time we haven't partied!Damn!We should go party me and you...when I get back.
Called T at lunch...he seemed so osad...ugh! I am so lost.it's lonely for the both of us
C:12:35:sahtein ya albi.Yalla ana mich mtawli hon ktir.Visa btikhlas was brouh shoufak ya 3ouynii.kisses.
T;3:13:Love how u doing wish to be fine miss u ktir ghanoughte and miss to swim together at tabarja love u cc take care 7ayeto i ate eggs with potatoe ana u what u eating?
C:3:21: food bad here.I hate.I leave work in 30min.I go crazy when u tell me tbarja.All I know is I miss u too luv.kss

It was weird time after work....It took me 2 hours to get taxi...I got into an arguement with Laz and his friends, so I just stayed in the hotel cried and finished my projects

T I miss u

2008-03-26T01:26:00.000-07:00

T:8:20: beep beep hey love good morning ghanoughe miss u attouche yummy ma3moul delicious
Called T to wish him a good morning...I miss him,when I hear his voice, my world changes....
Laz calls...Stephan wishes me a good day...no calls from family yet
C:10:20:I'm only happy when I hear ur voice-i forget evrything.but when I dont,i'm very sad and alone without u.
T:10:30:Sassoun my heart to2bor hal chagle hahahah love ya 3akroute
C:10:40:Ma3ak hak ya 3az3ar.I didnt tell u:Laz friend will help me get drivers license without exam.Isn't that cool!
C:3:32:Hey sweetheart.my eyes r shutting down.sleepy.I'm going this week 2buy a bed things 4my room.want 2 come?
T:hey love im just finish work miss u ktir nothing to do without u kisses and licking...
I'm angry at myself...T being bored...me alone here...and going back is like killing myself over again especially if no job available there
C:love sitting here by myself.i keep thinking what the hell i'm doing here!but if I go back i am a loser 4not being successful.i miss u tt@ambourti.goodnite luv

sooooo sleepy

2008-03-25T22:49:00.000-07:00

Woke up ssooooooo sleepy cause Laz, his friends, my family, and T keep me up....I'm soooo tired....I'm glad I can fall asleep on my desk for a while...no one comes to work anyways before 12:00.
Laz arrives today with mommy cookies!!!
T:8:21: Hey love beep beep i put ur sunglasses it's amazing love u cc goodmorning angel
C:8:22:Morning love!work after a long weekend.I'm sleepy & I cant wait till I'm in ur arms again..someday soon i hope
C:10:31:I wonder if u cry as much as i do.I keep thinking of the good times we had together and now what next?
T:10:35: CC my woman be strong me and the big tt loved u much
C:2:00:remeber in Rover ......Sahtein
call T and he misses me too too much asking me to go back home
C:3:20:u know love even if I wanted 2go back it's hard,coz no job there 4 me.Oh& cc miss u2 last night:)
I left to hotel to nap...very tired
Laz calls me up later ....he got me cookies and bag from beirut..but I'll get them tomorrow....Stephan busy too with meetings
Called T...he was heading to my home, to visit my family....getting together for garlic fiesta soon....I miss him...mom gave him some maa3moul and left to gym...calls me around 11:30 after gym....he had gone with Matta for a bite to eat in dora somwhere....we spoke lightly and I feel asleep....soooo tired

evryones sunday my monday

2008-03-24T23:15:00.000-07:00

Woke up as usaual ...shower dress eat...meet Fatima downstairs, had breakfast with a Lebanese and Siberian guy on my table...then Fatima and I left to work
T no work today
C:8:09:ohhhohhhaiiaiiiaii....BONJOUR MON AMOUR.Je suis tres tres miss u.vroom vroom beep beep!have a good day.kisses
C:9:00:Love...not good if u have phone off.plz keep it charged or buy new phone.I go crazy here!what u doing today?
T sleeping on his phone....I miss him so...he might be going to the beach today...I'm going mad without him
C:10:00Luv u know I really going crazy,thinking what u doing all the time without CC.& not know when I c u again : (
T:11:16:Cc my love im happy for one reason coz i feel u always be care sasoun miss u ktir attouch
C:12:39:sirt ihki masri,ourdouni,irani,khaleeji,hindi wa pakastani!bokra ma lah tifham 3alayi she..hehe.what u doing?
C:2:24:sirt ihki masri,ourdouni,irani,khaleeji,hindi wa pakastani!bokra ma lah tifham 3alayi she..hehe.what u doing?
T:12:48:Cc love i called matta to going to the beach so hot today
C:2:24:hey T the beach must be beautiful,bas intibih min il houriyat.I wonder what life without C?take care love.
T came back home around 3:30 -4...slept...I woke him up and he lef to the gym
Came back home to call my mom,and me...mom wants to give him some easter cookies!!!
I miss TT...I wonder hom much he misses me too.I'm worried I''d be far for long
I'm already starting to feel far....
all alone out here, only Lazlow's friends keep me company...Laz coming tomorrow with mom's cookies!!!
Goodnight TT

Happy Easter!!

2008-03-23T22:59:00.000-07:00

T:1:03:am: Happy Easter 3omre
I dunno what's wrong with TT
No misscall last night when he slept and he was weird talking to me
TTTT WHAT"S UP!!!
I have work today
C:7:37:Ok I know there is something wrong,when my man 4get 2 miscall me goodnite.Shou fe Antoun?Happy Easter to all.
T has 6 kids running around his home!!!that's why he couldn't call cause he was busy with all his neices...smalllah
T:10:09:rito yeslamle baydatek sasoun nothing to do right now just thinking of you love be care pussycat
C:10:18:TT dont laugh but my jeans tear between my legs!I put pin,but I hope noone sees it!go fish if bored baby.luvu
Ok so I was having tea with someone at work, and I look down and realise my jeans tore between my legs!!!!AHHHHH and my sewing kit at home!!fuck that!!so I put a few pins to keep it in place till I got back to the hotel : ( sucks
have a medical exam today....blood test and chest scan...ughhhh!!!!!!!
C:1:58:Love I just went and had a medical exam!Ibri kbiri mitl il amboura.Miss u.what u doing?Fakis bayd?heheheh
T wen running with Matta and Lea at Tabarja...I was feeling lonely today....and worried of T being far...I called him up a few times....he had not much to do
He went over at Ceasar's and Chady's....
T:sasoun missed u much i hear ur best song ur always in my heart im at chady place kises
T Massoud:Hey cc hi from all ya 3omre
T at Massoud's ....no work tomorrow...T calls me about 2:00...he had arrived home...sweet talked me before sleeping...I love that...wish he was here

Breakfast and bed

2008-03-22T22:42:00.000-07:00

Yep..out of bed and out for breakfast and back to bed.
C:8:10: Morning love.still sleeping?Jim called me his mom in hospital.How was last nght?Happy easter or not yet?hehe.i’m very bored here.wwish u with me.kisses
T:12:13:Hey love im just beginnng to run at marina with matta be care 3omre love you
C:12:21;Hey love im washing my clothes and going out later to eat somewhere but first to sleep then go.im happy ur working out.good legs more mouda3abit.hehe

I stayed in hotel all day, except at night I went with Lazlows friends to have dinner at a nice place...then to thr rooftop of Rotana for narghileh...not me...I just had orange juice....night was light and fun
TT:1:30:Happy Easter 3omre
no miscall from him....I wonder why he's so strange today
He seems really weird, and he says everything is ok
I"m worried

Oh no!

2008-03-21T22:40:00.000-07:00

C:Morning love.I miss u.did u go hunting?my dad called me today.What a surprise.Laz left to Beirut.im going to the market+mall for fun.Happy Easter and mother’s day
I woke up to shower, and Laz smss me that he’s going to Beirut….that wa a good sign…but I remembered that yesterday I hadn’t given him the letters to take with him…..I was sad…I thought he wasn’t going back to Beirut….oh man.
T:Hey Love im still home im think to go to the beach I called ur mom but nobody answering miss u love
So I decided to go out today on my own….went to the emirates Mall, looked around…see what there is and not…founf RipCurl…Baby Phat….saw a lot of nice things I wanna buy…once I get paid. Tried to contact Dolly’s daughters…no reply….called TT…he was still home…then left to see the Span Group….then going to beach with Dany the look-alike….he tried calling my mom at home, but shw was with dad….DAD called today…so weird…and wissam also called and dad had called him too!hehehe…..Tried calling D….she was busy…..
So I bought a few vegetables…bread…water and washing detergent!!!I never washed anything much in my life…let alone cook! Oh man!!
So I washed my undies..hehehe
T:Hey love I miss u much im at cezar place nothing do don’t forget to call me coz tt missed u too
Sat in my tudio room all night…T was asleep in late afternoon, then woke up to head to Ceasar….he spoke to me before I slept….he stayed up I think late cause I feel asleep at 1:30-2…and his miscall alerted me when I was half asleep.
Stephan had asked me if I would like to go out with him and his friends to a club…but no way! Not without Laz and not alone.Sorry dude…I’m all for T.
C:Tt I miss ur touch ur smell ur angry face and ur ghanouge me.i really feel away baby.can u pray for me tonight plz so I stay safe

Disastour

2008-03-20T22:39:00.000-07:00

T:8:30:Beep beep love love you youo yow yow bep beep kiss u
C:8:35:You know when I go back to Beirut I want us to buy a house.I don’t habe a lot of mony but if I don’t wake up with you by my sisde I will jump over burj il 3arab!luv u
T:11:08:Hey Cc im sad cause all here laughing and lost time today, saw me I talk with samy he gave me a remarque I don’t know what happens by the way love u cc thx for mcall me miss u love
I spent day at the hotel waiting for Lazlow to finish his meetings….he’s fighting with DD…oh yah
I started my freelance work and slept…then got up finished some more work….mad some tea….slept and got up to a phone call from D…she’s fighting with Laz….and well Laz asked me to go out with him for a meeting…I left the hotel in cab…met him Marina Walk and we went to Inferno this Indian restaurant…where we met all those millionaire guys, the president and one guys wife and this guys niece…..had Indian food…then we left to a Lebanese restaurant called Times of Arabia and ate a light dinner…Laz pissed at D, and me trying to calm them all down….ugh!!! Feels like I wont have a place to stay…oh God!!!I called T in worry!!!

YACHHHT

2008-03-19T23:03:00.000-07:00

WOke up very tired....had a very heavy breakfast...bacon, chicken sausages...omlette...tea, savory toast tea and milk with branflakes too!!!!
C:10:12:TT I saw those ugly birds-very funny looking.no food 2feed them.Bonjournne amboura.watch 4 army!!
YACHHHHT
Work….I hate how everyone arrives to work real late…I like getting up early.And that’s what I do – have a heavy weight breakfast and jet to work.Couldn’t call up TT, cause my phone still uncharged.
C:11:20:Hey love how’s work?People don’t work much here.It’s more fun. I miss you soooo much.How’s the beamer?heheheh….keep my gum.
Saw those ugly birds that TT talked about, but they were so ugle to the point of being somewhat cute!
T:Hey love I miss u much beep beep miss ur celi too don’t watch the bird hbhefefefe
C:1:00:Apples taste weird here.Plus food not like Touza&mom.Sahtein ya albi.I’m going to have dinner with Laz again today.
T:7ayete albi 3am sakhen foul 3omre love u my angel sa7tein albe be care atouch b7ebik
Work….ok today…it’s boring, not much organized….I’m waiting till the department is really set up ….left work in a hurry to shower and dress…Laz and his friends were going on a yacht!Stephan Laz’s millionaire friend was coming to pick me up…Laz had to go directly to the boat…..I was very scared and shy cause I didn’t know this man, and he spoke really funny German English.And we got lost on the roads to reach the boat ….Laz and Mohammed had to meet us half way…..I was very hungry and so was Stephan….and there were about 7 millionaires on this yacht…and me. It was sooo funny…they talked business and I just enjoyed the ride. Had chips and white wine…food looked bad. We d drove around the whole coast….it was great. Everyone talking about billion dollar businesses….how weird…I was busy trying to make only hundreds.
So we left the yahcht to fo to this restaurant called FUDO …it was supposedly the best around…but it sucked soooooo bad…no service…food horrible….looked like some cheap midtown place….ugh!!! but I ordered my Virgin colada and Grilled shrimp…and ate and talked to Laz and Stephan…..I missed TT.
Lazlow was fantastic enough to charge my phome with 100AED…oh God what a sweetheart : ) Now I can call my TT.I spoke to T about 3:00 Beirut time….he got up in the middle of the night to tell me goodnight cause he fell asleep and forgot to….I love TT….he’s such a sweetheart sometimes….I miss him.

Ohhhhh-mlettte

2008-03-18T00:08:00.000-07:00

Brekafast at restaurant is always eggs cause nothing else is edible
SO usually I have toast, tea, butter, omlette, and raw vegtables...sometimes bacon and cornflakes...but like Isadi, it's not all fresh like one would like it
NO money to call T : (
C:8:19:Parappapapaaa..touttt touuttt beirut...Bonjourne ya 7ayeti inti.sorry I can't call...no money : ( i love ya
TT:Ta tou ta tou toutou ta bonjour abouta kifik ya aghla sansoun have a nice day love
T:Hey love hope to eat well 3omre love you beaucoups right nowim ok but i dont know how can i llive withouit u god bless u my angel
C:10:18:Love we can still send emails maybe we can chat that way.Let's decide how 2night.Where's my 10:00 misscall?!
C:12:17: I had noodles(suck) and told everyone about my love in Beirut.KBIR KTIR.I cant sleep at night thinking ur far : (
C:2:45: Hey love seems I"m going to a high class party tonight.Thursday holiday and I'm angry from life here:(kissesmissu
T:Love im still at work then going to ur mom call u at night love.cc taztouz min bel dene?smile kaskous

T disappears for 4 hours...no replies no calls...I felt something wrong, but not another woman
NO dinner tonight....just nibbled on mom & DOlly brownies, and water...can't sleep
I dint go party...waited a reply from TT....T:12:06:Cc im coming home wait to call u theya re pb solved......turns out army put him under arrest next to my dad's shop cause they thought he had fake identity parers!!!hahaha....funnyy haram TT...his parents must have been very worried....I watchedTV till 3:30 Dubai time...felt lonely

Royal treatment

2008-03-17T23:59:00.001-07:00

So got up early as usual…had an hour long breakfast grabbed a cab and went to work….better today….but kind of disorganized….I worked and worked and hop time would pass….spoke to T early, around 7:45…he was till at home, just finished shower and ready to leave…promised me to honk at the bridge….
T…8:30:bip bip tout tout hey love good morning kisses in ur lips love u always be care kiss mom hehehehe
C:8:33: Beep Beep!!wainak tantoun mich 3al jisir?heheh have a sweet daylove,I wish I had ur perfume on me
T:10:17: kis mom ,bayb missed u ktir and hope to e fine don’t forget to eat well.to much work today but im always thinking of you my angel
C:1:19:Hey love did u eat?I only have dinner cause breakfast always at 10:00 and not hungry coz miss you much.sahtein
T:1:59:Misse u too 7ayete I ate fasoulia not bad and im stll hungry of you love
C:2:26: TT,I still have your Bounty in my purse.I’m going to eat it : ) it’s better than fasoulia…salimli 3a touza
SO left work today and headed to Kasr hotel…to meet with Laz, Geneva and Diaby….the place was fantastic…..I walked around, got a boat ride and a buggy ride around...we went to a vegetarian restaurant…had a 5 course light Vegan menu…it was good….the next president to be by my side and his daughter in front of me….having a quiet light dinner….T called and I spoke a bit to Touza…I couldn’t say much cause the president spoke Arabic…and his daughter knew English welll…so I asked him to call me later….
I can’t charge my phone…and I need to go to the market….10AED left!!!!

Almost cried today cause I hate going cabs….it’s so degrading,but I have to wait to move to Lazlow’s place to learn the roads : (

Ok pics sucks...and I couldn't take photos of next president and daughter : (
But we really enjoyed the night

Day one at work

2008-03-16T23:09:00.000-07:00

T:10:45:hey love hope you slept well miss to kiss u sansoun love u cc be happy there tantoun soon bside u love u
T:11:39:CC cha3nine mbarke hey c where r u
I woke up early hoping driver would come early to the hotel….turns out no one works before 10-11 here…so I went down for breakfast…then back p to sleep and waited.

Got to the grand office….took a grand tour….nice….it took forever though and I couldn’t talk to TT or shoot any pics to show him…
Eventually I called…he was taking his parents out and going to Massoud’s.

T:2:40:hehelove still early to easter don’t be sad coz ur always in my heart

T got his home line international calls working….thank God.
I was a little disappointed at work…no Macs….hours are late….no office yet for me….they are moving many things around….it seemed a little diorganised….I settled a car rental for 1950 AEd but needed my passport copy, bank account and international license…..so instead I pay 1000AED for insurance, since I havew no bank account and …I had the agency talk to the hotel to give me my passport back….I had no lunch….
But by 7:30…I left by cab to Le Meridien hotel Sea Food market…..met Laz’s friends Prince Albert and his wife, Tiiny, and her Fiance….and the next president of the Ivory coast…..was sooo weird….but I enjoyed the seafood meal…although I never eat fish…but TT taught me how to eat them right….so…bon appetite…then we drove to Marriot for coffee, tea and dates…and back to hotel
Goodnight TT

bye my love

2008-03-15T23:08:00.000-07:00

Woke up early, showered, dressed, woke up TT and said my goodbyes to everyone.
Dan and Dave came along with the Celi. T and I went with the Beamer….stopped by Misk for a knefeh and croissant breakfast….we had a few laughs at sleepy David and pouting lipped girl in front of us. I started missing them already.
Then since we decided we still had time on our hands, we walked over to Dunkins for coffee and a few more laughs, and talk about Dubai…which kind of freaked me out.
I wish I could stay or take them all with me : (
T and I drove to the airport….halfway quiet…..holding my tears back….I didn’t want to be emotional….not now….We got there…I said my goodbyes to my brothers….T stayed till I left the luggage check area….I wanted to see him more, but that was the splitting point…..when will I see him again?
Getting my ticket, my bags were 9 kilos extra….hostess kindly asked me to emty the bags of 7 kilos….and I had no where to carry them…my laptop was packed as welll as my purse…..a young gentleman was kind enough to give me an empty bag he was carrying, I thanked hime, and emptied bags, shoes and belts into the little bag….paid 99$, for the baggage weight….ugh!!!!
Paid the luggage carrier 2$.
Had a body check up cause I was beeping….I dunno why.
I miss T….I had tears watering my eyes all the way.I was sad I didn’t give him anything before I left.TC was with me….I wrote him all my contact info and passwords for website and stuff.I wish he could come with me : (
TT I MISS YOU MY LOVE ALREADY….I wonder if things will work out or not…..if they don’t I know I’ll be by your side again : )
I love you
So I arrived safely…but I lost the driver for a while then found him, charged my phone, and exchanged money…but realized by the time I got to the hotel that that damn fucking exchange guy paid me 270AED instead of 720 AED and I mistook the 500 for 50!!!!!UGHHHH there goes 140$ : O
I got to the hotel and cried my eyes out…thank God Lazlow came ½ hour later to calm me down and take me out.
We went to the Emirates Mall….shopeed around for Laz….he bought a suit, shoes, underpants, and socks….he loved D’s present from Fiordelli…I wanted to buy TT so many things but I ad to watch out cause I was holding just enough cash for emergency
I called TT several times…I missed him
Me and Laz grabbed a wheat grass juice and watched 10000BC.

T:Love u cc I talked ur family relax b7ebik sassoun
T:cc 3omre don’t cry u made me crasy love tt love u much kisses in ur attouch
T:ya 3omre missed u ktir be care sweety
T:taztouz what you doing 3omre

Cried the night with TT’s Mary in my hand.
T at Massoud’s with the boys.

Last day

2008-03-14T15:15:00.000-07:00

got up early to cash a check...had cofffee alone while D finished from her bank and wedding dress fitting...then me d dan and Nin met up for coffeee.....and jetted to the second fittting which wasn't all that great.....then left to take D to buy some make up and I got a manicure and pedicure....and waited at my dad's shop to say goodbyes...but dad wouldn't come over...and Dan was too late getting his hair cut....sooo I waited and waited then left to Join D and Nin for chinese...then cofffeee.....an got tired and to\ired and waited for T to come over to fall asleeep together....and we did...then T left home, dad came over....T came back and I prepared a nice dinner and we sat ate and watched the gift : )
I love tt
T slept over .69.feet head feet head, I think he was a bit uncomfortable but his presence by my side was comforting.

Beep beep

2008-03-13T00:17:00.000-07:00

C:8:46:BEEP BEEP 3al JISIR!I BEEEP BEEP TANTOUN... thanks for making things better yesterday....mwah
C:8:57:YOu know I shouldn't be sending you an sms...you promised to send first : P
C:9:25:Istaz I am waiting for an sms today like you promised,plus a new # when I fly away....heheheh...kisses
T:10:19: Cc all what i feel im so sad and i wish to be always my angel c love u sansoun still pretty like yesterday,miss u
T:3:51: Miss you 3omre hope u too i feel crying

so me D mom and nino went out today for coffee as usual...then went for the wedding dress fitting...I chose 2 dresses but one me and nin really loved....D wanted me to wear gold.....then we went to meet the wedding planner....plus took photos for passport and ....had lunch together...ran home changed to go meet a client...finished some work and jetted off to T's place to hang out and tell his parents goodbye....but before I went over I bought T 2 cocktails in replacment for the 2 I spread over his car last weeekend....just a little joke....but he liked it
Cuddled together then he drove me a little distance before I drove back home : )
But I heard a lot of good words from my little wise man, likr not losing me to a stupid bitch...and loving me...and meaning the world to him, and being like no other....secure words, that's rest my heart for a while

T:6:29: Love u cc

C:11:39:goodnite sweety...keep ur eyes dry.I dont want touza and boudi to worry about their only son.cause ...he means a lot to me as to them.sweet dreams...mwahhhhhhhhhhh

T calls

2008-03-12T00:12:00.000-07:00

T calls at 9:00
Lifeless as I am
Asked me where I was, when I was travelling, and what I was upto this afternoon
Asked me why I hadn't called him...why would I, I wasn't the one doing wrong
rim sends me an sms:
Look Syrine am not going after ur bf ok just understand that nd stop bothering me.U dont have to leave him ok i dont even c him i dont care about him.I have a fiance nd i dont like when u say that am going after him ok.so stop it ok i have more imp things to think about than u 2.Leave me alone.

Yeah so I guess she cleared matters up finally....fucking bitch.God rid us from such people. T seems to have had a word with her.

Anyways me and T met at his lunch break...went to grab BK Whooper...and argued like crazy, then calmed down...then more argueing....then calmness...then the same thing again and agin till midnight.
I left his place and headed to the gym for a bosy pump class and and hour of Jacuzzi and sauna...then called up jim and met him, Dan, for a dinner. T came over to pick me up in my mini skirt, and we went for salad bar and club sandwiches....gave jim a goodbye hug and me and T left off back home. Dropped me off and fell asleep in the calm night.

look at me

2008-03-11T00:07:00.000-07:00

No calls from T
Was he really having an affair?
What else could have made him forget me in 3 days : (
I thought in this relationship I would be more careful, not to repeat my first mistakes.....I was wrong....men are good liars

I look forward to my new life

SO many guys hit on me today...can they see I'm single through my face...all hot cars and hot shots...ouuufff.....I'm been too busy looking at TT , didn't see others looking at me : )

I got commented at least 5 times today on being beautiful and sexy...heheheh

:( on the list

2008-03-10T23:50:00.000-07:00

Tony Aad said he loved me like noone before....yet he failed to tell Rim so.

He just put me on his list of women : (

Calm winds

2008-03-09T07:51:00.000-07:00

Nothing from both parties.....silence and heartbreak
I went out to relieve myself
Shopping,eating and hanging around family and friends

Bag packing and spring cleaning

The Last WEAK-End

2008-03-08T07:34:00.000-08:00

Well what can I say about today, what started out all right...turned to the end

Just whenI thought me and T were worlds, and soon countries apart...now I was sure hearts apart.
We left early to go to our banks and meet up for breakfast....I beat t to a dunkins coffee cause I was dizzy from turning around from bank to bank, and got a check rejected from a client.....T got mad at me having breakfast before him,I've never done that before
He was dressed casual today with bracelet I bought him at xmas...looked very nice....I hate when he wears sports wear

We left to get my international drivers licence done, and headed later to get a piercing but Jean Pierre wasn't available..then got TT a "knefeh" to eat...then we headed to the dentist.....welll through all this Ms. Rim, starts calling T and tell him to either pick up the call or telll the damn persistent bitch to stop calling.....and well....from talk this talk that....and finishing from the dentist...I told T he had to do something about it today before I left back home.....we went for cocktails....but by that time...my nerves were popping at the fucking bitch who sent me 2 smss that made my pressure rise.....I asked TT to end it here and now....he said "leish fawti il dib 3a karmik" and I told him, il dib b karmak ya kalb!!!"...And I knew that would drive him mad, which he did...but he couldn't drive off cause we were having the cocktails done, and his car was at the car wash, next to my dad. so we headed ther, and I told him time was short and he had to do something about it...I can't travel worried....
Well we got to the car wash....he had nothing to say....I asked him if he ever planned to finish it off now...the fucking Rim situation and he said like ROy...No.....
So, I spread the 2 cocktails all over his squeaky clean car, and he said I was behaving like a bitch...and I told him I was a bitch
And we both drove off.....
I couldnt't beleive the things he said and how he refused to do something normal to bring peace to my heart and mind
He was obviously intrested in continuing with the bitch
Ugh!!!!Not again....why me.
Told him not to contact me ever....

Last day

2008-03-07T02:25:00.000-08:00

Last day meeting at the bridge...and at work : (
Will miss that much
Had an argument with T cause he always seems not to know how to argue with me...it drives me nuts
C:U dont know how to argue with me...it drives me mad....u run away when things go bad.Be a logical man
Ok that sms made me mad...but TT can be so frustrating sometimes
Sorry Tantoun
C:T I know ur upset fromCC...I can feel you all the way here...
T wouldn't answer me till 2:30...think he really y got mad
C:Fine.I'm not going to push your buttons no more.I wont call.I leave in a week.DO what you wish.love you...C
T answers...he was very sweet...apparently very busy

I GOT AN IPOD SHUFFLE goodbye gift from my friends at work...very sweet of them....they were the funniest team I've been with

I headed home afterwork, to my gyno for checkup..alll is good
T left to see Elias Karam, then called me up that he was going to work out with TM at the gym....gym was closed so they left to walk at the Marina...weird....2 boys running all the way in the Marina,I'm sure they are up to something
T comes back home, we discuss our last weekend plans and fall asleep

transport?

2008-03-06T23:44:00.000-08:00

C:9:00: IIIIIIIILLLLOOOOVVVVEEEYYYYUOOUUUUUU!!!
Saw TT at the bridge...
agency called today....seems they are only gonna pay for accomodation not transport!!!!WHAT!!!
Got to get things straight...I panicked...I need transort for the 2 weeks that I'm there...Oh man....I sent an email instantly to Brian
T busy today it seems
C:2:16:ok CC is mad.I cant believe this tantounI need things to be right to go safely : ( pray things work 4 me
C:4:41:hey love..I miss u today..u busy?I'm gonna go see dad&mom,then go to doctor.will u meet me there?

Went to my dads shop...waited for T there...called him at the office he was just moving from work
he arrives and already bumping into old-time married buddies...all seem to have 2 kids!!!

Parked the car and left with T to the dentist - hungry tired but finished 2 teeth fillings and took appointment Saturday and tuesday.
T dropped me off and headed for ping pong...I left home with mom, passed by ate yummy sandwiches....then home....to rest
Waited for T to get home at 11:00
C:I cant see you on the hidden camera....waino tantoun...waino?

Lost--ouch

2008-03-05T23:39:00.000-08:00

C:9:16:kitty prints going up& sliding down the car...maybe evidence : )Goodluck with the search. Ok wrong sms to T...it was meant for my sis but T is running in my blood that everything seems to be for him....oops!
We lost Saki yesterday night around 11:30 - 12...no one knows where he left : ( family spent till 2:00 looking for him
Met T at bridge today: "SAAANNNSOUN""" whizzes by

C:9:19:the right sms:u know I realised when ur happy...truly happy...ur such a cool guy,i wanna spend my life with u
I left to the mall to by the bras I wanted ...then jetted home....no one there....not even Saki...house a mess...damn...I cleaned it up as much as possible, till TT arrived...we tried putting in the nose stud....OUCH!!! hurt...so stopped that and went over the Geography homework.....very cute of TT.....he left later to meet up with LEa for $$$ and to the gym for pingpong
I sat home....waited for everyone to arrive....waxed all over...
Turns out they found Saki, stuck in side neighbors balcony and coulldn't go out cause he was in pain...he must have hit the balcony bars...OUCH!!!...5pm foun and sent to Doc

Spent the night with a cup of tea and watching "Deja Vu"....beautiful

Ouch

2008-03-04T00:36:00.000-08:00

TT waited till I arrived at our meeting point....he got up early
Love when he calls me ya mara...sounds funny
C:ya rijal..ana bhibak mot mot mot and I wanna ride your boat boat boat so we can float float float 2gether in the sea

Ok so boring day,but the night was great.I jetted home to change my attire to more sportive wear...T came to pick me up, met up with Jim and layla, and we headed to George's club to work out....stomach, buttocks, biceps triceps and back...and ouch ouch ouch ya Coach!! Maybe the first time a man is in cramps from Jim, and not from sex.....he gave me some personal training...T went home to change his clothes, hand something in Elie and back in time to catch the end of the tummy work out and play ping pong with Caesar and the boys...then we went up to his place....saw Annette and the baby...very adorable....we had a lot of fun at dinner...T T was amazingly funny and entertaining....We left around 11:00...Jim & Layla took me home

boring day

2008-03-03T00:25:00.000-08:00

T and I meet at the bridge : )
I love seeing him in the morning

We didn't miscall each other much today, cause packed with work on a monday....nothing much and bored all day
Met a client for $ugar pickup...T left to get his beard trimmed and hair cut...then gym and football practice...
I left for waxing and a fantastic facial and back neck massage, with facial and eye treatment.....ohhhh I felt fantastic!!
Left back home to finish some unfinished work...then got into an arguement with dan....invited by Jimmy for barbeque, and friends wanna go out to pub ttomorrow
Hanady calls T...say her once...when I first met T...nothing between them, but thought of ladies calling my man, after months and years, drives me crazy!! I panicked a bit...I know I lack trust...big issue

Calm winds

2008-03-02T23:30:00.000-08:00

Woke up late....T later...he had swollen tonsils, I think he's coming down with a cold....I spent the morning with 5 cups of tea, and finishing some freelance work....T slept and woke several times....getting his physical rest.....so I decided we go out at 5:00 shop or watxh movies...Rambo like TT promised at 4:00 am.
Went out with D....we had a light dinner t Spuntino, listening to sade and having light, enjoyable conversation...it was relaxing and food great...TT was kind enought to pay the bill, and we continued shopping....bought myself a tiger necklace and a free nose stud....my hole is blocked though!!! it's not opening
We shopped around for pjs and purse, found nothing interesting but eventually I bought 2 purses I needed..then T dropped me off home, he passed by Ceasar...then back home

Long day

2008-03-01T00:37:00.000-08:00

Woke up early, pissed at T why he hadn't called me for the "goodnite" last night..so I left to bank and dentist, and didn't even call him...then he eventually called and met me at the dentist....trying to lighten matters up....I fixed 2 teeth fillings and the braces..then we skipped breakfast and left to the beauty salon, got myself a manicure, pedicure, eybrows done, and bought makeup..cost 100$...then we left to have lunch...chicken at TT's place...got to see Taztouz!!!! cute little critter...eating lettuce...
we napped a while, then left to see my father and mother by the shop , bought T and mom medicine and headed to watch the game....then out shopping, ...started buying my things to fly...bought a diamond nose ring finally!!! for cheaper price...and passed by market for shampoo and goods...bought T tea, think he's coming down with a cold....he left to Massoud, called me all night and around 3:30 am....we are starting to feel the misses : (

STOP SHOUTING!!

2008-02-29T23:39:00.000-08:00

I HATE it when T SHOUTS!!! It drives me away.
SO there was a little misunderstanding at the bridge today, cause I thought TT didn't misscall me when he reached the crospoint as usual..but he was calling after he spotted me drive off...ahhhh...stupid me. But I made things ok quick before he reached the office, and hope he can start the day in a good mood..love ya TT
C:9:07:Mornning love : ) Of I understood the what happened,but let's stop screaming it makes me mad!kisss
Misscalls as usual at 10:00....I love that
C:12:55:sugar I ordered burger King.gonna eat here then go to my dad's shop.Did I tell u I love you today?heheh
Left work at lunch to get my mammogram...booby check...hehehe....picked up mom...got into a fight with parking security...ran back to work to get paid.....50$ short...thank God I counted it right....
Met T after work to pick up his sunglasses...perfect fit...got into small fight....discussed few matters together at a light dinner at shtroumph...salad bar and light drinks (ice tea and lemon)..mmmmm
He had to jet to meet up with elie to play cards with Mirelle and her husband...work collegues.....I left home
]C:9:49:T give the boys a chance to win today...heheheheh

Quirky day

2008-02-28T23:36:00.000-08:00

T didn't spot me this morning!! I got a bit upset...plan to have cheese for breakfast this morning

C:9:20:I'm having a cheese croissant!Plz send me an sms to make my day better.I dont know why things are going bad
T:9:20: cc ur falling in love llie me heheheheh love u my pussy lussy cat
C:9:27:Pussy lussy cat...MEOOOWWWW ...I like dat berry much.u were so sweet last night love.kisses

Went out for walk after lunch...office blues....I need to feel the life outside
T going to call for my manicur epedicure session...I'm going to miss him sooo much...last night he was great
C:3:58:It's like I'm wishin I could spend more time with u but that will only make me miss u more.luvz u amboura

Decided not to meet T after work, and just go home o finish off some work...we'll have the whole weekend together
Got home to find Dan, Steph, D and Carl watching "Awake"...so I joined in while I finished y freelance work...T headed to Michel to cut his hair...Na3eeeman Tantoun : ) Then off to the gym till 11:00, as usual....Got home ate tabbouleh, and fell asleep..I stayed up a while to finish off the work

TT's Tummy

2008-02-27T05:08:00.000-08:00

TT late today...discovered later that he woke up with a tummy ache...and spent 1/2 hour in toilet from pain...poor sweety
I woke much earlier to pass by to grab my passport...finally!!! ANd by the pharmacy.
We are going to movies today to watch "Vanity Point"

C:12:15:Popcorn,pepsi and CC next to me, hand in hand,kissing hugging...at seven,we'll be in heaven....hehehe
C:1:55:AH!the boss walked in when I was talking.I'm in troube no more phone for me..heheh..I luv ya...

Overtimed at work till T left the office on his way to the theaters...so much traffic on the way - carrying chocolate for CC, and no where to park...thank God I met TT on the way and parked right behing him infront of the bank : )
Dan and Lana met us later....popcorn coke and water...and Vantage Point..very interesting and amazing to watch....really enjoyed, then we left home
T went to see Andrea to give him the swim gear, came back home around 11:30, I freelance a bit till he got home then we fell asleep together

Ill

2008-02-26T23:36:00.000-08:00

Feeling like shit this morning ...maybe from the workout....sick all day...coughs vomit..ugh!!!!!
No burns today thank God.
Couldnt meet aafter work cause I was feeling very ill and I had work to finish...plus TT had to go to Issam to finish the lat bits of the project then he headed home called me after I woke from my nap, and he left for pingpong at the gym with Dany and the boys

Monday

2008-02-25T23:18:00.000-08:00

woke up okay...sickness killing me
Normal day kind of day
Except for burning sensation in toilet from medicine I guess
Was able to workout at gym...T left for his workout too and watch a match with the boys
T being all sweet about my illness : )
T called Andrea to see where he was so he could cash me in...but Andrea still in Syria

Home treatment

2008-02-24T09:08:00.000-08:00

T calls me once he wakes...I was exhasuted form the cold...my body very weak
Took my 3 medicines
t decided to go to church and see friends today, asked him not to come over....I slept about 4 times to rest...work slow
C:10:46:Hey Love when u go to church lite me a candle, and wish me a safe trip : ) Mwahhh..
C:11:37:hey luv.what did u decide to do?I'm thinking of just resting at home.It's my only chance to get better.luv ya
T leaves to basketba;; game at 6:00 then play of cards with friends
C:7:10: I love yo sooo sooo much tanton ya 3oyouni...have fun sweety
Mom makes me soup and lots of food to get healthier

what's up Doc

2008-02-23T00:48:00.000-08:00

Woke up to cash in a check, and wash the car, before heading to the hospital.
Car overheated for some reason so I had to make a pit stop and fill it up with water
then headed to my papa's place, to drop the car off for wash.
T met up with me and we had a "Zaatar in the car" Fight..I can't believe this guy...HE is sooooo paranoid about his stuff!!!! It kills me, anyway...we left to see the Respiratory Doc...and had a check up....I had mild case of bronchitis and needs rest and some medicine....sucks.....plus had to get a mammogram done sometime this coming week for the lump.....then we left to see the dentist..had 8 cavities to finish off.....Next week my appointment....plus took an appointment with Gyno...on 7th.
then we left to get find a Western Union around...most didn't have the cash or machine broken down....met up with D and Nin accidently, then left to get TT's friend Andrea a scuba diving suit....all this and no food in our tummies...so we decided to go to T's place and have fries and salad....ICEBERG.....yummmy....t left to buy me medicine ....took my medicine and fell asleep next to TT....for about 3 hours...then woke up ....he made me some aniseed tea...and we watchedthe island then he dropped me off at my dad's place to pick up my car...and head home to work lightly and fall asleep
TT was suppossed to hang out with his friends but they were no where around, and he wasn't much in the mod ...so he left back home to end the night with a movie and light dinner.
T:CC its hard to live without u i love u

Doc

2008-02-22T02:36:00.000-08:00

home today....croaking like a frog and playing dead in bed : )
T kept miscalling me...and calling to check up on me ....got me appointment with doc tomorrow

flew flu flou flow

2008-02-21T02:21:00.000-08:00

Work..t woke late again...he's always late when he showers in the morning..
I left to see the "moukhtar" to finish my passport papers...damn he's so slow!!!! took half hour to do one lousey paper!!
Then left to :amin il 3am" to submit the passport for renewal...it'l take one week to receive it...so till next Wed
I was kinda mad this orning and late for work...coming down with flu again
T was so busy today but I loved it when he said he's working for us...what a sweetheart

I left work a litle late ...went straight home...was feeling weak and sick
I slept early...T saw went to see his doc for a leg check up...turns out he shouldn't play on it for 2 weeks, so he left to Massoud's and played cards with the boys till 12:00
I fell asleep...knowing I wasn't making it to work tomorrow...damn

Not much

2008-02-20T02:29:00.000-08:00

Ok I dont remember what happened much today...but I remember going to buy bras...and T left to the gym for an arms workout

Fixation...on bunnies, carrrots or sunglasses

2008-02-19T02:31:00.000-08:00

After work we left to exchange T's sunglasses...I think we will visit Josiane at least 3 more times before TT gets rid of his sunglass fixation...we left home for carrots and bunny hopping : )

My train has come

2008-02-18T13:44:00.000-08:00

My train has come fro me to go....I got the call today to email my passport and details
Deep shock struck me and TT
For the last coupe of days we have been sharing a lot of deep emotions...reviving the lost feelings long lost with our arguements
T:U are the first who make me cry every second love you sansoun
C;9:51:That's the sweetest thing anyone has ever told me. I feel so in love with you.
C: 10:03: Love, MBC just called to confirm.We have to start getting ready physically and nafseeyan...I'm gonna cry

Briefly spotted TT this morning...he was dropping his parents at hihs aunt's place
We were suppossed to meet after work but I was tired and had to get ready for gym
I had a slight arguement with him cause he wanted to exchange his sunglasses cause someone thought they were big...I can't believe it he hates everything I buy him...and just when I thought I got him something he likes...something he chose...he wants to return it!!!
But he made it up by saying that he doesn't like anyhting but me : ) heheheheheh luv u tantoun

Buffalo Soldier

2008-02-17T00:48:00.000-08:00

SO today...I woke up, not much to do...no feedback from clients...so I just layed back....TT called me up and invited me for lunch...so I got up got dressed in yellow and brown and heade off to T's with my laptop by my side.....his mom had tabboulleh prepared with fries...we ate quickly cause we had to jet to TT's soccer game...T stopped to get me chips and red bull, with gum...and drove to the soccer field
boys all already there...
And who do you think places the first goal.....TT!!!! Goal!! my hero....and then..cramps in his thighs...so we just sat and watched the game, then left to eat moughrabieh at TT's place, but we weren't vry hungry....T showered and we sat down to watch "Casino Royale"...nice movie...but we didn't get to finish it cause we had to jet to Buffalo's for a romatic dinner with D and Laz...but instead we get Dan. Caroline and her family, and LAz and D...although we got upset they were late and all...we had very romantic moments...and cried and laughed...and just enjoyed the romantic night....then drove home around 1:00

Red Love

2008-02-16T01:54:00.000-08:00

Woke up early...really early to head to hairdresser ...get my hair done, and a manicure...it's been forever I haven't pampered myself...damn work it sucks so much from one's life....
I was all pretty in Red today and TT wore red too.....the Love couple
SO I finished all dat and left to TT's place...he was already up and showering...and his parents were all perplexed what to do with me....funny....we left after T's shower and headed to the bank, pay phone bill ask about roaming line to Dubai...and bla bla bla....passed by my dad's shop to tell him the news of DUbai....he was expression-lesss......and the we left to see the jeweler for the nose ring....not ready yet.....and the ring fixed so I placed it in my finger.....then we faxed the contract to Dubai...all went well....then BREAKFAST!!! Foul wa hommous and falafel....yummmy. yummmy...yummmy....we left then for a $ugar pickup from a client, then meeting with a client...then TT got a call from Issam about some freelance work to finish...so he had to go do that and I was tired...but instead of staying over at his place to rest I left to meet D and Laz at Cafe White.....stayed for a brief moment then left home with Dan to Nap till 7:00...TT called and came over after work for tea and light dinner...and stayed over all night...it was so sweet of him...we enjoyed the night...Oh and today I gave him his Val gift....POLICE sunglasses : )
I think he liked them although his mom thought they were big...mmmmm....well I love them and T

Caroline's Kid was over...they all left to party and I babysitted till 7 in the morning..watched "Redemption" DVD..while he slept

earthquaaaakeee

2008-02-15T14:55:00.000-08:00

Fight Fight fight....I fought with T so early in the morning cause he didn't ring me when he got on the bridge....Oh boy

Earthquake today...shock us on the 16th floor office....4 on richter scale
But we were ok

I tried to calm things down with T and they did...he passed by after work and we had the heart cake together....he wasn't in a good mood a lot...he left home...weather bad for soccer practice and he was tired....I'd see him tomorrow

VALENTINE

2008-02-14T10:24:00.000-08:00

Called TT up early in da morning...he was still asleep although he had work....he left to work around 12:00...there was the million man strike today...so he was troubled about getting to work.
I think he was kind of upset about going to work...but I tried calling him time to time to make him feel good.
C:10:18: T I'M CRAZY FOR U....UR MY TRUE LOVE ....TOUBRRINE SHOU B7EBIK YA ZA3RA....ktir ktir..ad il bahr wa mawjato
Jordan calls me with new job proposition...oh my God!!!! I am so excited!!!!!

He passed by after work to surprise me with a heart cake...it was beautiful...but he didn't stick around for long for us to cut it...he ran off home and to the gym to meet Tony M for a ping pong game
I called him up around 8...no answer
c:8:09:WHY DONT U ANSWER!!! Ur so weird today...u make me feel so insecure : (
but he called back instantly...he didnt hear the cell ring....
C:8:18:I LOVE U TANTOUN ktir ktir ktir ya albi

Countdown begins

2008-02-13T13:31:00.000-08:00

2 seconds and I almost missed T on the bridge.....it was funny right at our seperaton point....we were both upset ...t mentions tearing at work cause of my travel issue...I'm going to miss him so much
C:9:00:I luv ya....and dont ask how much!!!!
Nothing much at work today...I was so overtaken by thoughts of Dubai

I sent my approval to the contract today...just have to sign it

LEft to gym....cried on the way...I'm gonna miss a lot of things even though I don't have much here but my family....
T had gym and football practice...oh and Joseph from Futsal tried calling today, but I didn't pick up...what is wrong with losers!!!
T stayed out all night playing at Chouefeit
C:11:28: GOALLLLL!!!!!hhehehehe...bon oui mon cheri

and I was going to sleep about 12:00...when all of a sudden....HONK HONK!!!! TT arrived..runing up to my house with a jewlery box...awwwww....it was a white gold cross with a diamond center......awwwwww.....I'm in love....prrrrr !!!!

TT is crazy.....and I love that this valentine's....it was beautiful...so unexpected....Danny "the twin" was with him and they honked their way away : )

THE CONTRACT

2008-02-12T13:40:00.000-08:00

Ok all I wanna say today is that the contract was sent..and I said tomorrow I would reply tomorrow
TT came over to talk things over, and we were both just dumbstruck for a while....what are we going to do away from one another....TT!!!! The countdown will begin : (

TT Tummy ache

2008-02-11T07:04:00.000-08:00

TT suffering from drowsiness and tummy aches...haram 7ayeti
didn't spot him on the bridge cause he had to pass by pick up the office PC screen

Dan arriving today : )

C:9:19:I woke up this morning feeling so so so in love.THx for the fantastic weekend my luv...kisses Mr. adorable
C:49:hey love.I'm EATING SO MUCH!!Mon Dieu!I'm going home after work.going 2gym class..call me when u leave!mwah

Foul

2008-02-10T05:43:00.001-08:00

T came over t around 12:00 after washing his car....got some foul and chick peas...coke...and we prepared an awesome lunch!!!
Yummy...it was soo amazing
Then my dad arrived by surprise and had to hide TT...heheheh...then papa left we had some tea with TT and he left home...then he started shouting agian....one of his bad habits
C:1:02:I miss my sweetheart
C:9:00: Love I get cold when ur next to me.....brrrrr brrrr brrrrrrr toubbrrrrrinnniii
C:9:50:if u wake up before 12:00 call me cause cc misssssss u ya tantoun

4 hours, 4 seconds, 4 and more

2008-02-09T05:33:00.000-08:00

What a day...4 used to be my bad luck #..but no more
T came over took after cutting his hair to take me to the hairdresser to cut and fix my hair....he was very very very moody, and wouldn't tell me why
he didn't even wash his car....so I sent him a romantic sms too cool him off which kind of did....left to my place and prepared him breakfast while he left to pump his tires....we had breakfast and hung almost 4 - 6 hours at home, nappping eating, talking...it was so relaxing...he cooled off and things were great...D and Dave were with us...we decided to go out for a while in the late afternoon...so went shopping for a pair of jeans...bought some nice ones...then we met up with T and headed for a dinner of shawrma and "nkha3it" sandwiches....yummy...then to have fruit cocktails, at T's favorite place...then ABC...found a diamond nose ring for me for 115$...and tried on T's Police sunglasses again...had a small arguement with TT from a slight misunderstanding...then met up with Nino and Dave, and headed home for some tea...with mom....had a long but wonderful day
t left by 11

friday finally

2008-02-08T05:21:00.000-08:00

well it was a good day at work...I couldnt wait to leave and meet up with T
Dan travelling today....I wished him goodbye 3 times....he had forgotten his passport in the Celi.
Left work in a hurry to my parent's shop...dan passed by before he left on his flight...kissed him goodbye
Went shopping on my own...T was late to meet up with me...I went from one place to another, while T finished from the Rita girl meeting in BH...got so bored I left to the mall....hung around Dave's girl...chit chatted while everyone arrived
D had picked up mom from the shop and were heading my way...so was Dave and T
Found these wonderful Police sunglasses for TT
Didn't feel like going home, especially since I was dressed in this wonderful purple suit...so we dropped off mom and me D and T left to have dinner...it was fun...we had so much to eat!!! 2 servings of salad bar, and club sanwich with fries...sooo fulll!!!
Then we left home to have tea..but TT too tired from full day..so me and D had tea...T left, and we watched 8 femmes...some french movie at midnight...nice

marriage around

2008-02-07T04:46:00.000-08:00

Woke up with my eyes closed....I couldn't keep them open...had to wake up Dan to drive me to work...they shut while I walk!!!!
I must be so damn exhausted my body is putting me to sleep
Carely caught T on the highway...but we managed.....stopped for some turbo coffee on the way...today dressed like a wild woman....zebra pants, cow like belt, zebra necklace, high - heeled high length boots : )
T wants us to get married !!!

Oh God how do I stop my eyes form closing....Sweety I miss u much much.wish I could fall asleep on u

Dizzy

2008-02-06T23:12:00.000-08:00

Still feeling dizzy and nauseous in the morning.....didn't get to see TT, cause he moved late....Dan dropped me off .....had 2 whole pitas for linch...I must have been hungry from not eating for a week..
Lots of love over the phone
Left work to go buy some sports gloves and bag...but couldn't find any bags...and gloves....well I only found one cheap brand that had my size...Reebok, Addidas, Puma, and all didn't have small...and even if they did their small was loose....so I bought nice white gloves...and left home to pack for gym....T had football practice.
I really sucked at body pump class...no energy what so ever and kept feeling dizzy and nauseous....and even when I got home I was feeling not so well, spoke to T and fell asleep

Airport drive

2008-02-05T23:37:00.000-08:00

left tto work....couldn'tt catch T on the highway cause he couldn't leave the site on time to spot me : (
However during the day we planned on going out in the afternoon....I'd go over to his parent's place, he'd pick me up, go for Bk burgers, then hit the mini football game at 7:00...BUT things didn't go as planned...cause his boss wanted him to drop off a package at the airport..so I went to the market and waited for him to pick me up from my father's shop...he didn't know how to get to the airport...so I showed him the way....we got there on time, but we had no time to get to the minifoot match....I didn't want to jet there...it wasn't worth itt.....so we just went back to my car, and I left hoe to rest...and he left to Lea's to get some Sugar....she din't give him the eamount promised : ( Then TT left to gym....and I waited for him to get home before we both fell asleep :: )

Back

2008-02-04T23:09:00.000-08:00

Well, I finally had the nerve to open the phone line.....my first received call from Jordan seconds later...they want me to work for them...heheheh....I had a brief talk with T...we were both down, and in love, and just missin....We kinda said what was on our mind, but in friendly way...cooled things off and just gently flirted with another through the day...
T had overtime work till 9:00...so I left to gym , and he came over to my place at 9:30 till 10:00 cuddling loving, and just being sweet : )
T left home to rest, and we both fell asleep early...he had to get up early to go to one of the work sites

time off

2008-02-03T00:34:00.000-08:00

Off….Time off from TT.
Phone off all day…neither one of us tried contacting the other. : ( Sucks
How can we be so in love and out of it in seconds.

Another arguement

2008-02-02T00:33:00.000-08:00

Sarturday…got up to teach. T had already packed his bags and heading to Faryaa with Massoud and his cousin. I went to give the last course for the season…felt sad for many reasons…enjoyed the class…handed them their certificates, and left with short kisses and goodbyes….then called up TT he was at the “Peest”hehehh….I called up D and Dan to have lunch with them….so we went for Chinese….Laz appeared by surprise….he came for surprise visit to DD with roses and teddy bear…we enjoyed are time, then headed shopping…didn’t find much…just bought a belt and necklace. Then home….I was very sad…..T gone for the weekend….I was alone….and sad….for some reason, no diamond, not much money makes me happy anymore.
Got into another argument with T…I CANT believe he just left me alone this weekend..he didn’t even leave his car, so if I wanted to go he’d be here for me.
After a few hot blooded phone calls…I just shut my phone down….this man is never going to understand me, and he’s always going to prefer his friends over me….plus he still doesn’t know how to make up for things.

Hospital call

2008-02-01T01:24:00.000-08:00

Didn't see T at bridge...he was late, but he called me up early to see if I was going to hospital....had no one to go with, plus didn't get salary paid yet...so thought maybe T and I can go in the afternoon

Parking guy wants me to pay monthly fee of 66000 or 4000 a day...bastard

Left to my parents place…waited for T to arrive to take me to hospital….got a pink rug for my room…chatted up with dad and mom a bit…T arrived and we left to the “Doctor”….but I wasn’t very convinced with his analysis of a normal cold…I istill vomit, and don’t eat much…..anyways I got my medicine..cougg syrup, then we went to cut TT’s hair, and organic tea at my dad’s shop…had one of those arguments with T about going tomorrow to Faraya….he left home, packed his things for tomorrow and I slept early too. Teaching tomorrow.

Pneumonia

2008-01-31T06:03:00.000-08:00

Dan dropped me off at dunkins this morning....had an episode with the new guy there, who didn't know what tissue meant, and who loaded my coffee with cream...ugh!!!!!!
Dan drops me off at work today...T late to wake up
started getting sick again...think it's pneumoniaa or bronchitis...sucks...I can't breathe, rapid breathing, coughs, fever, vomiting, nausea...can't sleep at night...very hard

C:3:06:Ok I'm better again.Today is khamis il sakar,wnna get drunk together : ) I didn't eat yet.not hungry
C:4:00:Yesterday my family was surprised...the first time they hear me say I love u to a man..hehehe luv ya

Went home napped a while...spoke to T when I woke..he had to go see Issam and Joe for house renovation thingie
Called me when he got back at 10:00...apparently the boys rent a chalet this weekend although the weather sucks...and T told them yeah but for next week, not this weekend, and they misunderstood so thy rent it this week, and I got into a little argument with TT cause I was ill and didn't want to go this weekend....and they wanted him to pay 80$ for it...ughh!!! Stupid.

Fucking sickiness

2008-01-30T00:06:00.000-08:00

Went to work really fucked up...I felt horrible ...looked horrible...red nose and teary eyes....I wish I could go home...
T cllled me several times to check up on me, bu tI felt really really sick....
Went home, slept for a while, and left to gym, to sweat off thee cold...couldn't get any sleep....woke 5 times at night
T had gym as well

Sick again

2008-01-29T05:17:00.000-08:00

Sick again I dont' damn believe it...my body feels soooo weak!!
Couldn't sleep last night...felt like shit....and arrived to work 20 min late
Barely spoke to TT today...was very busy and feeling so sick...wish I could go home
Drove home afer work...TT was coming over...Bought fresh hot bread, labneh and chees, and we had a light dinner...and he was sooo sweet he played with my hair, and just cuddled me while I was sick....and he helped me with the Geography book illustrations...I luv him...prrrr
Ceasar called him up to go to gym....and they played ping pong

Had a hard tim sleeping at night...I felt I was going to die

Mondaaa

2008-01-28T05:11:00.000-08:00

Work....no one on roads after riots.....schools and unis off....I missed TT on bridge....
Think I"m coming down with a cold....Jordan loved my character designs....thank God it was a success
I overtimed at work, so did T
HAd gym today, but couldn't complete the class....my body very week
T had gym as well

Riot against T

2008-01-27T05:03:00.000-08:00

Ok to cut Sunday down....T was sick but Masoud asked him out for lunch and TT couldn't refuse....they went out anyway, and TT stayed over at Massoud's till 11pm...I got mad, and dumped him supposedly....he drives me crazy...riots on roads, tires burning and TT can be an asshole sometimes....I can hate him

Popping

2008-01-26T04:48:00.000-08:00

Woke up ear;y to go to bank cash in check, and get my MasterCard...then drove over to T's to wake him up from bed cause I felt he was upset from me, I hadn't wished his mom "salemtik" after bombing yesterday ...everyone was napping at his place, except his mom who was at the chickens coop....she left the door open and I walked right in to wake TT...he was so surprised when I kissed him...still sick haram. SO he got up to shower, cause I had to jet to Naji's to email a file, and class starts 11:30...we got ther 10 min late...but we enjoyed class alot cause we were making balloon animals...and balloons kept popping....it was fun...then we shopped in few places, headed home to email my work cause email didn't send....T rested on the sofa while I finished some work, then we headed to my parents place to hang out till my car wash finished...we walked to BK, had onion rings, chicken sticks and Whopper...we had a lot of fun, then we shopped in his area, bought myself a purple top, and then dropped TT off home, and I left home to finish my work....slept about 3:00.....so sleepy

bomb

2008-01-25T00:42:00.001-08:00

T had a drop off to make this morning so we couldn't see each other....arrived a bit early to work
Big Bomb this morning...T's mom and my parents missing....calling still to find out where everyone is
T still ill

TT ill

2008-01-24T00:02:00.000-08:00

TT sick....haram aantoun....got a good glimpse of each other on the bridge....I was driving fast, but managed to catch T
MBC calls today, and several other clients, for work...I'm so packed with things tto work on....ugh!!!! I can't seem to turn down a job!!!!

T on pills, and me sleepy. I had to run back home to finish some work..T went home to nap...he was too tired to go to gym

Goals

2008-01-23T12:02:00.000-08:00

well this morning it took me 1 1/2 hrs to get to work...my new goal in life is to get to work on time....T arrrived at 10
Busy day kind of
Had a meeting after work...went great, then had a fantastic phone call from Jordan for freelance work.....got paid a huge check, and went to the gym....t ovetimed at work and hit the gym later

Tuesday

2008-01-22T11:55:00.002-08:00

Welll I saw TT on time today, thought he was 20 min late to move....day went by nomally, except for the extra special loving TT gave me...
I had a meeting after work that was cancelled, so I just met up TT for tea and biscuits....lots of kissy kissy...romance back...then..he left at 8:30.....I went out with Nino D and Dan to celebrate Nino's BD.....sad TT didn't come

My ex calling my sis like crazy God knows why

Came home late and fell asleep on the coach

Normal Day

2008-01-21T12:43:00.000-08:00

Met T at the bridge...normal day at work nothing special
C:10:07:hey love,I kinda miss ya body....wine all over
C:403:sweetheart I feel like having chocolate.Not much work today.Miss you much much.mwahhhhhh ..
Normal day...we both had gym, and things were ok

Dead roses

2008-01-20T05:16:00.000-08:00

feeeling like a dead rose this morning....didn't know what to send TT in the sms I promised.
I got up had breakfast, finished some work..Caroline and her kid slept over...so the house was a little chaotic
We all had breakfast, and Dude's girl was there too
T woke at about 12:00...he wanted to come over but my dad was coming over and I had things to finish....waited and waited and waited but dad didn't come, so I just asked T to come over, and he did...we had a wonderful time....we prepared a light dinner, some wine, chesnuts, and snuggles....Dolly was over too...we had fun, it was romance again...warm

Broken Roses

2008-01-19T01:01:00.000-08:00

Got up early, had to drop off my mom somewhere and meet up with T....things were a bit calm...T bought us cheesse mankoushi for breakfast.....then we went to teach....had a good time.....then we decided to go to the restaurant we were at a few weeks ago...had tabbouleh, baked potatoes, hommos, and stuff. We spoke a little, then on our way down, we spoke a lot and cried a lot....I felt he was very vulgar, and in total attack mode....he hurt me with everyword and I just didn't have much to say....the things he spoke about just didn't get through my head...I hated him so bad...just wanted to get out.....eventually things calmed down and we decided to have cofeee...it turned out to be my mom's BD tomorrow so we decided to take her out today.....we picked up Dolly too, and took them to Sanyour....had dinner, and left back home...apparently, TT hates my family, and maybe doesn't even love me enough anymore...he wanted to leave....I dropped him off at his car...we spoke a bit, and he left to Massoud's...stayed there till 1:00. I fell asleep, just sad : (