Work vs Tab

C: 9:36:good morning sweety,I tried calling u but ur phone was out of battery....bonjur ANTONTI!!!!
T:12:19: Cc.CC.Cc.bisse love ya
C:12:24 I love ya baby T....sorry about the weather 7ayeti..why don't u do some bissiklit : )
T alone at Tab...no friends...weather sucks and he's got not much to do....going to have mankoushi for breakfast
C:2:01: TT.T.TT.T.TT...I was having lunch I ddin't hear u buzz me....keef il amboura?
C:3:59:TTT ambourti kbeeri, wa ma byehtam bi CC laino ballo bil Sea, wa mich il C : ) Helwi hay? hehehe
T:5:38:Cc habibie ya bisse ya amboura ya kbire ya zghire ya hayeti ya 3omre
tired a bit from work...back hurts
T playing cards with Sousou and Gaby : )
I left work late then headed to oick up Dude from the shop...looked for shoes to wear, since it's sale....nothing good available and not my size : )
Left back home and stayed up all night working
Christopher came over to T's, and Rami, they went night swimming...cards and stuff....then when they came back to the chalet around 12:15, T called me up ...and this misunderstanding happened from his yelling so I said goodnight and fell asleep sad.
He tried calling later in the middle of the night, but I was too sleepy -tired to answer

work meeting work

C: 9:38: Hey Baby,u can call CC on 01 3xxxxx, ask for me....I'll be waiting for ya sugga
T called me up all day today..I was so into work I lost trck of time, plus I had a meeting after work, I wasn't able to see TT...he went to cut his hair at christophers and pack his things for Tab and pik up his car from the garage....he came over around 9:30 pm....car looked fanatastic shining, and his hair was beautiful in an army cut : ) Lovely....he came over and helped me a bit with my work...I made him stay till 11:20 by my side....I haven't seen him all day I missed him, so he hung around while Ifinished some work : )
TT off tomoorow and I""M WORKING!!!
I HATE THAT!!!!!

working

Me and T at work....d never helped him with resignation letter so I had to mail T a few samples...
C:10:17: I wanted to tell u something last night...a new feeling I'm having...it's strange...remind me tonight
C:10:19: Oh and guess what....I'm wearing the funny bee earrings today...bzzzz bzzzz bzzzzzz
C: 10:30 Babe check ur mail I have a few resignation letters for you : ) Sweet CC
C: 4:20Luv ya luv ya luv ya..yah yah yah yah... : )
Wondering why T is saving up all his units, when he doesn't call or sms me mutch mutch.....hmmmm, is he talking to Rim or Joelle, or joanna or carla, or some hoe I don't know...hmmm
Got home at 8:30...not tired, but overwhelmed from work....spoke to T...his car not done yet...and everyone at work wants him to stay...ahhhhhhh...his parents left to Faraya to his sister's place....home alone....watching "Banit 3amitti" or something....said our goodnights....I had freelance to finish
I want BOTOX TTTTT PLZ!!!!!!!
I want new shoes, and new clothes and a new cell phone...and xtra cash to learn online...and many things more...like sunglasses , accessorizes and make up...bla bla bla......hmmmmmmm goodnite

Taaa3 Biss biisss biss

Rented for work by this agency I love and hoped to work for ….storyboarding today and art directing tomorrow for a week : ) Talked to T all day….he was busy too….then I had a meeting after work, but went with Dan to have KFC before the meeting…T left with Caroline and Nabil to the mechanic…I spoke to him once he got home, and e wanted help with his resignation form…told him d would help with it tonight…..I received a lot of work today to do….it’s crazy…yesterday I had nothing!!!!
All day I was thinking…for the first time in my life….I’m working for me and T …and nt for myself, but for our future….it’s strange but I like the feeling : )

Iiiiiiii LOVE U T.A.A......taa333 bisss biisss bissss....heheheheheh

Homey

at home....of course
T put his car in the garage, and ready to give in his resignation form....and I'm still looking for a job....Goodluck to the both of us. T didn't call me all day....busy I guess, and I had to jet to a meeting at 3:00, I briefly talked to him, and missed his call when I left to the meeting but he called me on the way... wished me goodluck...meeting went well one way or another and I might have some freelance work to do...if things work in my flow...ummm then I left to my dad's shop, c alled T from there and left back home...t had already left with Caroline, so I missed his call, he mc me at 5:30 when he left....I got home, waited for him to get to his but by 7, I feel asleep and he called my house and my mom spoke to him...I was in bed waiting for his misscall...woke up and he still ahdn't called till 8:45...he disconnected my call and i got angry, why the fuck he hadn't called...he called me around 9:00 said he was with his sisters car buying gel and stuff...whatever....I PROMISE U T IF U DAMN DONT CALL ME WHEN U GO OUT,WHEN U GET HOME AND NEVER PICK UP WHEN I CALL IM LEAVING UR ASS!!!!!! I'M SICK OF RUNNING AROUND UR ASS!!!
CC
I hope he keeps his promise
We chatted before he slept, called him back to tell him i wasn't going to be home early in the morning due to a meeting, and wished him a good night
C: 11:56 am : Missin u
C: 11:40 pm : Goodnite sweety...please be patient with my stressful mood for a while like I've been with u....thx luv ya

CC swimaholic

I woke up not in a good mood again, things not working out for me, I was going to cry but didn't...And I hate going to T's when I'm not in the mood....I got there....his phone was off, so I couldn't mc him....haram he was still sleeping, I slept right next to him for a while..and he satarted whimpering and behaving like a dog it was so funny...yesterday he was playing duck in the water....I laughed so hard....today it was dog....I got up to make him breakfast....Byt that time Ceasar and Carla had come over....T went to wash up and crush his teeth....we had breakfast and headed down to the pool...the weather was till great....we went to the "Radou "again....but the water was soo mury today it made us nauseous, and thew swim took forever...but we got there, and we went twice again...but it was so sick!!! ughhh so much jet skis they made the water gross....but we had fun cause we went with Jad and Johnny and Jason and we were like this little C group thing....no scars today....then T went with Ceasar to fish out some clams and they came out with this big one next to the shore....It was so big!!!....We waited till the afternoong to eat them with lemon and it was sooo tasty...we played cards today....not me vs T....but T nouha, and some people...I sat by T or on the pool....then we went some more "birkeh" swimming, ahowered and headed to eat some of yesterdays left overs...Ceasar and Carla had gone...so it was me and T ....we fell asleep after lunch on the sofa, and left the ke in the chalet door.....Lea walked in on us...but we were sleeping...nothing awkward...but she brought friends along so we got up and left to our footbal match...T played soooo goood....won 4:1...then Joe gave up n the game...there was a lot of competition going on, and a lot of static....so we were supposed to go Fatron for dinner with the boys, but I guess because of the game, everyone went his way...we just left to the chalet and showered...Lea and her friends still there....and we left....T dropped me offf home, Dave helped hime pull out the apple sticker fromthe back caue T's car was goingto the garage. Doly was over so I made her and mom some tea...T got home around 11:00, tired he fell asleep too...we fell asleep together...I thanked T so much for the weekend we had soo much fun : )
Oh...plz note that stupid Elma, Elma, Sandra, Suzzanne Rim Daisy or whatevr she calls herself....left a misscall on his phone, if not a message t claims to be the bank...hmmmmm

Sat...no sitting all play

Went to Tab early, but I woke up in bad mood and things were falling apart around me it got me soo pissed before I even saw T......, T went early to his interview, ..they loved him so much, he's getting a new job!!!!ahhhh Mabrouk TT so happy for u sweety....I met him at Tab gate afterwards...he had already gone to the market to get the barbecue stuff. We didn't have breakfast but just headed to the pool instead cause my mom had already made my orange juice and coffee in the morning and he had eaten mini croissants before the interview...so we headed down and the weather was AWESOME!!!! It was absolutely calm , sunny, and not a single breeze...waves were so low u could walk on water....my friend May was coming over....but before that we went for a swim to the "radou" or "radar thingi" in the middle of the sea....T had borrowed the surf from Naji and we paddled our way ther, I was actually able to swim a bit...it was reat, and we sat there for a while then swam back..went there twice...second time we went on a cruise with the jet ski!!! IT was my first time....virgin jet skier, and ofcoure what else to happen, we flipped and flopped and bing and banged and toppled over in the water....thank God for life jackets!!! And T was driving.....hahahah...but we had so much fun, I had a chance to drive it tooo and it was sooooo cooll....I love I love....T so good to m e today, maybe because of the job thing, his whole mood has changed...he's so cool now!...we had fun all day, I don't think we sat for a min, kept swimming here and there and doing stuff...soo much fun...O h and I forgot, I scarred my leg so bad...my 2 legs!!! they put red"Iozine" medicine on it and it got all over my hands, I looked like a henna monster...it was sooo funny....I was red all over!!!!...I think people freaked out when theysaw me...hahaha....anywyas.we went up to the chalet at noon to have jambon and cheese sandwiches...we didn't wanna have the barbeque just yet since it would take up most of our time....but by 6:30...May was leaving, so we decided to go up, invited the Coach over.. he was going to make us Tabbouleeh, which looked bad but tasted good....some hommos, sausages, and tawouk...and we were ready....yummmy....I love barbecues....later Massoud came over to join us, and we sat and ate and laughed....they wanted to end the night in card playing, but not me....I got ready to leave home....There was a kids birthday party...Jad and Johnny I heart were dancing like crazy....T won a game of cards...they stayed up till 3:30...T had placed our blue mats, and fell asleep, I was asleep by 11:30.

Bored to death - Unbelievable

Home home again
Going crazy ,almost mad and hysterical...I need to get a job, I have bills to pay and things to buy....oh man....T keeps saying things will be all right but I'm not in the state to believe it....I decided to go print out my CV and go to this agency that helps u find work ...on the way I picked up my bro's DHL package and headed to the agency only to find out I forgot the address at home!!! Ughhhh!! so I decided to head to my dad's shop to see my mom who was upset earlier....T still at work....hasn't been calling all day, suppossedly busy.....Helped my dad clean out the window display, T came over for a few minutes while passing to see Mirelle for his toe....He had gotten me some broasted and potatoe in a bag with him....sweet...I left them for later....he passed by only for a few minutes and left to finish off some things.....

C:11:42:Hey babe...I'm sad...no job offers today...maybe there is something wrong with me : (
C:2:39: I'm going in to shower..no calls or emails for work yet : (
C:11:31:I feel something is wrong ur lying for sure...who's with u?

SO T left to Tab about 8:30 and I got worried cause it was 10:30 and he hadn't called me yet. SO I call and he said he stopped to get some stuff on the way - Halloum- as usual and hanging with the boys, and Lea's coming over....ok....I don't get why when he's around my entourage it's a 5 min thing and he jets and when he's in his world he takes all time of the day.........anywyas, I call back and he disconnects my call and I try to call back but the phone is off for about 15-20 minutes....hmmm I get worried....so I sms him : why is ur phone off.i'm counting 10min or else we fight...so miraculously enough he calls fromthe chalet to my house but for less than 20 sec....Hi Habbibi ...CCC habibi ....biki shi...and we get disconnected again.....hmmmmm...SO I try calling back and phone off....5 minutes later he calls me, apparently the chalet phone gets disconnected weird enough.....and He was calling from under the building...mmmmm...so I tell him to get back up there and call me from the chalet...i felt like there was someone up there....I dunno why...just a feeling....so I ask and he says no one and I ask and he says nobody, and we say our goodbyes.....he smss me: Gimme a kiss cc ya ghayoura
SO I sms him back: don't try to be cute when ur bad.Who's with u? I don't believe u..goodnite and stop misscalling me.I hate it...and he tried calling but Iwas waiting for him to call me home...and he did after 5 minutes or so, calmed me down....I do go mad sometimes but he makes me feel uneasy...ughhh!!! I'm so stressed without a job....he found my swimsuit in the drawer...sniffing it...ewwww!!!1nasty bastard...I had to calm down for the sake of his meeting tomorrow....wished him luck...and sweet dreams

Home work

Woke up restless, I can’t get any sleep at night..tooo worried. No job and freelance beginning to slow down…need cash...I feel I'm disappearing from existense at home..…I woke up early to do some intense house cleaning, spoke to T, and drew a few sketches, and tidied up a few tings…in the afternoon I fell asleep for an hour sooo tired. Issam calling T since morning to give in freelance work. Ziad came over with breakfast, then Dave cam with the same breakfast, had dinner with Dan Dave and Zizo, then we watched “Nomad” stupid movie….read and read and doodled, and thought a lot. Hemo had called T to go to Tabarja to help him out with some camping stuff, so T left work and headed to Tab to finish some freelance and help “He” out a bit. TT promised me a gift and barbeque this weekend…ouuuu lalala…..We might have a picnic planned out with D and nino Saturday evening if things go right…nchallah. Haven't seen t in 4 days, I feel so distant and sad : (
SMSs of the day
C: 11:40 Hey Sweety...hope work isn't stressful today..not much to do here..eating and working..kisses
C:12:38 Babe i'm going to fall asleep for a while.goodnite
T:3:58 :Cc amboura kbire wtiza bel kon kello u my flower
C: 4:11 Congratulations after 1year 1 month u have reached 190 sms messages on my phone : )whats my score?
C: 11:54:goodnight sweety

Double Focus

Focus on work…sitting at home all day focusing on work corrections….T at his office double focused.
T left home to finish some freelance but instead he left to Elias's and called me from there to ask if I'd ho with him to St.Sherbal, I said no, told him to go instead. He suppossedly had a dentisi appointment at 9:30 and never made it.
SMS:
C:9:02: Morning amboura
C:2:00: 2 minute break to send my man a kiss.muahhhhh
T:7:12: Cc ghanouge.im going to st charbel
C:7:22: Ok sweety.Pray in peace & tell God 2 help us have a better life.I'm waiting 4 u 2 get home safe

BLack Caramel

Home all day designing Jims and Nin's Business cards....applied for jobs, no luck. but an old friend of mine might have a freelance project to work on : ) Had t fix some Ramadan work...then me and mom decided to finally go to the movies, so we went to watch Caramel - lebanese based movie. She hasnt been to the movies in ages...Bought her some Caramel popcorn to enjoy, but taking Mothers out is drastic, so much complaining and whining...ughhhh!!! But we enjoyed it somehow...T was at work, mechanic couldn't fix his car till next week, so he went to fix his chipped tooth instead...Talked to him on the way back from the movies...apparently their motor blew smoke all over the house turning evryone and everything black...heheheh, and they call me black...haram they had to clean up all night...don't now why all the bad luck these past few days...Jim came over at night to see his Business cards, loved them all : ) we had broasted chicken together, and I got too tired to stay up late...fell asleep by 12:00

Down goes Saki

Home today with mommy. Didn't do much just applied for agencies, talked to a few friends, had lots of coffee, and talked to T a bit, he was very busy. Someone had thrown an egg on TT's car, after work...the assholes!!!! and he missed the dentist and the garage...so it's till tomorrow. Mom made some delicious Lasagna...so good, I ate 3 plates!!!!ahhhhhh!!! And while me and mom were washing the balcony, Saki was walking on the balcony bars, slips and falls to the lower garden breaking his leg and teeth...pooooor SAKI....but me and mom cracked up so hard and D went hysterical....it was funny though.
SMSs:
T: Fi amboura mabsouta wtiza bel kon cccc u hear me love ya taztouz
C: Sugar I don't hear anyone but u these days...I have no friends. u are my father,my mother, my family..kisses
C: Prrrrrrr....prrrrr....meow meow....dour'eve mon amour!!
C:T gimme a kiss!!!! and ur mom ofcourse, and pray I get a job soon my love...goodnite

MEOOOOOOWWWW - Gimme a kiss!

Got up early to go to Tab. Played a trick on T that I wasn't home and that I had left minutes ago.then Dave drove me there, and I went in as silently s possible and scared the shit out of T!!!! It was funny...he was washing his face. It was so cute of him, he had eggs, labneh and tea all ready to prepare, it was so beautifully romantic.....I love the guy when he's like that....so lovely...love love love...prrrrrr meow...he even made us a CT sign from the clams...so cute We had a great breakfast and we headed to the pool. But the weather sucked!!!! BAd bad weather...windy, cloudy and cold...but we went for a short swim in the high waves and sat and played cards with Jad and Johnny and met Nassif and just hung around the pool till 3:00,...evryone catching our phrase "Gimme a kiss"1!!! then we went to the chalet to eat, we had hot dog and mayo corn with tomatoe...T had it made while I showered, then we watched some movie called the "Vector File" and fell asleep....meow mewo, slrrrp slrrp....then we got up and went back to the pool to get our stufff, played some soccer with the boys in high heels with a barbie ball...and my heel flew and almost hit the goalie...what a life...... and T won a match of 15:1!!!!! His leg was great...fanatstic, but toe was hurting him, then we packed our things, picked up Naji who was ill, drove hm to his car and T took me home...it was a cool day....I like I like....2 goals today!!!!

Alone again

Alone again, me the cat and the fish
T had a meeting with some company I applied his CV to. He said they loved him…I should have written a higher salary on the CV!!!! 1250 $ so far….they will meet with him again to settle a deal….hope things work out, more than T’s car, cause it seems to not work fine these days, and he was having trouble on the way back from his meeting…He’s gonna place it in the garage Tuesday : (
We had a minor arguement on the phone, and I got mad: T rried calling a couple times, but I was just too mad to answer him
C:1:28:Plz T I'm absolutely not in the mood to talk to u right now.Just enjoy damn Tabarja.
C:2:55: U know,I'm damn stressed out,and u just don't help out sometimes...just want to be left alone for a while
T hanging ut with Nouha and Riad on the pool....me home again
T calls me back...him and Ceasar were out getting the fish nets, and they took some fish froma 50 kilo net....theives!!!!!Haram iharami!!!!
C:5:40: I finished my ramadan project I can't believe it.It took forever...men harami samak meen?

Alone

At home all day, me the cat and the fish again, went for manicure pedicure, T at the beach fishing and fixing his dingy….we’re both low on cash. My 2003 class reunion is tnight, I got dressed and ready, T didn’t want to drag along so I went by myself, T called me while I was there…he was with Riad and Maya on the pool, also playing baby-foot…I enjoyed the gathering and left back home.

offff....ufff....twitledum..alone

Home all day, then got ready for my 3:30 meetig that was a failure, but I ended up meetig an old client of mine, who might have a job for me...yipppy!!! T headed to Tab after work, he got Friday offf...Jim wants me to train with him around 7:00 everyday...sounds cool....in Marina
C: 1:07: Fe wahad mich sibit,3am ehki ma sahibto il mich sibti,min khato il mich sibit3an 3alakiton il mich sibti..
C: 7:51Hey babe!!I think I might have a job...not sure yet...salilli...wa touza tsalilli...wa meen habibi ana?
T went to Tab to swim, his chalet phone wasn't calling so he called me from his cell after his swim at around 10:00....no plans yet for tomorrow, besides my reunion with my uni friends : )

fffffff....

ff.....Usual morning routine. T off today. He's in Tab with friends, I don't know....suppossedly he's got freelance work, but I know he won't do much till late at night...lazy lazy lazy....I feel like fighting with him today...just to heat up the relationship a bit.....
C:I'm home...and ur in the water I know
Watch guy I bought T watch from called me up today to wish me a happy holiday, and to pass by see the new watches, like I have a fetish for tickers....anywyas, T said something about not being satisfied about the watch, got me mad, cause It's not damn cheap!! SO I smsed him:
C:Dear Mr.T,if u don't like the watch throw it or I will.I wish not to see u today.bye
But T calls me up about 7...after he had done with his freelance work....and he was being really sweet....turns out he was just angry how thw watch guy called me, and how everytime i meet someone they call me up...hehehe....I can't help it : ) So we decided to go at 9:00 to harissa, he came to pick me up....saw my parents on the way, then we headed to Harissa, teleferique was off, so we drove up there, and there was some trafffic, but we found a spot next to an army truck , parked, and went to pray...and we prayed, lit candles, sat for a while, then headed back down to eat at Crepeaway, ...bad lemonade and bad orange juice, so I drank T's coke, and had an apple tart, and T a Speigel burger....yummy!!! told me a story about a girl he went out with one night while they were partying years ago and her Birthday issue....funny....And then he dropped me off home....and he reached Tab in 10 min....I was supppossed to wake him at 6:45 the next day
C: Thx for dinner sweety.i love surprises and the way u were relaxed tonight.goodnite luv

Dum dede dum

Another day at home...feed the fish, feed the cat, workout, shower, breakfast..home alone all day, but today TT spoke to me more than esterday. He left work earlier than usual, went home, packed his things for Tab, shaved his beard and instantly came over to my place...I made him some fries while he prepared the salad...he got some coke wit him too and we ate loads of GARLIC!!!! Ukhhhhhh....he stayed till my mom came from work, then left to Tab. I miss him so

toot tooot toooot

Notta much today..T very busy at work to talk to me.....took my mom and bro shopping, and spent day in souk. Bought a Roberto Cavilli top, skirt and undies!!! My bro got a shoe, and my mom got some stuff for her. We had fun together, then went to the market...I got some freelance to do, so iwent back home to nap and get to work. T had to go to Issam for freelance work and he called me once he got home...I missed the bitch. Kept asking him why he hasn't been calling me, but he's been so busy lately....
C: 10:24 : TT...thx for last night.But stop answering damn bitches,cause I thought u don't like them.
C: 10:12: Sorry CC being so demanding but I miss u a lot sometimes sugar...mwahhh
C: 10:30: bon oui sweety T

Evil

Woke up from a terrible nightmare of fighting devils taking my baby, and evil in the family that wouldn’t go away….T had a dream his parents passed away…it’s sad….I was staying home today to work…T wanted to go down to the pool and finish his freelance at noon, then pass by my house at night with cornet icecream….wooopie!!! We didn't talk much all day, guess he was too busy for me...as far as Iknow he didn't finish his freelance work till he came over at 8:30....came with arabian ice cream...Rim called him, I can't believe he picked up....we fucking agreeed we don't talk to that hoe!!! Got mad...ate ice cream and finished our freelance work side b side...And who the fuck is Irina, he wants to be friends with???hmmmmm? How can I trust this man...he's into blone russian looking chicks...whatta fantasy! Wanna know what's mine?.......anywyas, we had tea, melon, cheese, ice cream, and bit of snacks...and finished our work together : ) He said he'll put me to sleep tonight, won't leave till I go to sleep.

Half

Got up to go to Tab…played a trick on the phone with T, he called up and Dave told him I had gone already early, wearing a mini skirt…but Iwas on the other phone listening up…hehe…May called me up, and we adjusted our timing to meet, I left, got there in 10 minutes!!! T met me up….for the first time I didn’t get angry early in the morning…it’s great when things happen smoothly….T helped me with my bags, and we went to prepare breakfasst…May had smsed that she arrived, so I went back down to meet her…parked her car…I haven’t seen that car since I left to Kuwait….we went to have BF in the chalet, May had her sandwich, cause she couldn’t eat much….tummy issues, we had halloum, tea, and ham….then left to the pool, we sunbathed while T caught fish, clams, and “tooutya”…played some cards, I won “Basra” AGAIN…..C the “Basra Queen”!!!!Woooooooooo……we went to have lunch by 3:30, half half-cooked chicken : ) I wasn’t really hungry…but Ilove joining T in lunch….May left early she had a dinner to prepare for and me Carla, Caesar left back down to the pool….some sunbathing, and fish catching, then me and T sat in the half empty pool having half a conversation about our half breakup….T was thinking last night of letting me go, and something about hating doing things out of his nature….didn’t mention what though….I wasn’t so into the convrsation cause I was in love, and happy, enjoying the pool and T….then we had a watergun fight!!!! And T won…poured me with water head to toe!!!!AHHHHHHH…..so fun!!! Then we packed our stuff, threw our uneaten clams back in the water and heade to the chalet, showered, fed “TT”, and sat down to watch Turistas. Had chips, pepsi, and light sandwich, then got my things to go….we went down to the market, and played some Babyfoot till Dave came….then Dave and Carl arrived and we played TC against Carl, and Dave..and guess who won……TC!!!!WOooooooo, a day full of winnings….so much fun….I win Tawouk, pepsi, but decided to go home, and have dinner there..had pizza….T met his friend from France..some guy I don’t know…and he spent the night with Hemo and that guy…I watched Surfs Up and fell asleep by 12:00…

Ultimate boredom

Home all day, nothing to do, some freelancing, but no mood to finish the work…so I got dressed in the afternoon, decide to see T and go to his parents place to get his things….but we got into a little argument caus ehe’s always moody theses days from work, and I’m depressed from no work, but things smoothed out and we left to his place…I haven’t seen his family in a while…..house seemed different ….Tipsy gone for good…..we picked some eggs from the hen house, ate some cherry tomatoes, then played a game of “Basra” and I won!!!!woooooouuuuuuu!!!! Then we left to get T’s car from his office, we talked there for a while….I wanted him to tell me to leave so we could just separate…but it’s not that easy for the both of us…we are passing through a rough time. We drove side by side, and he headed to the market to buy goods for tomorrow and I to get carrots, but Grocer was out. Then left home to watch a movie and some freelance. I’m sad for many reasons.
SMSs of the day:
C:Bonjour ya noouuur 3yeounni,yalli ma hakani iloum...just wanna say bon Jour ne!!!!
C: I'm going to se Touza and Boudi today,nanana nana ana ana ana...yimkin Tipsy btirja3...I miss my pussycat
C: luv u sugar
T: 12:02: ENte el hob li khaline 3ich bi dounia helwi tani. I wish to my dream with u come true
C:Goodnite Sweety see u in the morning

Boring

Not much today…finished my last paid freelance project, cooked up some burgers for me and my bro, smoked a narghhile, and slept. T didn’t talk much to me today….I have this feeling that this boy is trying to get rid of me slowly….pfffffft. What to do with him. Anyways, I’m bored. That’s’ all. T overloaded with work, couldn't get Caroline's laptop, he left to christopher's, pone battery dies, and called me up once he got home...he had tabbouleh and fries for dinner and slept by 1:00. His boss didn't give him a day off
SMSs of the day:
C: My love...try learning 3Dmax,so we can put it on ur CV.Better chance to find a job...plus Photoshop..luv ya
C: sweety I'm going to sleep.I got my period and bored.Bon nuit T
T: 9:20: Cc guess whatttttt?
T:9:21: I love u
C: Ur sms was cute...I thought u couldn't be romantic,what a surprise....mwahhhhhh...khalik hek my man
C: I really pray that someday we can do all the things I have running in my mind...goodnit sweety.

7000

Went to the bank, discovered I still owed them 7000$!!!!they took a lot of intrest %age : ( Damn that….thinking of having a savings account soon, then went to the souk, got all my repaired stuff….bought a watch, and went to see my parents at the shop. Asked my dad for 2000$, and cleaned the window display, then left home. Tried to nap, but 7000$ doesn’t put you to sleep. Got ready for my meeting, which went very well, then came back home to work. Still wondering what I should do about my life. T was busy at work all day, he left home, also bored, he fell asleep by 8:40, then called me up when he woke, to tell me he was going to the market to buy shampoo and see Ceasar. I called him at about 10:30, I was tired and going to sleep.

HMMMMMM....

T called me up once he got to work....but disapeared the rest of the day
C: Sms: Hi.u've been missing for 4 hours...
He called me at about 12:45....work is hell and he was depressed...so was I...but I got a freelance project to work on...was in a better mood....Didn't talk much to each other throughout the day...I thought T was trying to get rid of me slowly....
Spent the day with my mom...trying to cher up my mood...I was getting depressed by the minute....we were having tabbouleh and fish tonight...so I invited T over...was wondering if I was stil his girlfiend....yes but we were still thinking things over...til this weekend....ffffffffff...that sucks...anywyas T came over I was very happy, I missed him...he was wearing his black Trussadi, which I love on him....the watch I bought him wasn't ticking on time, I got pissed...but apparently it works on the heartbeat or something like that....and we sat cooked....we talked to my mom about us thinking on getting married, and what our problems were...hoping to find some kind of a guidance....and talked talked talked....I love T, but when he's depressed I feel so far from him, like I can't control his mind, or understand how to cheer him up...we spent some time together...all in love, and away from love....he gave me till this weekend to take a final decision...his face scares me....I feel like I'm losing him to the other world : (
He left about 10:00 to get some $$$ from Ceasar, and pass by the market....called me once he got home....market was closed...I smsed him:
HEY....I just want u to know u know me real well.It's amazing.I thought u knew nothing.Luv u for that.
Don't 4 get to misscall me B4 u sleep.Wish u a goodnite, and sweet dreams my love

Home

T miscalled me 7:45 to wake me. I mc back. I got up got dressed. I had to go to a meeting, and drop my bro Wisso off at the airport, and Dan had to take my dad’s car to the garage, and I had to pass by the seamstress…and much more things to do. T called me at 8:45 lovely goodmornings, but he sounded sad. I spoke to him all day, before and after the meeting, and passed by his office at noon, but was so heartbroken when I saw him….he gave me no hope for a future, and although he knew me too well, and I knew why things were the way they were….I missed him and wanted to stay by his side. I went home, napped it off, talked to him when I got up. And started with my freelance work.
C:7:41: Luv u…T

fffffff....

Morning spent them thru smss: I hope T can fill in the smss I sent him, cause I had no internet connxn to save the ones I sent thru WAP:
T:9:16: Bonjour amira bhebik
T:11:00: ?Cc u hear me im sick of u help me
T:11:13 Me too im wondering why wee took this fuck in decision I can’t leave without u
T:2:49: Wondering what doing my angel now
I was getting dressed to go out with D…she was getting a brushing, manicure, pedicure, for her 1 year anniversary too. We spent the morning entertained by the fish – Nimo – Nino had gotten her.
At about 7:45….ring ring, I get a phone call home….TT!!!I missed him so. Told me he was very miserable in Tab today, and everyone asked about me…some realized I was upset yesterday...thought me and T had a fight…but it wasn’t anything like that. He told me Maya. Riad and Little Jad were inviting us to a beach dinner tonight…and T said he wouldn’t go without me, and they wanted to call me, but he told them, he would cal me instead…and I agreed to go….I missed T, and just wanted to spend some time with him….got dressed and was there by 8:40…saw Joe and Elsa, walking with T. Dave dropped me off. And off we went to the beach dinner….everyone, into the political elections…me into T. We spend a good night, food was good, T fed me fish!!!! Yukkky! and T dropped me off home.I still sense the bad vibes around me…I just didn’t know if I was T’s woman or not anymore.

Unlucky #

Did I ever tell u about my unlucky #4. Everything seems to fuck me up on the 4th. I thought the damn curse vanished a year or so ago. Used to stay home when the 4th came along….so Went to tab at noon, after my pedicure, manicure, and internet café thingie…Jad called me to say he missed me….fucking cute kid, but Imust have scared him, cause Ithought it was a prank call from my ex!!!hehehee….He carried my stuff to the chalet, picked out my swimsuit…the one I wore the first day I met T, and we headed to the pool, met Lea#2 who was miscalling T while we were in the chalet…played some cards, with Jad and Johnny…won them…. T still in that mood that drives me mad. He’s been depressed for a while…we sat by the pool to talk things over…deep inside I know exactly why, but I thought thngs might change if I gave it a chance…and they just didn’t….I know it doesn’t fix itself , and a lot of sacrifice comes in return…I just couldn’t do it…I’ve changed so much already….going that way would just kill me inside. I couldn’t say much to T…although he had so many beautiful things to pour out…but somehow the fault wasn’t on me…we were just from different worlds, and even though the love was strong it strengthened the weakness along. I wasn’t his parents ideal daughter in law exactly….and many things along. Joelle Miss 9 had smsed him, something about her knowing he was getting married, and Mabrouk…if only she knew. I just couldn’t stand sitting with T like an idiot….Lea#1 was in the chalet all day…annoying….I just packed all my things, but the flaming heart….and the hat in the trunk of his car….I kept TC and the mouse. I left by 5:30 and mc him once I got home. Told him not to call me or visit me…once it’s over it’s over…I never look back….just move on if things don’t work…c’est la vie, right? First time I leave someone I love cause he couldn’t support me. I’m sitting on the balcony right now 8:22….and I see a blurred future…no job, no man, no idea what to do. I guess my TC story ends right here….lots of wonders in my head…..luv u T….wish u could have been in my world…cause you u were my world. I tried so hard….believe me…can’t seem to fit in urs….hoping one day u can come rescue me again like u once did. Goodluck luv…we smsed each other thru the night…till about 4 -5:
T:9:47: B7abik amirte I swear to my eyes how much ur lovely with me love ya amira
C:9:51: Fuck u beat me this time.I was sending u an sms!I wont lie to u,I’m heartbroken no words come to my mind but I wish to die by ur side.Luv to be with u
T:11:18: B7ebik cc
T:11:21: B7ebik aktar men 7ayete
C:11:27: Can u please try to win the Loto. I’ll die without u.Deep inside I hate you as much as I luv ya.luv u.luv u.luv u.luv u.luv u amboura
T:11:39:Bhebik bhebik
T:12:00:Bhebik
T:12:10: Im steel dreaming to sleep with u all night and make ur breakfast in the morning
T:12:26:Plz don’t cry im always beside u my angel
T:12:43: I wont to sleep to say hello to tc cc I missed u 3omre
T:1:38: B7ebik amira
T:2:10: B7ebik
T:2:44: B7ebik
T:3:03: Hard night I love u cc ya bisse
C:3:10 I wish so many things right now.T, u made me alive when I was dead.I feel im dying now: u were my life.my world from another world
T:3:14: God help me to return my woman alive plz
I had a hard time sleeping…watched “Borat”, smoked a narghile, and droke coke…..I just didn’t know what to do without T, without a job, with my life.

Over qualified

….Producer calls me in to her office to tell me I’m over qualified for the station, and they need some one, with lower salary…that they were downsizing….ha!!
Got my paycheck and finished my days shift…Bye chickens!! Bok bok bokiki!!!
Not so sad about it…went to pick up a paycheck from one of my clients, headed to T’s office, at about 6:00..he was stuck at work…kinda depressed today…. Went home…lots of damn traffic, cause of the political party voting thingie going on…T passed by me after he packed his things for Tab…He was very depressed…didn’t speak much…met my aunt, and left to Tab…Hemo invited him over…and he MC me about 12:00.

Transformers!!!

How can I live without u if I miss you every damn minute!!ur words last night got me thinking a lot
Sent TT an email: sugar sugar how u get so fly?
bzzzz bzzz thx for the earrings sweety....bazzzzzz bzzzzz bzzz

After work, Dan and Carl came to pick me up....thinking of going to the movies watch TRANSFORMERS!!! SO I called TT up, he still hadn't finished work..so told him I was going to have a Zinger at KFC, and to meet me there. I had finished the meal by the time he came...I think he got mad...bu tI didnt think he wanted to join me....anywyas, we left to City Mall to walk around, see the shops on sale...walked around,scratched T's back, laughed and enjoyed our time together....except once we got there I thought I saw a # calling him, and I doubted T...he had to show me the receieved and missed calls...and there was only my # on the top list....damn....then the sarcasm started...but we threw it all behind us, bought some caramel/salt popcorn....watched the interview with the "Caramel" actors, laughed at people , and went to watch Transformers....fucking amazing movie!!!! I loved it. Went in at 7:30, left at 10:00...said our goodbyes, and left me and Dan home.....had to pick up a recharge card for Dan's cell, and almost hit a man crossing the damn highway!!! Ughhhhh people...wouldn't have seen him if he hadn't been holding a paper....Went home, had intense stomach aches and barely fell asleep.

what's the time?

T called me up early.....it's been a while he hasn't called me while riding to work....it was so funny...like a new love born...yesterday was great

C:11:50 ANTOOOON!!!!!! what's the time?....time for loooooove
T: 11:52Love u 3omre aktar men al kon bhebik cc
C:1:21: (...phone in my office isn't dialling ur #!!I'm going mad...miss u much
Damn phone was out of service, but I managed to call TT later...he was tight at work...but we chatted for a min,laughed and promised to take me out BK or Hardees!!!ohhhhh
Left work to meet T at the parking next to my Dad's shop....met me about 6:00 and we headed to Mirelle's to fix TT's toe again....no pain this time, no cries....just waiting for his toe to grow properly....we left there to head to T's area to get medicine, and eat ice cream at Ceasar's but Ceasar wasn't there...I had a chocolate,strawberry cone, and T had a lemon,milk, choco biscuit...ugh!!!! Enjoying the ride, I couldn't stay long cause I had to go home to give Dan the car to drop Wisso at the Bus Station to Jordan. I got home at 7:22, undressed got ready to work. T called me up at 8:00, and we decided that he'd come eat dinner at my place since his parents were out, and he's home alone...so mom and I prepared TT fattouch, batata, and artichoke....yummmy!!!! Artichoke surprise for T....got me lemon and coke with him. Dolly came over too and we enjoyed the night till my dad called and stressed out my mom. Surprised T by wearing the funny bee earrings.Cute.....I"m enjoying my time with him so much these few days....He left at 10:00, called me when he got home....he's making me mad with all the negative talk...but we'll solve the issue this weekend....I finished some freelance and slept by 12:00