Chores duties therapy work and -3000$

We're 3000$$$ less of cash today!!!!BOOOOHOOOOOHOOOHOO : (
Needed to pay for chalet we're picking out tomorrow. Heartbreak, but we need it to spend a good summer vacation.
I spent day at home freelancing...picked up cash for my bro, headed to electolysis, and back to gym.
T had work, physiotherapy, and gym.
I had to freelance till late at night...and have to get up early to head to the sea tomoorow...Labor's Day...evryone's out and about.
Goodnight..funny thing is me and T were calling each other at the same time we didn't know who called the other....heheheh, but it seemed like a beat him by a second!!!

Anger Management #2 50/50

AHHHHH...are we stressed out or what!!! Need to get laid asap!!! joking..
T had a soccer match to go at 11:00 and I totally forgot about it. But weather sucked...very windy and chilly. But after 2 hours when Icame to calling he wouldn't answer and I got franctic. He was just reaching home and I again yelled at him. Damn it...I didn't want to but my past fears keep haunting me...I'm sooo psycho. t got angry and now I'm angry and I know deep inside that he's good to me.

Spent the day working, then I prepared the same meal me and T had yesterday, but fries didn't come out the same way. The salad was great.

At about 7:30 T surprised me by coming over to my place...I was slightly shocked cause I thought he was home. He chit chatted with mom, complained about me, fooled around, laughed. I was speechless.

Told me about rim sending him an email weeks ago, and he read it this week...she said something about him being a kid, and some kiddish stuff...and yesterday she called him up a million times and she wouldn't get the message that he didn't want to talk to her. Joanna had called him too but just to say hi.

He stayed over at my place...I made him laneh, tea, cheese and little meza...had a nice dinner. My mom enjoyed his company. He stayed till 10:00 then left back home. Passed by his friends and slept at 12:30.

Mandy was suppossed to meet him at Crepeaway today, but he didn't want to go...she wanted to introduce him to her BF Julien.

I'm working late. work is better than thinking what kind of a life T is running. At least work takes me places in the future. With T it's 50/50...right baby? Isn't that what you said.

50/50

Breakfast Lunch Dinner and a one minute man

Woke up, showered, waited for T to finish from bank loan papers, pass by to see my new car at the expo, and he was sweet enough to pass by and get a top a bought from the clothes shop I love to shop in. He came over and cooked me some wonderful eggs and we made labneh, tea and some vegetables. We chatted, napped, fooled around, laughed, and had lots of fun. Had orange juice, played a crazy game of “Crazy 8” and I can’t say I won or didn’t win, cause T WAS CHEATING!!!!!! But I won the first round 5:4. And I got slightly pissed cause I caught him! Hehehehehe
Rim called him but his new phone’s battery died and we couldn’t talk to her.
Gilbert called me we chatted a bit. Not much going on, he was calling to say hi.
Spent the rest of the day, playing cards, finishing some work, washing dishes, cooking, eating, and playing with Saki. T left late. But we had a wonderful dinner prepared…simple but yummy…..fries and garlic salad with coke…was really good. T left home, but we started getting Tabarja tingles. Hopefully things will change a week from now.
I asked T about Daisy and he lied about her contacting him…wonder why. I didn’t ask. He said he’s not going to tell any of his friends this year about the chalet so they don’t bug us…and we discussed how we were going to set things up over there.

Normal Day

Not much today...clients in the rest of the arab worls on weekend therefore I am. Just waited today to see Riad for my future work and to meet Gilbert concerning cellular issue and cv. Meeting went great. T had to see 2 physiotherapists for his knee. Mandy was suppossed to meet him but never did. Nothing special today. We just miss each other.
sms of the day:Babe tell the therapist to make your knee good for 5 rabbits and 2 dogs a day.kisses

Pack unpack throw blow trish-trash

No freelance work today and T at work. So I decided to do some spring cleaning…threw old TV, iron board, chairs, clothes, shoes, jars, batteries, old stuff my mom clings to…it was hell but heaven to see all that crap go away. I love the modern world, I wish I can throw everything out and replace them with new more modern stuff. I hope my mom doesn’t find out. My sis’s man helped me out…also in unpacking the summer clothes and packing the winter stuff. We had fruit salad, and lots of coffee and donuts. T barely called. It was his first day at work after surgery…they were expecting him next Monday but + points for him for coming today. Joseph the “futsal” called me up today…ughhhh!!! 50 year old guy thinks he can get somewhere with me…idiot…and he disrespects T’s presence in my life…Cancel out of my life please.
The rest of the day I sent emails to friends to meet up tomorrow, cause my bro wants to be home alone for romance : )
T left work at 7:30…tired, he didn’t even go to the gym, and neither to fix his new phone. Last night he called me up several times to hear the funky ring tones…the previous owner to the phone had such good taste…he had all our songs. T came back home at 8:00 we chatted quickly and said our goodnights at 9:00..weird…didn’t think he’d sleep this early…hmmmm. Missed called at 10:22. Goodnight.

Chalets

T and Naji come to pick me up to go Chalet finding. Looked everywhere but ended up in the first choice they made….Tabarja…the hell of my life. I f****ing hate that place. I hate it hate it hate it…but nowhere else to spend the summer. Ugh!!!!!! God help me. Can’t I just disappear. We went to Crepeaway to have lunch and there Naji had his eye on this girl that looked like his ex….and we had to move tables for him to see her better, then I got pissed and yelled at T cause he turned 180° to check out the girl and just fool around…so I yelled at him cause he was disrespecting my presence and what the hell was he doing Naji’s work for…whatever I got angry and we just were quiet for the rest of the day. They dropped me off home, I fell asleep, got up talked briefly to T who was asleep, got ready for gym and just headed to the gym. Got back home called T up, he was out getting his new phone and vegetables for his mom. But all through my workout I just kept thinking of him. I was pissed cause I got pissed in a split second…I dunno why. I didn’t care for the girl …I guess maybe the whole thought of having to spend my summer at Tabarja, and not spending some quality time today with TT. I don’t know why I’m angry. I just am and not from T.
Rim called him during our lunch. No comment. Lea called about the chalet and phone.
I feel much better now with T. The last 3 days have been good. Peaceful. He’s very kind to me and I behaved badly today : ( and now I just want to disappear cause I’m not that kind of person. Dan tried selling my car, no hope yet. Going to put up a sign up tomorrow. I love my car but I have to change it. I know T is angry at that. We both love the Rover but it won’t it’s price will depreciate in a years time and the gas expenditure is killing me and I don’t have a job yet.
T called me up several times to listen to his new ring tones…MABROUK T!!!

Leisure

T came over to my place…got mnakish and coke for breakfast…very sweet of him. We had breakfast together …then sat and worked each on his own work, and we hung out with my sis and her man. Just sat in bed, worked and ate…but poor TT had tummy ache and no mood for food for some reason. We discussed what he was thinking about for the future and what we were to do. Kissed a lot. Cuddled a lot. Just enjoying time together. Then we had opcorn and chips and watched “The last King of Scotland” Nice movie. Made T a hot cup of mint T like his mommy makes me for tummy aches. It was great and Saki seemed to be fond of TT…he just slept between us. Rim called him up and when I answered she closed the phone in my face….she calls up T later when he leaves my place and he teaches her a lesson on manners.

Kasskasskure - Manicure and no cure

Drove to T’s…his sis took a manicure appointment for me at 11:30, so I picked up T and we left to get a manicure, but the lady there wouldn’t let T sit next to me during the manicure so I asked him to wash my car till I finished, which was very sweet of him, and he got me something I needed too…sooooo sweet…then we went for his shave at Christopher’s…. But on the way back home I got mad, trying to send emails thru WAP to my clients, driving and my car started overheating…so I yelled at T a bit, and I hope I didn’t hurt him much cause I just got stressed out. Went back to his place, played with Tipsy, ate lightly, and worked on our projects, having brief conversations, but things got sweeter again for both our sakes, and I apologized to T, we talked things over. Mandy called to complain about her boyfriend, but I was there so T told her they’d talk later. We played “Crazy 8” and I lost 3:1 : ( I lost a bet of “5”….ahhhhh I don’t know if he’s cheating, but I think he is if he’s winning all the time!!! We played with “CiCi” now called “Tipsy” and excercised T’s knee. I had to leave to get things from the market, and go to gm class. Was sad to leave….felt very nostalgic today. Guy was watching me in the market, who later followed me to the car to introduce himself as Paul. Wanted my # but I told him sorry cause I loved my boyfriend too much. He excused himself and left. I went home talked to t…he was feeling a little down and he didn’t go to the gym…I tried to cheer him up…things are bothering him, which I don’t know of exactly unless he speaks to me…so I hope he opens up soon. If it’s monetary trouble we could always get Tipsy pregnant and sell her kids : )
Smss of the day: Babe promise me 2morrow 2 give me a glimpse of what's troubling ur mind...I'm concerned.Kisses
bisou bisou bisou ya Kass kassour 3alla 3ambourour....ya mahdoum inta ya attouchi killo illak inta.goodnite
He smsed me : AKid my kaskouskure love u

Notta much to talk about

Nothing much today…we both spent time at home and on the phone. 1 big thing did happen though….MBC called me up for placing me on their priority list of freelancers and hopefully a full time job!!!! Oh GOD I pray so….I want a good job….anywhere…and got letter that Satchi & Satchi were to call me but no calls yet.

Round and around and around

woke up...showered...and headed to T's but had to stop by to get my tops from my favorite shop...T refused me getting him any breakfast...so Ijust headed to his place....got CC a ball to play with ...but I got stuck in bad traffic and stupid roundabouts that would never end and smells and traffic and noise just drove me mad...and I was 1 1/2 hrs late to T's. But it was great seeing his face I forgot my troubles....T made me tea with labneh, zaatar and cheese and CC shared the food with us. We played a gam,e of cards and I lost 50$, the other day I lost on a cocktail bet....DAMN!!!! I'm not the queen of crazy 8 no more. Lea came over with a box of Cadbury's chocolate, we chatted over the chalet we were getting and other stuff, then she left and I had to go email a client a file, so T got dressed maybe he'd get a shave on the way...but while we were sending the mail, heis friend came by saying something about a soccer match at 4:30 and T was so excited to go watch, so we went to the big staduim to watch the game 5:0. It was cool but we got hungry and cold. We drove back and had dinner at Pizza Hut...yummmy, it was great and while I was in the toilet T smsm me" C c i love u so much ya 3omre"...it was great Ifelt fantastic....and what made me feel even better is what T told me earlier. He said that he now realizes how we come from seperate worlds and that we might not greatly understand each other in the other's world, but he also knows and feel that he would never let go of me, cause he loves me so...and I to. And I felt today things were actually different, the kisses the hugs the love was different...it was fantastic, better and I felt T was back. I was really happy today.
Nelly called him home before I left his home at 9:00..she was just checking up on him. We descussed breiefly on the phone how I have always had to tolerate these girls calling when I'm around him, but it's been 9 months I thought they would go away by now....but T says that for 2 years he's had on-going mutliple day lasting affairs with plenty of womenm he can't stop them from calling ...he could just ignore them and pay no attention to their calls....I wonder how long that will last....I fear one day if I do something bad or wrong he will turn back...and honestly, I just don't want that happening...I want to live in peace please. TOld T we will discuss things deeper when we have more "talk moments"...cause we never get a chance to talk....maybe when we move to the chalet things will turn a little sweeter and CC can come along : )
Oh and my friend May called today said she was pissed at me cause I haven't been calling...but I haven't been free....sorry May

Homework

So I woke up this morning and my mom saw me preparing a meal and I had just finished my shower, and she asks: “Where are you going?”…and I’m like….”To the office ofcourse, I got work”…and she had a stunned look on her face, knowing I was unemployed….”Mom, I’m going to the office….the living room?!”…hehehehehe my office now. Still..I like freelancing….can’t imagine heading to an office to work for someone or some company that’s going to get credit for work I did….but if I did get a good pay job I wouldn’t mind…lots of cash is always good. Money in the morning….anyways, me and T woke up early. He played wth Cici, while I teased Saki. Found out the cat also eats eggs….ewwww. T had to go to the bank to get $$$ loan for the summer chalet…and pass by to get his new phone, and a beard cut. Can’t imagine how’s he going to drive. Came back after an hour, discomforted from driving. Didn’t even cut the beard, and cell phone still in technical repair. I just sat and started my new project. During the day, I got a job proposal for Canada, and one here from my university proessor….she seems to have found my website…wonder where she got it from….plus I might applt to MBC for work…why not. Spent day eating, sleeping, playing…quiet…not much going on.. T enjoying the kitty, says his mom likes her 90%, usually she used to like pets 2%....interesting. Ifeel like taking up painting….I wish I was just too rich to work…feel like just being an artist for the rest of my life….paint, draw and do fun projects.
My legs better today…no pain..starting to itch though…they are healing. Planning on going to T’s tomorrow to finish some work on the PC. Although he was being a little sarcastic earlier cause I told him yesterday I wasn’t comfortable around his home anymore. But today’s another day..and I feel better I guess since I’m away.
T can’t seem to get to reading the catalogues!!! He keeps falling asleep…..hopeless….I need to push him more. Read read read….I love reading.

CICI!!!

Woke up the morning had my breakfast talked to T…was just too swollen from gym and hospital to move. My knee wouldn’t bend more than 45°…and pain all over. I went back to sleep only to find my brother’s friends mom calling me up to go to her daughter’s place to pick up the sister cat of her pet Persian. SO we went over, she drove me there cause I couldn’t move….we picked up CICI….a 1 ½ yr old shaven Persian…extremely shy and abandon from a previous home…Princess is her twin sister with long lovely fur and princess attitude…..so the lady handed me the cat, her litter box, shampoo, litter and food, cage, towel, bowls and extras…for me to find CICI a better home….so who do I call…..TT!!! We saw they same color Persian about a month ago and I wanted to get it but 200$ and we didn’t have….Anyways she looked freaky the shaven Persian , but I loved he…drove her home got dressed, went to the market to buy her more litter….and headed to T’s….who still didn’t break it to his parents that he was bringing a kitty home, who isn’t a kitten!!!
But step by step through out the day, we got them used to her….and hopefully they will keep her cause I loved her…besides she’s called CC : ) Oh and she has all her vaccines, a female virgin with no babies yet….maybe we could make $$$ out of her in a year : ) Ching ching.....!!!
Spent the day at T’s had lunch dinner and lots of snacks…and ofcourse heard all the life lessons..and Oh not to forget Layal’s calling who T believes is a neat girl…and Nelly called his home, and Lea wanted to come over to buy his phone cause B3aaklini got him a newer version for cheap…and well I can say one thing…although I was happy most of the day, I was twice as unhappy…for the same reasons. No trust…phone annoys the hell of me, and I know I have a psychological issue about that from my previous relationship…plus I just want to live back parts of my world…I guess, I just want to get a manicure / pedicure, get dressed well, go out somewhere fancy to eat, buy expensive shit for nothing and just chill at some bar or café with friends, and have a laugh…and then maybe have a little romancing on my way home…whatever…just live it every once in a while. Told T I was unhappy, although I shouldn’t have, until he’s better…but he sounded better today and I can’t keep things on the down low for long
Oh and did Imention Jeele called...one of the past sexual friends...but obviously from the conversation they haven't spoken in ages, and they were both being very polite and behaved in tone. No comment on anything else.

Surgery!!!!

T got up early to the hospital, he missed called and smsed me the room # 637b.
It took me a while to get there cause I slept at one last night and I had to go get the passport and find the hospital and the room he was in. But I got there finally he had just arrived to his room 20 min earlier than me. He seemed so fragile. I kissed both his parents then him. Held his hands, checked out his knee. The anesthetic had worn off his voice, and he was thirsting for water, and the tube that they stuck in his mouth left a blood wart at the tip of his tongue. And as usual when I am around him some one from his past calls….Layal…nno surprise…he had her as Nacha on his contacts name…I have no clue what it means. All I know is that she called twice…and he said she might be calling just to ask him a question…the rest of the day he had the phone silent and he got an anonymous call to his room # but his mother picked up and she pretended not to get the girl’s name. Honestly, I almost blew up inside…I thought he said no one knew he was at surgery...anyway Lea calls too to tell him “Get Wells”. I wish I could tell him I just don’t want any of this anymore…I ran away from this shit 9 months ago. I am tired of re-living it. I don’t want to let go but I feel it’s maybe for the best…for my sake at least… I just don’t feel he really is honest with me, and my heart and mind seem to ward away from him. I’m not going to say anything today, he says by next week we’ll have a place of our own and we can be more normal. I don’t know if I wanna wait….and don’t tell me the guy just had surgery…cut him some slack……I just don’t have the patience I had years ago. I knew one day his phone will cause trouble…it was just a matter of time. Day by day I feel I am just a ghost amongst him and his family…and he seems to get moody and moody and impatient with everything…can I live with that? No. I just want what I saw the first few months with him…that’s the T I loved, not now…although today when I drove him and his parents back home, and I was sitting with him on his bed…he seemed the old T that I knew…but I still have a sense of uneasiness….like I was living something bad I lived before. I write this shit on the blog cause I know T will never read any of it…maybe when we really do break up he will just open it for curiosity or when he’s feeling nostalgic.
Anyways, I spent the day reading while he slept in the hospitel: “The Man of Property” by John Galsworthy….the title was so unattractive but once I started reading I started understanding…..a young woman rich and extremely beautiful married to a wealthy man but unhappy cause she hates him, and is in love with a poorer man of no wealth at all…but the guy understands her and they share the same thoughts and ideas….I thought I was like that with T but day by day, I just feel like he doesn’t seem me there anymore…the “I love you’s” seem so distant yet the are so close to my ear….I feel unhappy in a way…I’m tired in another way.
So Gilbert calls me up today…guy I met from Internet place…checking up on what I’m up to and how I’m doing….of course there is nothing between us…but from an earlier email this morning which I briefly read….he seemed like he was really interested in me…but during the conversation I mentioned being at the hospital with my boyfriend and I didn’t sit and giggle and talk silently...it’s just a guy…so why doesn’t T pick up any of the calls, and talk like me…do they even know I exist in his life…it’s been 9 months now, what’s he waiting for….or is he ever going to let them know…..
Came from the gym today, I thought T was going to stay up till I got home, but he already slept and didn’t even miscall me…the goodnight mc.
So I’m not going to send one either….I’ll just play it his way…wouldn’t you?

By the way one of the pics is of the piece of cartilage the doc removed from T’s knee, which his sis was fooling with, with a knife…ewwwwwww!!!!

AHHHHHH!!!!AKHHH!!OHHHHH!!!

Ohhhhh…ahhhhh..I can only sit at the tip of my ass….damn the pain….more pain after cream application….akhhhht he pain. T went for his blood test, and finalized his hospital papers in the early morning…I just finished some personal work and finalized some work for my clients. T was finalizing his work at the office before surgery tomorrow…..and he’s got s soccer match at 7:30, so I won’t be seeing him today.
T smss me: C c im at the playground now I call u when I finish kisses
..in the mentime I get a manicure and finish some work before tomorrow

So today I came upon a few problems in my relationship with T. Simply it is: I never feel like a woman with him. A rarely get respect from his acquaintances and friends, cause I guess they feel that I’m just temporary until T finds something else to entertain him, or maybe cause they’ve seen him with someone else, and know he’s not loyal. Whatever… his sisters don’t in a manner acknowledge my presence, and as of his mother well she just gives me lessons on how to keep a man…maybe she should give him a lesson on how to keep a woman….and to top it all off he doesn’t tell any of his girlfriends that he’s got a girlfriend…just Amanda, Lea, Daisy and Rim I guess only know. Just found out Layal called a few days back and T didn’t mention it to me. I dunno why, but I know why she called …to tell him that he missed he birthday of course that was on the 10th.
And well beside people around him seeing me as temporary, I see the shock in their eyes when they constantly see me again and again with him…..my second problem is that 85% of the time T makes me feel like his friend…simply….the way he talks and behaves….I hate it. I’m not his friend and I don’t need more male friends in my life. I guess in a way I wanna go out somewhere romantic, kiss more often, touch more often….just be a real couple…feel the vibe more….I don’t feel it…it’s always wait wait C things will be better. Honestly, I dunno how long I can take of this anymore.How long should I or could I wait….I just wanna enjoy things more.
Thirdly the nagging and excuses. I hear that 75% of the time Why is T always nagging!!! I don’t nag and if I do it’s usually on something pathetic….for enjoyment. Work troubles and life troubles just kill my enthusiasm.
I guess all this is from one question someone asked me: “Are you really happy with T?” and inside I know the answers well.
So surgery tomorrow. T kept going on about “you don’t have to come”, or “Don’t trouble yourself” or “it’s ok baby” or “it won’t be all day”. He won’t even let me pick him up or drop him off tomorrow. I dunno why…I asked him if anyone else knows he’s going to surgery….He mentions telling Layal not so long ago but she doesn’t know where and when. He doesn’t even know what room he’s going to be in.
Somehow I don’t want to go. I don’t feel very welcomed. It seems that way. I dunno why, he’s becoming like that.
Anyways T got to referee inside the playground today….score something like 15:2…same as last time. And they will not pay him till whole league is over. Not even enough….bummer. Even on his freelance work, Sherbal didn’t pay him for a weeks worth. That sucks.
Anyways, I will pray for him tonight and hope tomorrow is a better day.
Oh and I have to add that somehow I don’t trust him fully from the first 2 mistakes he did. I just can’t seem to gain that back. Damn it. I hate these relationship issues!!!!!

Barbequed to the crisp!!!

Home all day, feeling ill from raw “kebbi”…and finished some minor work. Afternoon I showered and got body ready for LASER!! T was havinf a little trouble at work…lots of misunderstanding and issues about his surgery Wednesday. I went to clinic alone cause he was in a meeting but he didn’t take long before we met up again. And man did it hurt!!!!! Worse session of my life..made me feel so nauseous…ugh!!! Los of cold air shots and cream and T had to drive me back in my car to home, and then I had Dave drive him back to his car, cause the pain was unbearable!!!!!
T smss me: “Ghanougte min ana ktir b7ebo? I love u more than my life, please keep in my heart ya aghla C bel Kon.
My ex smss me to a poem in Arabic but I didn’t bother reading it.
Wonder though why T doesn’t mention to me the girls that really call when I’m not around.
Sherbal called him up during my burn session to pay him for freelance work, which T will probably pick up tomorrow after work. He’s got to go early to the hospital to finish some paperwork and do a blood exam. I’m finishing off some work and going to sleep but I don’t know on what side I’ll be sleeping on tonight…to much pain….ahhhhhhh!!!! Oh yah and I almost fainted, my mom dragged me to bed, and I managed to miscall T before actually blacking out.

Fishing

T went fishing early in the morning, about 5:30. I woke up about 10:00. Weather wasn’t all that great, very windy and chilly. T managed to catch 2 fish and Joseph a few too. T wasn’t back home till 1-2 cause he was hanging around his friends. I just sat and finished off the Saudi project, which wasn’t done till about 6:00….damn I was so dead tired… T sms’s me:”kisses ya aghla C bel kon... Later in the evening T calls me up after going out to his friends and market to buy roll on, that he might be coming over in the late evening, but never does. He just heads back home. And we have a little misunderstanding on the phone. Told him it’s better if we stayed a little apart cause he’s so stressed these days it’s getting on both our nerves…but things sweeten up by the end of the night.

working home to home

Bank deposit, no passport handed in today, went to cellular company to handle the claim, but no one there to help me out, T picked me up, went to the hospital to fix his paperwork for surgery…then we had Kafta wa laban for breafast….and went to T’s home to work all day. T slept and fooled around the house. Nothing special cause I was busy. But found out that Rim called a few times..the phone was in the car the whole day…and T decide to go to Christophers for a game of cards....but they never played and T just headed a bit to Ceasar's. Tomorrow he's going fishing early with Baaklini...I'm working at home : ( I'm late on a project

Car less

At home. My bro took the car.All alone. Me and D were supposed to go shopping but she got stuck in waxing. Client calls for me to go pick cash. Internet guy has access to phone company. Maybe he’ll help me out with my claim.
T went with his boss to the free-zone, and stuck in more stupid meetings. We meet after work, while I was shopping...
Spent the rest of the day, taking and returning cars from one place to another, had a minor disagreement with T and was frustrated till the end of the night. We didn't even go party...just spent more time on my freelance work....bummer : (

Anger Management

Stress from 8:00. T went for his REM scan, trouble at his work, my ex constantly calling private #, finishing freelance work. All stressed out, and I got angry at T cause he's always nagging about work and his knee...I just felt like I'm sick of it. I want to be problem-free please. Told him if he can't deal with it to let me know cause I can't anymore, and that got him angry, he thought I was changing but I'm not, I just get pissed when I man doesn't free some of his time for me. What does it take to ring me for 1 minute....aghhhh!!!! I'm, pissed. T's angry and I'm sick of everyone.
Jack is back in town...called me up. Been a while I haven't seen him.
My cousin Peter came too the country today.
Saki now eating whole bananas....freaky!!!

Ex ex escape

Home..and ex came over, we talked had lunch together, but he seemed not to get the point that I don’t want to be with him again.It’s been over a long time back, and now he’s running to get married. He’s nuts. Besides I’m happy with T now. And T was understanding enough with the situation.
Went out at night with an old friend and D to drink....D vomited all over the car rental!!! ewwwwwwww
T waited for me to get home.

Long days work

Went to get my passport done. T still sleeping, he had an appointment at 9:30. I dropped mom off at the dentist, bought wireless internet, and then picked up mom to drop her off at the shop. On the way to pay the phonebill, I spot my exs car and his bro spots me from across the street and starts waving crazily. I wave back and drive away.. I don’t want to face any of them. My ex tries calling me, and I still don’t reply. Meet up with my cuz and sis, have coffee and breakfast, then go shopping for a while…everything expensive, and nasty.
T results from doc, not so great.
Day seemed never ending….went home to nap for an hour, only to find my ex, hovering under the building. AGH!!!!!! I didn’t want to see or talk to him, but I had a dinner meeting to go to. Came to a cash deal to talk to him. Then headed to my meeting, honked at T at Christopher’s on the way, but he didn’t spot me. Meeting wasn’t that wasn’t so successful. Then headed to T’s place to talk things over....he looked cute with the new haircut and shave : ) He made me a sandwich and a cup of tea...and I left back home

Maa3moul

Day off: Holiday
Stayed home finished my artwork for client delivery tonight. T calls me up to watch a match at 4:00. Finish work quickly, dress up and T comes over to pick me up, mom packs a box of home-made Ma3moul for TT. We drove to Druze town for a soccer match. Druze against Hadath boys..and those Druze are fucking BARBARIANS!!!!! MAN!! Score Druze 3: Hadath 1. Brutal techniques and verbal threats….yikes!!! Left to have chicken and Tabbouleh at T’s mom. Then I left back home. T left to hand Sherbal his freelance work somewhere in Fanar….and I went home to finish my work.T came back home at 11:30...went over his project with Micheal and Sherbal...still didn't get any cash for his troubles.
(Oh rim calls today from a different #, her name Nai...or something lie that and she had something "private" to tell Tony...hmmmm told her to call him back later. She already called at 10:00 in the morning and T told her he just came over from my place, sleeping over...ofcourse a lie, to get her off his back.
His other exes called to wish him a happy easter...I don't mind, they seem harmless so far...ricardo making sure of that....T's nephew...7 or 9 year old...heheheh

EXXXXX-terminated

Yah yah yah, I woke up, had breakfast, decided to finish our work early so me and T can go out in the afternoon. Was helping my mom with the “Maa3moul” when door knocks….sis opens to find my ex standing there. GASP!!!
I escaped to hide away from his deceit. The guy is a fucking liar. Whatever. T called said he was coming over at 5:00 to take me out. We drove to St.Sherbal to pray….bought our moms rose water…prayed and had a lite dinner at Al Siraj…tea and mnakish and I won 3 times in “crazy 8s”…..he can’t beat the Queen!!!! We drove down back just cruising to watch people and waste time. T bought my mom a chocolate filled box for easter. He left back home to finish his work….I gave him a CD to deliver to my client in the morning.forgot my phone at home…no pics taken

Happy Easter!!!!!

T went to submit his freelance project to Sherbal, and passed by his physiotherapist to check his knee bit the doc was just too busy to se him so T just came over to my place. He was late for breakfast so we decided to have lunch instead, so we ordered 2 medium sized pizzas from Pizza Hut…and T had gotten Pepsi with him. And Saki joined us in the meal. It turns out that the damn kitten loves eating bananas!!! Can u believe that. We got a monkey instead of a kitten. T stayed over till 6:00 we chatted, slept, fooled around, and just laid back for a while. Left me with a damn hickey to show around..hehehe. Then he decided to leave to Naji’s …but before that he drove me to the market with my doggy slippers, and bought me a bag of every kind of chocolate with hazel nut in it. YUMMMYYY!!....but instead went for a 2 hour car wash…cleaned the car inside, outside, and below. Then he went home. Called me up, and I told him to sms me something sweet and what do I get instead….”Happy Easter ya albe w3omre w7abibet rou7he kisses lal kasskous”….I cracked up, I called him back to tell him so. I felt like I was his friend or something not so personal to him…I want romance baby!!!! So he send me, “Rito yoberne attouchek”….heheheh then “Ajmal bez bilk on”…heheh much better, and “ya ajmal kasskouss bil 3alam”…..heheheh I laughed from all my heart….So we closed the night with Happy Easter jokes. I sms in the night that we should go to church tomorrow….and then a naughty sms, which I hope he’ll keep.
Oh and T stuck the second Mac sticker on his car, just like mine….hehehe.

Good Friday

At home finishing our freelance work, to manage some free time on the weekend. Watched Passion of the Christ…heartbreaking and drowns u in tears

McDos and goals

2 meeting cancelled. T calls me up a few times and forgets me the rest of the day. Meantime I’m at home, problems with internet connxn. Deliver client’s work and manage to get more work to do for the weekend. More work from Saudi too.
In the afternoon, I go to pick up a book and cash for my bro, and head to T’s office. Pick him up…and we head to see his car. Not done yet….so we head to McDonalds for a bite to eat and I meet Taline an old time School mate….who’s married and with 2 kids now….and I’m not even engaged. We head to T’s home change his clothes, and head to referee a game. Score: 15:2…the team sucked so bad!!! It was funny. We leave the game, and head to pick up T’s car, and I leave to pick up my mom from work and head home to finish some work. T up as well finishing some freelance work.
We have a little fight over the phone, but things sweeten up later.
My ex still attempts to call. T’s phone always away, from eyes and ears.
T’s phone busy at 12:30, he says, he was checking his units count…69…mmmmmm 69
Oh and during the day I told T that I didn't think we were going to last long cause the relaionship is lacking in one way or another...tell u all about it later

insurance

Laid back at home. Decided to go with my sis to visit beautician, which turned out ot be freaky witch. On the way, a client calls me up to meet with a director to draw a storyboard. So I pass by, do my brief meeting, and head home to finish the frames early enough to deliver them in the morning.
T at work, knee still hurts him. He paid first payment for insurance, in case of surgery.
Memo spread in office about non-work related phonecalls.
I stay up till 2:00.

Joseph

Got up early, showered, dressed. Surprised to get a call from the Coordinator of Syndicate of Finance or some title like that. Some old guy called Youssef or Joseph, who was coordinating the Futsal games with last week. I gave him my number to invite us to the big game. And wht do I get instead: “You warm girl, you kind girl I like in womn, you very nice, you I repect, you you you…blab la bla”. Basically Icut it short for him. Told him I was T’s lady, I’m happy in the relationship, and wouldn’t go to the game without TT ofcourse, but it would be a great opportunity for T since he has a passion for the game, and he can’t play because of his bad knee. So the guy said he’ll do his best to make me happy. I told him to call T, and I would drag along. He respected that, and told me to have a nice day. HEHEHE…wait till T hears this. Called T up but he was just too busy with work. So I just packed my things and headed to the ex-office. Handed in my keys and company goods, and took whatever I had for me there. No one left but the last little Indian Chris : ) and he doesn’t want to stay there alone.
Headed down, bought my mom a gift, and went to T’s office. Told him about Joseph (and he keeps teasing me about it), work and all the bla blas. I wanted to have pizza for lunch but everyone I know has a job. So I just went to the mall, hung out at virgins, read a few book and magazines and waited fr my sis to finish from her Lawyer meeting. Had coffee and fries and did all my internet work. Paid the valet and left back home to nap. Got up did a little free freelancing work, lawyer called to tell me that I can pass by tomorrow or day after to sign the Quetis, ok and went to sleep.
T said he wanted to party this Saurday, and we were invited to Roland’s place for lunch too.
Until then, I’m at home working.

FREEEEEEEE

Pass by, to pay T’s bank installments, and to withdraw cash.
Back to work.Meeting with laywer late afternoon. so I just hung around the office, doodled, ate, and got in my car to see company lawyer.I passed by T to hand him the 31$ left from the installment....kissed him bye bye...checked on his leg and left in a hurry.
LAWYERS: SO to sum it up, today was the last day of work, my boss thinks working on my personal work, which is illustration, is backstabbing the company, and he is displeased with me and Jo since Jo helped with the website....and he said he got things on us about going to some websites, which is funny cause my job is to do R&D for projects so I visit hundreds of websites....anyways, I'm not defending something pointless...I draw and I will do it for as long as I live...that's what I was born to do. So no recommendation form, and nothing to take for portfoilio...all I get is my salary...point. whatever...
I feel releaved...I was bored out of my wits and I haven't had a project in 6 months...what was Ito do in all my spare time. SO that's that...we left the lawywers office. T had already gone to his phisiotherapist...and heading home and I had gym class, which I registered for today. Getting ready for the freelance world.
Oh and my long time ex-boyfriend Friend coming in a few days...I haven't seen him in years...maybe I'll meet up with him...I'll see with T. And my bad-ex tried calling me, but as usual I ignore his trials. ...loser

April’s Fools

3:45 in the morning…”Wake up wake up!!” My sis comes barging in the room, and I’m in mid sleep with Saki by my side. “I don’t wanna hurt you but I got to tell you for your own good that we (Nino and her) saw T with another girl walking in Gemayze next to all the pubs and he’s hugging and kissing this girl” …they said they followed him and saw him giggling with a chick on a pub entrance, she had black straight hair and a pierced belly! T loves pierced bellies. Damn!!! Does this shit always have to happen to me. Why can’t men be loyal!!!!!
Whatever…I just jump to crazy mode…call T. “T where are you? Are you sure your leg is bad? Someone just saw you walking in Gemayze with a girl..bla bla bla….Don’t call me in the morning I don’t want to know shit about it…bye” Close my phone then turn around to catch my sis giggling….I just got Punked!!! AHHHHHHH!!!!! My mom fell to another prank too!!! Damn it DD!!! You just fucking fucked up my relationship!!! Nino my sis’s boyfriend calls up T to see the situation and they April Fool him too. Heheheheh I cracked up. I kept telling my sis: “are you sure you saw him, cause he can’t even walk?!”…but she already got his clothes and ways memorized, so it was easy to fool about. T thought it wasn’t funny, and he was ticked off how I would go about breaking off the relationship that easy, if someone mentions seeing him with someone else. You can’t really blame me…I’ve been in the same situation before, but I’m just can’t bother for guys fucking around, if he can’t be faithful why the hell is he dating me. That’s the way I take it. Plus if he’s screwing around then he doesn’t love me, and the relationship is just a waste of time and someone is out for other benefits. What I don’t get is what makes guys think that they can, and should…damn it don’t you think I get bored, or want to try something new too.
He’s mom scolded me on love/relationship/faithfulness later in the day.
Woke up again, showered, dressed and drove Dan to work and told Dave to tell T when he called that I was showering. But T had already figured out that I was heading to his place. Passed by to get an egg in a box gift for the Palm Sunday Eid. And just spent the day in bed next to T, since he couldn’t walk. Mr.3 T. His phone was off cause he knew all the ladies and friends would call up to wish him a “Happy Eid” but he couldn’t bother…he already had what he wanted by his side. Breakfast, lunch and dinner in bed,….oh yah and we played a game of “Crazy 8s”, he cheated the first 3 times, and I kept losing, then we bet on money, no cheating and I just won him over and over and over again….he was no match to the Crazy 8 QUEEN!!!HEHEHEH so much fun…. then night came and I was sad to leave, I left about 9:30pm. Headed to watch “300”at the movies with my bro and his friends.
1:00…the end…I call T who’s still awake, waiting for me. Get home and fall asleep.