Chores duties therapy work and -3000$

We're 3000$$$ less of cash today!!!!BOOOOHOOOOOHOOOHOO : (
Needed to pay for chalet we're picking out tomorrow. Heartbreak, but we need it to spend a good summer vacation.
I spent day at home freelancing...picked up cash for my bro, headed to electolysis, and back to gym.
T had work, physiotherapy, and gym.
I had to freelance till late at night...and have to get up early to head to the sea tomoorow...Labor's Day...evryone's out and about.
Goodnight..funny thing is me and T were calling each other at the same time we didn't know who called the other....heheheh, but it seemed like a beat him by a second!!!

Anger Management #2 50/50

AHHHHH...are we stressed out or what!!! Need to get laid asap!!! joking..
T had a soccer match to go at 11:00 and I totally forgot about it. But weather sucked...very windy and chilly. But after 2 hours when Icame to calling he wouldn't answer and I got franctic. He was just reaching home and I again yelled at him. Damn it...I didn't want to but my past fears keep haunting me...I'm sooo psycho. t got angry and now I'm angry and I know deep inside that he's good to me.

Spent the day working, then I prepared the same meal me and T had yesterday, but fries didn't come out the same way. The salad was great.

At about 7:30 T surprised me by coming over to my place...I was slightly shocked cause I thought he was home. He chit chatted with mom, complained about me, fooled around, laughed. I was speechless.

Told me about rim sending him an email weeks ago, and he read it this week...she said something about him being a kid, and some kiddish stuff...and yesterday she called him up a million times and she wouldn't get the message that he didn't want to talk to her. Joanna had called him too but just to say hi.

He stayed over at my place...I made him laneh, tea, cheese and little meza...had a nice dinner. My mom enjoyed his company. He stayed till 10:00 then left back home. Passed by his friends and slept at 12:30.

Mandy was suppossed to meet him at Crepeaway today, but he didn't want to go...she wanted to introduce him to her BF Julien.

I'm working late. work is better than thinking what kind of a life T is running. At least work takes me places in the future. With T it's 50/50...right baby? Isn't that what you said.

50/50

Breakfast Lunch Dinner and a one minute man

Woke up, showered, waited for T to finish from bank loan papers, pass by to see my new car at the expo, and he was sweet enough to pass by and get a top a bought from the clothes shop I love to shop in. He came over and cooked me some wonderful eggs and we made labneh, tea and some vegetables. We chatted, napped, fooled around, laughed, and had lots of fun. Had orange juice, played a crazy game of “Crazy 8” and I can’t say I won or didn’t win, cause T WAS CHEATING!!!!!! But I won the first round 5:4. And I got slightly pissed cause I caught him! Hehehehehe
Rim called him but his new phone’s battery died and we couldn’t talk to her.
Gilbert called me we chatted a bit. Not much going on, he was calling to say hi.
Spent the rest of the day, playing cards, finishing some work, washing dishes, cooking, eating, and playing with Saki. T left late. But we had a wonderful dinner prepared…simple but yummy…..fries and garlic salad with coke…was really good. T left home, but we started getting Tabarja tingles. Hopefully things will change a week from now.
I asked T about Daisy and he lied about her contacting him…wonder why. I didn’t ask. He said he’s not going to tell any of his friends this year about the chalet so they don’t bug us…and we discussed how we were going to set things up over there.

Normal Day

Not much today...clients in the rest of the arab worls on weekend therefore I am. Just waited today to see Riad for my future work and to meet Gilbert concerning cellular issue and cv. Meeting went great. T had to see 2 physiotherapists for his knee. Mandy was suppossed to meet him but never did. Nothing special today. We just miss each other.
sms of the day:Babe tell the therapist to make your knee good for 5 rabbits and 2 dogs a day.kisses

Pack unpack throw blow trish-trash

No freelance work today and T at work. So I decided to do some spring cleaning…threw old TV, iron board, chairs, clothes, shoes, jars, batteries, old stuff my mom clings to…it was hell but heaven to see all that crap go away. I love the modern world, I wish I can throw everything out and replace them with new more modern stuff. I hope my mom doesn’t find out. My sis’s man helped me out…also in unpacking the summer clothes and packing the winter stuff. We had fruit salad, and lots of coffee and donuts. T barely called. It was his first day at work after surgery…they were expecting him next Monday but + points for him for coming today. Joseph the “futsal” called me up today…ughhhh!!! 50 year old guy thinks he can get somewhere with me…idiot…and he disrespects T’s presence in my life…Cancel out of my life please.
The rest of the day I sent emails to friends to meet up tomorrow, cause my bro wants to be home alone for romance : )
T left work at 7:30…tired, he didn’t even go to the gym, and neither to fix his new phone. Last night he called me up several times to hear the funky ring tones…the previous owner to the phone had such good taste…he had all our songs. T came back home at 8:00 we chatted quickly and said our goodnights at 9:00..weird…didn’t think he’d sleep this early…hmmmm. Missed called at 10:22. Goodnight.

Chalets

T and Naji come to pick me up to go Chalet finding. Looked everywhere but ended up in the first choice they made….Tabarja…the hell of my life. I f****ing hate that place. I hate it hate it hate it…but nowhere else to spend the summer. Ugh!!!!!! God help me. Can’t I just disappear. We went to Crepeaway to have lunch and there Naji had his eye on this girl that looked like his ex….and we had to move tables for him to see her better, then I got pissed and yelled at T cause he turned 180° to check out the girl and just fool around…so I yelled at him cause he was disrespecting my presence and what the hell was he doing Naji’s work for…whatever I got angry and we just were quiet for the rest of the day. They dropped me off home, I fell asleep, got up talked briefly to T who was asleep, got ready for gym and just headed to the gym. Got back home called T up, he was out getting his new phone and vegetables for his mom. But all through my workout I just kept thinking of him. I was pissed cause I got pissed in a split second…I dunno why. I didn’t care for the girl …I guess maybe the whole thought of having to spend my summer at Tabarja, and not spending some quality time today with TT. I don’t know why I’m angry. I just am and not from T.
Rim called him during our lunch. No comment. Lea called about the chalet and phone.
I feel much better now with T. The last 3 days have been good. Peaceful. He’s very kind to me and I behaved badly today : ( and now I just want to disappear cause I’m not that kind of person. Dan tried selling my car, no hope yet. Going to put up a sign up tomorrow. I love my car but I have to change it. I know T is angry at that. We both love the Rover but it won’t it’s price will depreciate in a years time and the gas expenditure is killing me and I don’t have a job yet.
T called me up several times to listen to his new ring tones…MABROUK T!!!

Leisure

T came over to my place…got mnakish and coke for breakfast…very sweet of him. We had breakfast together …then sat and worked each on his own work, and we hung out with my sis and her man. Just sat in bed, worked and ate…but poor TT had tummy ache and no mood for food for some reason. We discussed what he was thinking about for the future and what we were to do. Kissed a lot. Cuddled a lot. Just enjoying time together. Then we had opcorn and chips and watched “The last King of Scotland” Nice movie. Made T a hot cup of mint T like his mommy makes me for tummy aches. It was great and Saki seemed to be fond of TT…he just slept between us. Rim called him up and when I answered she closed the phone in my face….she calls up T later when he leaves my place and he teaches her a lesson on manners.

Kasskasskure - Manicure and no cure

Drove to T’s…his sis took a manicure appointment for me at 11:30, so I picked up T and we left to get a manicure, but the lady there wouldn’t let T sit next to me during the manicure so I asked him to wash my car till I finished, which was very sweet of him, and he got me something I needed too…sooooo sweet…then we went for his shave at Christopher’s…. But on the way back home I got mad, trying to send emails thru WAP to my clients, driving and my car started overheating…so I yelled at T a bit, and I hope I didn’t hurt him much cause I just got stressed out. Went back to his place, played with Tipsy, ate lightly, and worked on our projects, having brief conversations, but things got sweeter again for both our sakes, and I apologized to T, we talked things over. Mandy called to complain about her boyfriend, but I was there so T told her they’d talk later. We played “Crazy 8” and I lost 3:1 : ( I lost a bet of “5”….ahhhhh I don’t know if he’s cheating, but I think he is if he’s winning all the time!!! We played with “CiCi” now called “Tipsy” and excercised T’s knee. I had to leave to get things from the market, and go to gm class. Was sad to leave….felt very nostalgic today. Guy was watching me in the market, who later followed me to the car to introduce himself as Paul. Wanted my # but I told him sorry cause I loved my boyfriend too much. He excused himself and left. I went home talked to t…he was feeling a little down and he didn’t go to the gym…I tried to cheer him up…things are bothering him, which I don’t know of exactly unless he speaks to me…so I hope he opens up soon. If it’s monetary trouble we could always get Tipsy pregnant and sell her kids : )
Smss of the day: Babe promise me 2morrow 2 give me a glimpse of what's troubling ur mind...I'm concerned.Kisses
bisou bisou bisou ya Kass kassour 3alla 3ambourour....ya mahdoum inta ya attouchi killo illak inta.goodnite
He smsed me : AKid my kaskouskure love u

Notta much to talk about

Nothing much today…we both spent time at home and on the phone. 1 big thing did happen though….MBC called me up for placing me on their priority list of freelancers and hopefully a full time job!!!! Oh GOD I pray so….I want a good job….anywhere…and got letter that Satchi & Satchi were to call me but no calls yet.

Round and around and around

woke up...showered...and headed to T's but had to stop by to get my tops from my favorite shop...T refused me getting him any breakfast...so Ijust headed to his place....got CC a ball to play with ...but I got stuck in bad traffic and stupid roundabouts that would never end and smells and traffic and noise just drove me mad...and I was 1 1/2 hrs late to T's. But it was great seeing his face I forgot my troubles....T made me tea with labneh, zaatar and cheese and CC shared the food with us. We played a gam,e of cards and I lost 50$, the other day I lost on a cocktail bet....DAMN!!!! I'm not the queen of crazy 8 no more. Lea came over with a box of Cadbury's chocolate, we chatted over the chalet we were getting and other stuff, then she left and I had to go email a client a file, so T got dressed maybe he'd get a shave on the way...but while we were sending the mail, heis friend came by saying something about a soccer match at 4:30 and T was so excited to go watch, so we went to the big staduim to watch the game 5:0. It was cool but we got hungry and cold. We drove back and had dinner at Pizza Hut...yummmy, it was great and while I was in the toilet T smsm me" C c i love u so much ya 3omre"...it was great Ifelt fantastic....and what made me feel even better is what T told me earlier. He said that he now realizes how we come from seperate worlds and that we might not greatly understand each other in the other's world, but he also knows and feel that he would never let go of me, cause he loves me so...and I to. And I felt today things were actually different, the kisses the hugs the love was different...it was fantastic, better and I felt T was back. I was really happy today.
Nelly called him home before I left his home at 9:00..she was just checking up on him. We descussed breiefly on the phone how I have always had to tolerate these girls calling when I'm around him, but it's been 9 months I thought they would go away by now....but T says that for 2 years he's had on-going mutliple day lasting affairs with plenty of womenm he can't stop them from calling ...he could just ignore them and pay no attention to their calls....I wonder how long that will last....I fear one day if I do something bad or wrong he will turn back...and honestly, I just don't want that happening...I want to live in peace please. TOld T we will discuss things deeper when we have more "talk moments"...cause we never get a chance to talk....maybe when we move to the chalet things will turn a little sweeter and CC can come along : )
Oh and my friend May called today said she was pissed at me cause I haven't been calling...but I haven't been free....sorry May

Homework

So I woke up this morning and my mom saw me preparing a meal and I had just finished my shower, and she asks: “Where are you going?”…and I’m like….”To the office ofcourse, I got work”…and she had a stunned look on her face, knowing I was unemployed….”Mom, I’m going to the office….the living room?!”…hehehehehe my office now. Still..I like freelancing….can’t imagine heading to an office to work for someone or some company that’s going to get credit for work I did….but if I did get a good pay job I wouldn’t mind…lots of cash is always good. Money in the morning….anyways, me and T woke up early. He played wth Cici, while I teased Saki. Found out the cat also eats eggs….ewwww. T had to go to the bank to get $$$ loan for the summer chalet…and pass by to get his new phone, and a beard cut. Can’t imagine how’s he going to drive. Came back after an hour, discomforted from driving. Didn’t even cut the beard, and cell phone still in technical repair. I just sat and started my new project. During the day, I got a job proposal for Canada, and one here from my university proessor….she seems to have found my website…wonder where she got it from….plus I might applt to MBC for work…why not. Spent day eating, sleeping, playing…quiet…not much going on.. T enjoying the kitty, says his mom likes her 90%, usually she used to like pets 2%....interesting. Ifeel like taking up painting….I wish I was just too rich to work…feel like just being an artist for the rest of my life….paint, draw and do fun projects.
My legs better today…no pain..starting to itch though…they are healing. Planning on going to T’s tomorrow to finish some work on the PC. Although he was being a little sarcastic earlier cause I told him yesterday I wasn’t comfortable around his home anymore. But today’s another day..and I feel better I guess since I’m away.
T can’t seem to get to reading the catalogues!!! He keeps falling asleep…..hopeless….I need to push him more. Read read read….I love reading.

CICI!!!

Woke up the morning had my breakfast talked to T…was just too swollen from gym and hospital to move. My knee wouldn’t bend more than 45°…and pain all over. I went back to sleep only to find my brother’s friends mom calling me up to go to her daughter’s place to pick up the sister cat of her pet Persian. SO we went over, she drove me there cause I couldn’t move….we picked up CICI….a 1 ½ yr old shaven Persian…extremely shy and abandon from a previous home…Princess is her twin sister with long lovely fur and princess attitude…..so the lady handed me the cat, her litter box, shampoo, litter and food, cage, towel, bowls and extras…for me to find CICI a better home….so who do I call…..TT!!! We saw they same color Persian about a month ago and I wanted to get it but 200$ and we didn’t have….Anyways she looked freaky the shaven Persian , but I loved he…drove her home got dressed, went to the market to buy her more litter….and headed to T’s….who still didn’t break it to his parents that he was bringing a kitty home, who isn’t a kitten!!!
But step by step through out the day, we got them used to her….and hopefully they will keep her cause I loved her…besides she’s called CC : ) Oh and she has all her vaccines, a female virgin with no babies yet….maybe we could make $$$ out of her in a year : ) Ching ching.....!!!
Spent the day at T’s had lunch dinner and lots of snacks…and ofcourse heard all the life lessons..and Oh not to forget Layal’s calling who T believes is a neat girl…and Nelly called his home, and Lea wanted to come over to buy his phone cause B3aaklini got him a newer version for cheap…and well I can say one thing…although I was happy most of the day, I was twice as unhappy…for the same reasons. No trust…phone annoys the hell of me, and I know I have a psychological issue about that from my previous relationship…plus I just want to live back parts of my world…I guess, I just want to get a manicure / pedicure, get dressed well, go out somewhere fancy to eat, buy expensive shit for nothing and just chill at some bar or café with friends, and have a laugh…and then maybe have a little romancing on my way home…whatever…just live it every once in a while. Told T I was unhappy, although I shouldn’t have, until he’s better…but he sounded better today and I can’t keep things on the down low for long
Oh and did Imention Jeele called...one of the past sexual friends...but obviously from the conversation they haven't spoken in ages, and they were both being very polite and behaved in tone. No comment on anything else.