Car and leg mechanics

So today we went to about 4-5 different mechanics….from here to there trying to fix my Rover’s minor damages….fixed exhaust pipes, water pipes, Boujjiis, headlights, checked oil & water thingies, and my RH Rib Beam….cost me about 120,000 I think…plus we washed the car. Took most of the day to finish, TT was monitoring everything….really nice of him. I got tired and stressed early in the day, I just feel asleep in the car to wear away my troubles. Grateful T helped out…the car has been stressing me for 2 weeks. We had “Knefeh” (Cheese Cake) for breakfast…tasted good. By the end of it all we grew tired but T had a football match to attend to at 3:30 so we drove to a sports shop to buy him a Knee Stabilizer so he can play easy, and drove to his place, parked my car, changed his clothes and headed to Kfarshima to see the boy’s play. His mom prepared “termos” for me to snack on, and we bought chips and 7up.
But unfortunately T didn’t warm up properly I guess and his knee twisted and got loose and wouldn’t fit back into place. It stressed him out, and me more...I drove back home and he drove to his doctor’s home to fix it up. But no hope, he’s back on medicine a minor exercises. We cancelled our planned (Elias) dinner, and party. And got stuck at home for another weekend. Damn.
Rim called again for a few times again and again. When I answered she closed. Earlier in the day, Nelly, some women who was helping T get a job called too. And some mysterious # T wouldn’t pick up 01/870***. And that’s that. T slept at about 10:00 and was playing mommy to the kitten that refuses to sleep anywhere but next to my heart, pussy, or tummy.
Oh and news about my ex…actually his brother….got married today….did I mention he's a 20 year old, has not a single penny….not a place to live or a job of any kind.whatever…I don’t give a damn...just don’t bother me with your calls.
I’m bored and just damn sick of my life

Bad Luck Good Luck

woke up really early just to get a chance to wake my baby up from bed. ANd I did with lots of kisses...had arabic coffe with his dad who was already awake then with t and his mom once they awoke.

Barbequed Car chicken

Decided to go to the bank and drop off the bank my bro sent me, and to my surprise my salary had been transferred since Wednesday and no one had a clue: SO drove happy to the office, and called T to tell him the good news. Also a mysterious 425$ appears to have been placed since February 13…I have no clue from where. I don’t recall having any cash deposited…hmmm I wonder who put it....maybe it was me and I forgot…got to check my accounts
The gang and me were supposed to head to the lawyer’s office to meet, but it was cancelled for Monday 5:00. Better.
Called T to give him the office # so he can start calling me on it.
Really happy I got paid…almost got broke : )
My ex still tries to call, but I never pick up, case closed a long time ago.
So anyhow I meet up with T after work and we head down to his town for a cruise, we go to his mechanic, check out some cars for me to buy....mainly Beamers, then go cut his hair at the local Barbar Henri...T had to do it himself cause the guy just sucked....we see his friends, and we get hungry...so we decide to eat So we head to have sandwiches but since we were starving we decided on barbequed chicken with garlic, bread, and pickles....and believe me the chicken never went futher than the car...we ate like dogs and it was so damn good....that we decided to have Barbequed chicken in the car every end of the month...yummy.
then Idrove home, cause Ihad to wake up early to fix my car the next day ; )
Goodnight

Back at work

Passed by the gas station to spray the car with water to remove the filth of the bad weather in the last couple of days. Went to work, passed by Western Union, grabbed some cash from my bro, got stuff from pharmacy, and just hung out in the office finishing my freelance project. T called me a few times, he was slightly busy.
After work T invited me to watch a FUTSAL mini soccer match (banks competing one another) he was refereeing. Parked my car at his office parking, returned T, the borrowed cash, and we drove to the mechanics to see the damage done and took an appointment to fix it, then we went to his place to change his clothes, grab a bite to eat…and headed to Jamhour…cause the Jamhour (audience) was waiting for us. First match was fun to watch cause one team totally sucked, and the others had interesting tactics…11:2. Second match: 2 different teams, one T’s friend Naji was couching and the other I didn’t know…they won 7:5 I think. I don’t remember cause I got hungry and tired by the end of the match…it was about 11:30 and I still had to drive back home. It was fun. T got a whole set of referee gear to wear and I got to referee along for the fun of it. We get to be invited to the big game on the 28th…one of the officials was happy enough to make my company : )
Oh and Ring Ring Rim called a few times during the match, T asked me to answer her, calls. At first she was I guessed surprised to hear a woman’s voice, so she closed in my face. Then sent T a message that her boyfriend hasn’t called her in 2 days, and was wondering who picked up the phone, then said she didn’t want to cause problems with me. Really I didn’t know? She had already called him in the same morning, and now again several time. Second time she called we didn’t pick up, but by the third time I answered and she actually spoke to me…very mouse like soft voice: ‘Hi can I talk to Tony please?” I told her T was busy he couldn’t answer her calls, if she wanted to leave a message with me I would tell him, she said no then asked if I was his girlfriend. I fooled around a bit: Sorry, can you repeat that I didn’t hear you….oh am I T’s girlfriend,…yes I am”…..so she said: “Sorry I don’t want to cause problems…I’m his friend.” Told her it’s ok, I know, if she needed to talk to him she had to call back in an hour. And she did about 3 times before I left but as far as I know, T didn’t answer.
J****a called once during the night, T never answered her, he says when he’s busy with me, he doesn’t want disturbances…trying to keep away from problems.
she calls him back after I'm gone...well the end conclusion is I'm a tall blonde russian who speaks minor russian : ) Funny....now I got he got her more interested

Home-work

Home…can’t wear anything after laser session. My ex getting somewhat desperate to see me again, he attempts to call me, smss me, then calls my bro and home. But I never reply. I don’t see any reason to; I heard he’s already got a SuSu in his life for his “ZoZo” as he puts it. I heard him talking to my bro, he has gone to my abandoned office, and has tried to find me at the gym, or in the area, but hasn’t managed to get to me. He asked my bro about my schedule, what time I come and go, offered money and other things in return for info, but my bro would never give that up, especially what he has done to me. HE kept saying: “I never knew I loved her that much, I’m dying just to smell her touch her, hear her voice again, just one second to satisfy me” …it sounds fantastic, but anyone who really knows him would be 10 times cautious. He asked about Tony and if I were happy and still with him…he always thought I would end up with someone who would use me, abuse me or not love me enough like he did…but of course he was wrong. T is good with me, and as far as I know he loves me too. And I’m at peace. Thought maybe I should give him a call o just leave me alone, but I can’t really bother…It was nice hearing him again, for old times sake..8 years is a kid’s lifetime, but I can’t forgive fuck ups…BIG FUCKUPS! His bro is eloping with his girl…I don’t understand how...he hasn’t got a decent job and no cash saved up. Whatever, it’s no longer my business.
T went to insurance company this morning to check the damage caused Saturday. Hopefully he won’t be spending much from his pocket. I’m happy yesterday the Big Boss at his company sent him a note of appreciation for a project pitch. T deserved it and we both appreciated his consideration to the effort and time T spent on it.
I'm at home working on a project.

Laser laser laser!!

Shouldn’t shave and my legs look like a mess from the last laser session!!!
T very sweet today. He smsed me early in the morning: Chte2telik no no b7ebik.
Later he smss: Entd w2ana ya rayt 3ena koukh mkhaba bi fay al 7awa wel kina.Wn7eb ba3dna bala kahraba wla nour.
So I sms him back:Yarayit 3anna massari ta nousrouf 3ali minhiboun wa man 3ouz hadan. Inta nour albi. And I sms him: t babe your so funny!Hadir halak ilioum.
We met after work and drove to the clinic….we met the doc coming out of his car…now he’s definetly going to rip me off after he sees me rover!1DAMN!!!
Zap…zap…zap zap…zip zip zap…..burn hair burn. Finally my hair days are vanishing. I can’t stand hair…it’s never looks good but in ads. Anywyas, t wasn’t very helpful with the pain, he was preoccupied with delivering his freelance work to sherbal. I can’t blame him, but I appreciate it that he’s around. Oh I did send him a message early something that goes like: Although my life is full of drama,u bring me peace of mind. I appreciate u or something like that and I wish you to be my sweet babe always….hmmmmmm but sometimes he does piss me off slightly cause he reminds me of those fools in Tabarja…..Anyways, I’m in pain got to go cool off!!!fssssssssss

Mondays no work at work

Work work and no work at all. Just hanging around, sketching or illustrating something. Still drawing my doll heads, I hope I can launch this project properly, for fame and fortune, and to help kids around the world.
At lunch I was invited to La Pichet for a Lunch meeting, which was a success. Hopefully I will have something to do in the next 6 months. Oh and I had lots of garlic bread, a French salad with wine and hummus, and a main dish of “crevettes”…mmmm it was tasty, and I got a little woozy from wine…but a cup of cappuccino helped wear the taste in my mouth, and get me back on my feet….although by fact coffee does not wear alcohol.
Didn’t see T today cause he had another late meeting, so a hung around my office longer than usual, and headed to the gym.
Got back home to find my books from Amazon arrived!!! And earlier than scheduled! I love illustration books, but I haven’t even finished reading half the books I got, but all useful when the time comes.
Oh and my Rover’s RH Rib Beam was blinking red….from the damn pothole I went into a few weeks back in a hurry to get to T. I hope it can withstand till I get cash to fix it. So many little problems when cash is short. Hopefully that will be solved soon.
T stayed up late working on his freelance project, we both slept at 11:30.

Home home home

Baby-sitted my step-sister all day. Cleaned up home, fooled around with my siblings, and just hung out. Talked to T all day…he was busy with his freelance work till 11:30…my lovely baby.
Had pizza and a candlelight dinner with my family and just went to sleep. Nothing special, just peaceful stress…if I can call it that. Need to prepare my passport, to travel end of April for Job interviews.

ACCIDENT PRONE

T out preparing for his freelance project he got yesterday.
My ex attempt to call me about 7 times with smsz....but I can't bother to read. I have nothing to say to him, simply. But I know he's dying to hear my voice, and I heard his times have gone bad...the wheel of misfortune is rolling from his dirty ways.
T's coming over for breakfast : ) yippy
so I spent the day with T at home,… my sis was having a fight with her boyfriend, so she storms out in the early morning only to come back 10 minutes, apparently just having a car accident and jamming into a pile of sand!!!! That was funny cause her car skidded on flat ground 1 minute away from home, no oil, no water, and it was full of sand over and under the motor….so Dave cleans it up for her then she storms out again after another fight with her boyfriend….so me and T continue breakfast together, prepared Lea’s comp for T to work on,…then we get a call from my sis’s boyfriend that she has had another accident 10 mintues away from home..and we should go help her…but we didn’t know where and my sis wouldn’t pick up the phone and she disappears unheard of for 2 hours, we figure out later that she is with a friend placing the car in the garage….anyways me and T had lunch in bed (hotdogs and fries with mayo, ketchup and mustard and coke), and would have spent some cozy times together…until we heard my bro yelling out my name from the balcony. Christine, the hot M.I.L.F., recently divorced, 36 year old had backed up to T’s car and scratched the metal above the front wheel and door. It was funny, I laughed cause T was parked properly, and there was enough space for a truck to turn in circles, and that’s the 3rd accident today!!
SO T goes down to settle the issue with the short black dressed mama. Car might cost us 100$. T had to leave at 7:00 to prepare for the project….mmmm bye bye Mr.3…so much fun.
My ex from my teen years calls me up, I haven’t seen him for a long while, but we are good friends. He needed help with his Passport when he comes to the country…told him I’ll see how I can help. I need his lawyer to help me settle my problem at the company.

Friday

Passed by T's office this morning to get some lunch...BAZILLA! I cracked up when I was eating cause his mom makes them in such a cute manner they look like those Kitten food delights.
Anyways, spent the day in the office waiting for the company's virtual lawyer to appear. Nothing. but I did make an attempt to get freelance work and to my surprise the client calls back to hand me a proposal. We cancelled a Saturday meeting to a Monday lunch. Hope this works out. this means 1 year's worth of freelancing!
Oh and I came up with an outstanding design for a collectibles doll. I pray it'll be a big hit someday if I can launch it properly.
Client passed by the office today to tell me how the Mother's Day card I designed was a blast....mmmmm how nice.
t had freelance meeting after work I couldn't see hime. Plus he had to deliver some other freelancing to a friend of his. He came home tired. We chatted what to do Saturday, and feel asleep.
I'm pretty bored from my life....realised that for the past month, cause work sucks and I can't seem to do much without money....Hope things turn out better

LASER AGAIN...eh...no

Waited for the company lawyer to come today...no reply. don't know if the guy even exists.
Didn't talk much to T, not even misscalls...I was drepressed from work and stomach ached from youghart I ate.
After work we went for laser and they cancelled my session for tuesday...waiting for hair to grow : ( what a day. all the ladies there seem to have a thing for TT. He's too cute sometimes, especially when we are together : )
T got his 6th free session....damn!!!! all he paid was 80$....ahhhhhh!!
Wished his mom a Happy Mother's day in arabic....ughhhhhhh I hate arabic!!!!
Oh and on the way back from the clinic my eye caught a car's license that matched my phone #. so we stopped the guy to the side, and got his business card, and told him we'd call him up to see how we can arrange the trade : ) yipppy!!! this whole week I've seen #s similar to mine, but this time I caught the car who owned my # and it turns out to be a Rav4!!!!UGHHHHHH. Guy said he got the # by random.
Anyways hope he sells it to me for cheap. t says about 500 - 1000$!!! yikes!
T called up my mom to wish her a Happy Mother's day : )

Blackmail

Called T up this morning,he was still at home running late. Promised to call me when he got to the office and didn't. Just called me once in the late afternoon. Not much at work but a blackmail letter from my boss that if I didn't sign the Quetis I wouldn't get my 2 months salary...and a lot of secret information going about. Got mad. Met up with t at the big clock, and we chatted. It's boring when ur short on cash but we enjoy each other's company. No Mother's Day gift for my mom. T got Touza icecream yesterday. then he left to see a guy for a paper, and off to Christopher's to play cards. I just went home. Picked my bro from school on the way. He goes to night school.

- 0$

At home again, cause no $$$. Boss where's my salary!!!! Hello. He's out in another country, forgot about us here. Damn!!
On the phone with T all day. Nothing special but some loving.

Ughhhhhh…the downs

Just miscalls not even a call. I can’t stand such behavior…you’d think we were on the same frequency, then poof…everyone on his own planet.

So I came up with a story last night for Tony:

Kin ya makin feee kadeeem il zamin, kin fee M3allim Shaii, michkilto 3attachou. Ken yebee3 shaii “tea”, wa yjareb ysid 3attachou, bil maiy “water”. Jarab maiy min kil nahir wa kil nabi3 wa kil hanafeeyi timrouk 3alla tareekou. Hooounek nhar, fakar lei ma be rouh 3ala mazdar kil il mai, wa y2khoud maiyito min houneek...min mayit il “Sea”- il Bahir. Fa dab ghraddou wa wada3 ass7abou wa il hay taba3ou wa rah 3alla il moughamari il jdedi b 7ayetou.
Wousal 3ala il bahar, wa kin ktir mabsout, fe mai 3a madda nazarou, wa iddir ysid 3attachou. Wa taffuck l’M3allim ma3 il Bahir hata ynadifllou shatou, wa yehtam fee lal Bahar, wil Bahir b’aminllo yishrab min mayitou, wa yekoul min samkito 3a mada hayeto.
Bas hounik nhar, min ba3ad kam shahir, balash yikhaff M3alim il Shaii, inno she nhar yenouti3 il Bahir min il maiy, wa you3tach “again”, laino kil 7ayeto i7sas il 3atach kan yedallo mrefkou, ta ija 3al bahar.
Fa rah 3ala kaza nahir mich b3eed 3annou. Nahir il Rim, il Rouba, il Carla, il Joanna, il Joelle, wil Daisy, wil Layali wa kazza nahir ghayroun. Wa taffuck houwi wil anhour, inno min wakit lal tani yib3at kil wahad minon samki min 3andon ta ti2sal “ask”, Il M3allim izza 3ayiz maiy wa 3atchan.
Hek Aman halou M3alim il Shaii, wa khabar il bahar, 3an il ittafuckiyet “deals” tabba3ou, laino il Bahar mnih ma3ou wa biyifhamou. Fa ibil il Bahar bil mawdou3 laino fihim khafou “fear” la’l’M3allim, wa aslant albou wa aklou kbir, wa kin yhib keef il M3allim yehtam fee.
Bas min ba3ad fatra aseeri balash il Bahar yedayak, laino Nahir Rim Kin kil youm yib3at samki, il soubouh, douhour wa 3ashhiya 3ala maiyit il Bahir.
Wa ntalla il Bahar samak nahri.

Fa allo il Bahir la M3allim Il Shaii, iza fe majil inno yihki ma il nahir ta khafif min samkito. Fa rah M3allim il Shaii wa haka ma il Nahr Rim Bas dallou il Nahir Rim 3alla 3adittou “habits”.

Wa staghrab il Bahir lei, ma3ino il M3allim allo inno hiki ma3 il Nahir Rim, lei kin Nahr Rim ba3doo yeb3at samak kil youm. Wa tsawarou, inno ija nhar allo M3allim il Shaii la il Bahir inno baddo yekhoud shwait mai wa samak min il Bahir, ta ya3teeyounn la Nahir Layal, laino ken yekhdamou ktir howi wa 3atchan. Fa sa2al “asked” il Bahir la M3allim il Shaii, lei bas la haydi il Nahir wa mich laghayerou….ma hayda il Nahir khadamou min zamin. Wa Ballash il M3aliim Il Shaii yeghalbit b 7akeeto wa kaleemato wa yekhtouri3 “create” oussass ghareebiit il shakil, wa sar yewasikh shat il Bahir shwai shwai min il kizbo wa ihtiyallo.

Fa has il Bahar inno M3allim il Shaii haltou halli…3andou khouf min il 3attach. Fa add ma bya3teee il Bahir bi 7ayeto, yemkin l’M3allim il Shaii yedallou 3andou tami3 “greed” aw kouff “fear” min il 3attach “thirst”. Ma3 inno, il bahir tammanou lal’M3allim inno howie kbir wa miaiyitou 3a ad albou, wa mich makoul yinashiff “dry”…. Il Ma3alim dallou khayeef.

Yimkin, il M3allim khaf yighruk b ghmik il bahir she nhar aw yedirbou il 3atach, aw yemkin ma 3ad hab maiy il bahar “anymore”… wa fadal yekooun 3andou kaza mazdar maiy.
Ymkin yiliki sa3adtou bil annhour…. Allah byi3lam.

Anyway, no one knows how the story ends yet, but ideally this is what happens:
“The Tea Maker, awakes to his wrong doings and begins to understand…. So he decides to go back home to his village, solve his problems with the many rivers and packed himself a homely boat with simple pleasures, one & 2 friends worth the name, a cat and a dog, and a little more than enough to wear, and I little more than enough to live by, and heads back to the “Sea”. And throws himself like a fisherman’s net in all directions immersing himself as much as livingly and physically possible into the “Sea”,…For thirst is a dangerous thing, Don’t you agree?”

Many fears face me during the day, but I can only be true to my doings and myself and hope to God that no one ever brings me a flow of tears to my eyes and pain to my heart.
I folded the letter into an origami heart and put it in his car door.

Whatever. I leave work early .Misscall T. He calls me back 15 min later, really dry voice asking if I was going to go with him to gym. No. Left home slept till I get a phonecall at 7:30 from t in the office, asking if I was ok, but in a careless voice, and that he was leaving work, if I cared to know.
15 minutes later he apparently reads the letter and smss me:
bi 7ayeto l shaii ma ken ma3 suggar and ur the sugar ya aghla c ta2ess sar a7la hala2
and off to the gym he goes.

Unfit

Woke up wanting to go to the beach, but windy, and icy cold outside, with minor sunshine.
So stayed home, had breakast, showered, we decided I go to his place, but after trying on half my clothes, I got frustrated from all the mismatches, so I called off the Mloukhieh lunch invitation. I stayed home, napped a bit. Smsed a business partner to see what time I should go to his new hub. 4:00. SO I called up T he was still sleeping, he said he’ll get up and shower, eat then call me. I waited, got dressed in the time being…then I called him up a million times home, and cell, he wouldn’t pick up, and I had to leave home, so I headed to his place. He called me on my way there…I yelled at him cause he wouldn’t pick up, and I had to leave. Anyway, he said he’d follow to our café, once he’s done. I sat and had my American Coffee with my sis and her boyfriend, waiting for T to come. T came we hung out for a while, he threw a joke about being bored at my business meeting and wanting to go to Tabarja to see friends, which got me suspicious…then left for my brief visit to my business partner, on the way we see one of his exs a lawyer called Daria, whom he thought had a cute personality, and Melanie a girl he new from Tabarja, he thought was sweet, and nice looking. We got to my partner’s place place, a 10 min ride…we discussed his new office and work, then left to meet up with my sis who was heading to my cousin’s place in Harissa. Thought it would be a great idea to go pray, and do our holy services. SO we did and we had dinner too. Ring Ring started calling again. I was pissed cause last time she told TT to answer even if I was with him, and so what if I was with him…the damn respect, like I can’t be a fucking bitch too. Anyways, T first wanted me to answer her, and then decided that would be too childish. So I asked him what was her #, maybe I’d give her a call. He said he doesn’t remember, funny cause I got it memorized once, and she never calls me everyday...help me out T, isn’t it 03 318***. Anyways, next question, where they met, and if he’s had a relationship with her….doesn’t remember and no. Then he changed subject saying that he wanted to head down to Tabarja after our visit, to see his friends. So I asked what friends…Roland and some other guy I’ve never heard of, then he said his girl friends, then he changes subject…and I just shut up. I don’t know what his fucking problem is, but I’m not waiting to find out. My sis dropped me off at my car, then I dropped T at his car, he was quiet most of the time, except for asking me unnecessary and absurd questions, which he never would regularly. So when we got to our destination I gave him back his necklace, and ring he got me for Valentines, and told him to give me a call only when he got his issues with the supposed Rim done with.He said he’d call me when he got home, and he never did. He miscalled me once he got home and when he slept, at 10:00. I did likewise except for the fact that I had a sleepless night and didn’t get a wink of sleep till 4:00am.

MehMehMeh…12000

Mehmehmeh is the fake laugh we use when being bitchy, ironic, sarcastic, or foolish.
What a day. Had few errands to run early morning, dropped off mom at dentist, pay phone bill, dropped a delivery, got cash, and met up with T, next to my dad’s shop. TTTTTTTTT!!!!! Little misunderstanding where we should have met, but it turned out ok. We headed to a pet shop to see if they got any kittens….they still had the gray one we saw a week ago. Funny puppies, too. Then we headed to pay T’s friend who wasn’t home. Gym was closed in the early morning. So we went for breakfast…mankoushis….T already had 4 eggs in the morning so I ate somewhat alone…we shared some “fool”. Then we cruised around, then went to change my clothes at his place, and headed to the gym for some ping pong. T taught me how to play a bit. It was so fun!!! I won him, but he was cheating and letting me win…heheheh. We worked out a bit, met his cheating trainer and the wife. Then we headed to Christopher’s to see what he was up to. He was planning a cards game and inner this evening. Ok cool. We went for a romantic rub walk next to Jamhour, it was fantastic but I had intense pain in my ovaries after the walk, cause I’m supposed to get my period. So we headed to T’s home to rest. His mom made me some hot fresh mint tea. And we napped for 2 hours. Rim stll calling and messaging T fake messages, of an Elie she was going out with tonight…..Ring Ring…..hehehe, that girl is so funny, her attempts so amateur. Whatever, now we are having more fun. We got up to play a game called, “How Well Do You Know Me?” after 6 months…that I prepared. It just consists of several personal, non-personal, and work related questions that we should answer about our partner. We both got a few non-notable mistakes, but I presume we have a 10/10 understanding of one another. : ). And we signed to one of T’s questions, if I wanted to marry him, and have a happy healthy family….I signed with all my heart, as he.
More Mint tea in T’s thermos, which his mom added a little treat to in the bottom of the can.
Called up my mom to tell her we were out to play cards, and that I was to be late. She had bought me a present and placed it on my bed, till I get home. So we went out to Christopher’s who was late, prepared a fishy dinner, and we sat played cars till the en of the night. Rim attempts another call. T won …TWICE!!! We’re so cool together. He gave me his cross to wear for a few days. Then he dropped me off at my car, and I headed home to sleep.

Home

Didn't go to work today. stayed up last night watching "i-robot".And just decided not to go. I'm short on cash and my company hasn't paid me my salary. It's the 16th already for God's Sake, I got bills to pay!!!!!
SO I stayed home. T can call me all he wants.
Just organizing my life together.
TTTTTT I MISSSSS UUUUU!
Weather still sucks.

Down time

The man wants knefeh, we get the man knefeh. Called T up today to prepare himself for some C sweets from Sea Sweet…heheh….sahtein ya albi.
There a damn cold storm outside…brrrr, need someone to warm my bed : )
Playing 10 little Indians in the office…everyday, someone’s absent or gone. 3 today…soooo boring. Me and t spent the day Miscalling each other. During the day he send me an sms (12:03): Amboura send me clinque number of roland plz. C Kiss u Ktir Ktir
I smsed him: Did u like the Sea Sweet That Sweet C got u?Hehehe Sahtein sweetheart
Why can’t I be rich and freelance what I love to do. Do I have to work to make a damn living? I wanna be free. Employment sucks the hell out of you. Anyways, last night I emailed my Cv and T’s to other companies, maybe I will find a better freer job. I hope so.
Meeting with Business Partner postponed today till Sunday afternoon, Sundays are boring anyways.
Didn't see T after work, I was just sooo damn bored, I couldn't wait for him to finish,so I headed home.Talk to him once I got there.

Rainy Day

Sad. Heard my mom last night crying cause my dad is such an asshole. I pray I never have to be in such misery.
T called me before I could…1:0…GOODMORNING TT. He was being sarcastic how I didn’t get him Knefeh yesterday and today. Yesterday I wanted but he didn’t want to get in trouble with his boss, and today is just too damn cold. We didn’t talk much today cause we were both busy with our work. But I did get to see him after work cause his company was playing mini-soccer: Warehouse against company blue-collars….hehehe. But I yelled at him when I saw him cause he was being so impatient with his calls…I drove with my car door open, dropped a whole bottle of cream on the street, almost crashed my new laptop, and broke a nail….ughhhh…but in truth I was andry inside from work, no salary yet, and my parents.
I apologized and I wasn’t much myself today, especially after Daisy called, and called. And T picked up to tell her he was busy. She’ll probably call him later. Whatever.
We talked a bit in the car: about lies cause I felt he was lying to me yesterday in McDo but no proof…it’s like that until u discover what all the suspicion is about. I actually feel so insecure, I dunno why, sometimes there is not much to go by, but I makeup the weirdest scenarios. Anyways, there is no way in heaven and hell, I could know unless some damn shit happens and I get evidence in my hands. Like catch him in bed with someone- God forbid – or some females hair in the car seat or clothes, maybe some nail polish markings around, and weird items landing in his home or car, who knows….just got to trust the guy, right. So we decided that he helps me to regain some level of trust cause I’m crazed at the moment. Let’s hope it works, I can’t be suspicious forever.
So BOOBOO or MOOMOO, eh T?
Zlik Zlik is soooo amazing. The best I’ve seen by far.
Love you T.
He’s going to the gym, to work his leg.
Comes back, calls me up, and sends me this sms when talking to me (10:09pm): B7ebik ktir ya aghla c bel kon
And I send him: B7eb kil milli, wa kil centi,kil meter wa kilometer feek,ya aghla T b albi :) bon oui bebe...I know it's Bon Nuit, but I like writing it Bon Oui...heheh

Sleep

Called T in the morning to see him but he didn't want to get into trouble with his boss, so I just left to work. Sleepy day, not much going on. Actually today I actually woke up and got dressed early, not realising that the alarm didn't go off yet...sooo absent minded!! T's sms got me drugged, last night. Beautiful TT, his toe still hurts this morning...and he was moody on the phone. I met up with him after work, we headed to Mcdonalds, cause BK sucked the last 2 times we went. We had fun. T was in his flipflops..hehehe. Then we headed back for SAJ. We had a lot of fun. Rim kept calling and miscalling...she says he doesn't respect her..oh lord,amatuers and clingers are annoying, but I got used to her. I think I'm going to call her Ring from now on instead of Rim...hehehheh
Headed home to treat my lasered legs and urge to pee.

Toes,nose,knees,sneeze

Woke up sneezing this morning...must have caught a cold or something.
Went to T's office to pick up my sunglasses and contract copy.T's toe was swollen, and he was in pain so I dropped him at the pharmacie, 20meters away. His boss must have seen us cause his HR was asking if he he really went to the pharmacie....some people!!! And his knee was hurting him too...that gets him pissed, and moody. His boss gets him moody....he's always moody.
Anyways, long boring day, I tink my work is killing my spirit....spent the day designing a mother's day card for road safety.Talked to T a few times. I couldn't see him after work cause he had to go pick up his sports stuff before going to coach the football team at 8:00.So I just drove home, he called me up, we chatted and he left top the gym,and me to mine.
Turns out my coaches are travelling to a Convention in Paris, so no classes til the 25th...great : ( Need to find something to do, or just run around in the room or something...maybe buy a dog...or a cat...got to wait to get paid first : (
I wanna shop. My nose tickles....T wasn't in the mood of talking after his coach session...I guesss he got depressed he can't play soccer no more...he's got to get that leg better...nchala kheir.Cheer up baby,plz.
So I sms him: T baby maybe I can't take the pain away but I know how to put a smile on your face : )
Then another sms: T babe at least ur legs aren't full of burn marks...I fucking look like a coccinelle!!
So he sms's me back (11:06): Love you more than myself ya 7ayeti...damn I can live on that

C & T at sea

Woke up much better.
T called me up to see what we were up to. L***l called him up while we were talking, wonder what she wanted...he told her he's on the phone now, he'll call her later.
Weather beautiful today...think of going to Faraya with Christopher : )
T calls back ...a change of plans...we are now heading to the beaches of Chekka!
Got dressed in sports clothes cause I couldn't wear jeans or boots from the laser...T came to pick me up with Joelle and Christopher , and we headed to Chekka.Saw a hot X5,red...I want one!!!it was so pimped!!!
Somewhat of a long ride. But once we got there it was fantastic....the weather was awesome, so summery...people were actually in bikinis and tanning...and there wasn't much of a crowd.first restaurant we headed to was packed, an aquaintance of T's, but the one near by 'Oasis' was traffic free. We placed our order: No octopus or artichoke for me, so I traded it in for Mashawi and fattouche, and they had fish and the regular mezza stuff. The boys checked out girls and we just behaved cooly....boys will be boys, no? T goes to the water comes back fetching me a funny looking snail!! : )
T mentions rim calling him 3 times yesterday, he never picks up, but she does sms her back not to call him anymore. then she calls back around midnight and he tells her that her calls are becoming somewhat of a disturbance, due to their constance...so she says she won't call him anymore, if that's the way he wants it. Then T was asking if I wanted to cut off all his relations....ofcourse not, but I just don't need them calling constantly, weekly if they are friends....he hasn't seen any of them in months since I've been with him, so why the fuck are they calling....I just don't care, just control it...if he wants to keep contact then let it be,what can I change, if he wants to fuck around he will.
Anyways, I tell him the third lie of the 100$ bill. The last lie will have to wait till I trust him. We have come to some kind of understanding together.
we spent some quiet time together after lunch, it was good.Then we got our things and drove a 3 hour ride back home cause of the traffic. More girl winking and checking out on the road...became kind of intolerable, like he thinks I can't do the same...Peace please...no more macho I can do this and that...so can I, if I wanted.Anyways, a lot of loving and hugging, and chris and Joelle telling us to stop this and that. T gets a message on phone, I dunno from who. He drops me off home, and goes to drop Christopher and Joelle too.Might play cards there. I feel sleepy and hungry. Still feel like having opctopus and Macroon, some artichoke too...disasterous urges if I were married and pregnant!!hehehe
so it turns out the sms from Rim...something about following what he wishes...that she stops calling or lessens her calls. I don't know what it much easier for me to cut me guys from calling me...it's just like.."Hey I'm not interested anymore,... I don't wanna talk to you...you bore me,...stop bothering me....yah later...bye forever"...that simple...but for some reason people around here tend to cling and have the weirdest desperation attempts...oh boy

Sick in bed

SICK!!!! Feel so bad....woke up with a sore eye and inflamed legs.Damn I feel I have elephant feet. Pain everywhere...I hope this is worth it.
I shouldn't have gone to work yesterday.
T went to clean his car interior, Christopher called him up to come over, and Mandy too, thought he was coming over to Tab. But instead he feel asleep, although he felt like going fishing this morning, the weather was amazing! And we are both in bed.

Hope tomorrow is better.

T smss C (4:51pm):Amboura amboura min tizo bil dene?
He's out at the club, I think basketball or football was it? I dunno, but he's out with Ceasar.And I', stuck home bloated like a blowfish : (

So at home and in bed. T goes back out to Christophers and Joelle, to shave and play cards at Joelles home, but things go bad and T meets up with Ceasar later and they hang out on the road till midnight. And I fall asleep.

OWWWWWWWW

Owwww…ohhhh..ehhhhh… the burn. I can’t even wash my legs…damn I look like a ladybug, with the chicken pox! The thing is I don’t have any loose fitting clothes but my gym clothes and no way in hell I’m goig to wear those to work…I feel better in heels and tight clothes.
Grabbed the medicine and went to work…T had Caroline pick him up today cause he had to drop off his car at the garage. That car is always damaged or T has a picky issue about things.

He sms me during the day: Min attouche bel dene? Min habibe ana?

1.T babe lah itla3 min tyabi.I feel sick.D and Nino are here to meet Joe for their business.and i do luv ya
2.Miss u 7ayeto
3.Babe misscall me once if u miss me.2 if u want me.3 if u cant live without me.4 if u luv me.7if u wanna marry...and he miscalled me 7 times actually!!!!!
4. I'm joking..I just miss ya.My body hurts for u...ahhh iyyyyy akhhhhh 3al rjeel!
5.UR FUCKING CRAZY!!!But so am I. I love my mirror!!!!
I love smsing him

Normal day at the office, my sis passes by with her boyfriend to discuss there upcoming project schedule, and needs....met with colleague of mine's brother...meeting was successful

T went home with Caroline, I couldn't catch up with him cause I was settling me Quetis with my boss.
Then went home to nap, cause I was tired and in pain.T went to wash his car.
T woke me at 8:00, he was heading to gym. D invites me to the movies, so I go with her and Nino to watch PERFUME: lovely movie. T couldn't come, he was already at gym.
Came back home dead tired.

LASER SHOW!!!!

LASER LASER LASER!!!! We’re going to have laser hair removal today!!!
Sick of shaving, it’ll be such a blessing to have no hair at all, at least in the most annoying areas.
May calls me up today to thank me for the great work I did for her….yesterday she was so uptight, and angry, but once she saw the print out she fell in love with it.
Forgot about my ex and his escapades. I'm with T now and I’m very happy, and at peace, the best feeling in the world….I can’t stand any more heartache.
During the day I sms T: Mr.Aad why do you have to hear that:I adore you when you feel and see it.do I have to say it?
So he sms me back: Miss Aad I adore you....made me giggle
After work I went to visit a client to see how my work came out to be, gave my artistic input. They love my work, but apparently I’m specialized in specific areas and they want all-rounders.... need to work more on myself. Maybe strengthen my Photoshop and Maya, and learn After Effects or something…Need to get myself into print as well. Life is so tough when ur not up-to-date, but I’m stressing on my personal work now, so people can identify with my work and me. Need to find a job by April. Well thank God I can still freelance.
Finished my meeting and T met me at the Metropolitan roundabout…off to laser.
T complained about me wearing a string...a stringy string…he thought I should know what to wear when going to see a doctor….but what do I care…not that I’m being disrespectful, but the guy is going to see me naked anyways, and I’m sure he’s seen thousands before me.why be shy and conservative about it…my naked mind.
In the room next me, I could hear screams of the girl having laser removal for her legs. I freaked out and panicked, is it going to hurt that much!!! I had T come in and calm me down.
The lady practitioner there got me ready and marked my legs...and I waited…tick tick tick tick tick toc….Doc comes in, takes a look at me, fixes the machine, adjust the power to use and hands me back to her…Almost full bikini and tummy…no pain, and minor tickles….underarms….no pain at all, the lady was impressed I couldn’t feel the pain, called me the best patient she’s had : ) In the room next to me.T screaming and yelling….doing his full neck...poor baby, I couldn’t be with him, but I heard that he was waiting for me to scream to have a laugh at me this time. But on the contrary II did my entire body with the help of T’s sweet massage, the doc, and the lady, I felt somewhat of no pain or minor tingles…not even 1 scream…so take that! Maybe I’m sadistic or something...or like I always thought I have the tough skin of an alligator!
But I felt a hell of a burn when I applied the medicine!!! Damn…I think the lady overdid it with the knees...she was so into conversation with T, who knew her brother and his from Dubai…she over-treated my legs…the good thing is that I’m not hairy person…I just started having an annoyance from shaving constantly…the pain of hair growing and shaving every 2-3 days.
So we were done after 2 hours, touch-up in 2 weeks…I paid 500$, and T got another free session…that’s 6 sessions for him now and all he paid was 80$...the lucky bastard…next time I’m going to make him pay for half of my session…mich hek T?!!heheheheh
Took the lady with us to her home, cause her shift was over…apparently the doc only pays her 2004 for 2 hours a week from 6-9…not bad, but he has actually changed her shift from the agreement to 3 times a week fro 6 – 10 or 11, till he finishes with his patients…what an abuse. So she loved us both cause we looked like a fun couple and young looking..wished us well. And Oh yah T teased her about Joelle and Jad, her kids….she was stunned how he found out, since she never mentioned it to any of us…but it turns out that the “Mihtel” sly T read it on the locket she was wearing around her neck…what a tease.
Going home to calm the burn, post my personal work and sleep.
Talked to T and went to sleep.

The unfaithful

T emailed me his mom's pic...SHE'S SOOOO FUCKING BEAUTIFUL!!!
T woke up not in the mood for work. SO I sms him this:

Listen.I love ya&will be by ur side as much as i can.If ur not happy at work,we'll work on gettin u a better1.just keep positive 2B successful.remember what the book said.Set a goal and aim 2 get there.kisses my man

I found out today that he has been or still is dating another woman#3, SoSo, for 2 years and she's taking care of his business...what a fucking asshole...I hope he never sees his childrens eyes, and never enters the gates of heaven for all the misery he caused to a lot of people....Burn Bastard u don't deserve life

Beat T to work today...his knee still hurts.
Work was usual...left early to meet May to give her final file
Headed to a client to hand final corrections the went to meet T, but my enthusiasm towards him has died...out of lack of trust....Do u anyone whom is faithful?

I just don't get cheating, if u do it, then u don't love the person ur with, then why the fuck are u with him...maybe for sex...money...spice....I don't care....it hurts : (

Moody

T picks up Caroline (work mate)...she had a flat tire. I head to the office for for my ziwade.....lentil soup, his mom made : ) It was sooo tasty.
T very moody in the morning and during the day...work trouble...Tried to ease him through sms....7ayeti ana! Smile BEBE!!! Wish him the best always....I want you to be a big damn Manager someday and to kick out everyone who annoys you ...keep u smiing cause ur ugly when ur angry : )
He’s downloading my favorite songs, today : )
rim calls him asking why he's not respecting her...fuck she knows he suppossdly engaged...fuck people no one is faithful, and the world is desperate for love
Jim calls insisting on buying my car, but I forgot I can’t get a company note of my salary cause my company is shutting down, or has shut down as of Jan.30....no insurance!!! Need another job soon.

Left work early to St.George tower, hung there till 6:00, then met T before his late afternoon meeting, gave him back his Tupperwares. Soup was great. He was moody again, but happy to see me. Now we are in a phase in which we call each other “Kizeb” wa “mihtal”…we lost all trust in each other. Got 2 weeks to rebuild it up again.
Let’s face it we both know we both can cheat and lie, but can we hold a relationship together? I won’t answer that yet.

Oh and I wanna find T a better job…..I hate that he hates where he works and what he works…my goal this month..find TT a fantasic job…Meen baddo yseer Big Manager one day? Nchaka 7ayeto

T goes home, then gym for Ping Pong…he seems to be kicking ass in Ping Pong!!!! GO SUGAR!!!
I call him around 9:30 AND HE’S HEADING HOME!!!! HURT HIS KNEEE!!! TT…told him to watch it.
HE had to sleep in pain

Tummy aches and heartbreaks

Woke up with terrible stomach aches...but had to head to the office to finish some workload...T called me up early told me to stay home, have a cup of tea, warm in bed...but I just couldn’t. SO headed to the office. The pain was terrible, but I fell asleep on the desk for a while and ate plain old bread. TT called to check on me several times...and I kept thinking, why the hell did he lie to me about stupid phone calls!!! Maybe Christopher was trying to tell me that the night we partied...hmmmm or maybe because T loves women he can’t live with one...or maybe T loves to play, and fool around.... maybe T is a fucking liar.... maybe I should leave him, cause I am definitely not going to live another damn case like my ex-rela.I’m sick of men. They behave like females can’t do what they do...if they only knew our dark side....Moouuuhahahahahahah!!!(Evil Laugh). SO T wants to play, and I want to leave....maybe he can solo...I’m going to tell him this week.

Met up with T after work...for the first time in our history, he finishes work early!!! 5:30, fixing his car lights, and changing the oil (7.5$). Saw Johnny, and Nabil, his colleagues... they wanted to go to the movies. Gave T project CD he was supposed to deliver to May’s, my work related friend.

So once we had a little time of our own, T approaches me with the promise that these 2 weeks he will try to rebuild my trust for him cause he fucked up this time. 2 weeks a queen in his arms.
Promises....mmmmm. T’s unfulfilled promises:
A kitten
A TV screen for my Range Rover
2 pairs of earrings ...in replacement for 5 pairs lost in our endeavors
A dog (pincher...decided to name him Tipsy)
To keep me laughing, no crying
To be honest as possible
A place of our own
Eating somewhere fancy
Laser
Whitening my teeth
Change his phone #
To answer his phone at all times (1/2 fulfilled)
To tell me when he doesn’t want me anymore, or when he’s sick of me
To break up with me before he cheats on me
Wet wipes for the car
I can’t recall if there is more, but these I remember.

We’ll see what happens...2 weeks to see if things will change.
So new promise: To let me know every call, and miscall and dialed # to any females (heheheh). I don’t know what to expect from a womanizer, or should I ask what does he expect from a maleizer (hehehe)....joking...but if he seems to have a plan for me...which I didn’t understand and he didn’t explain.
Oh and I told T I have lied to him 3 times in the past 6 moths, but lies he got nothing to do with, but with my ex…nothing sexual or physical…just white lies….I’ll let him know someday…they are not hurtful…just unnecessary…but know I got him thinking…..
Oh Porn movie download!!!!! For the weekend : )
Went home, got dressed for gym. T went to his Physiotherapist Tony. R. Cause his knee not well again, then went home, called me up, then, to gym.

Jim calls me up after gym, wants to buy my Rover...I wanted to sell it months ago, get something for a new life. Told him to call me back tomorrow.
Sms T 3 times, not to forget my “Ziwade”, and “Bon Oui” and “Where are my miscalls that he loves me!!!”...no reply...he must be dead tired.
Sick and Tired I went to sleep.

Stresssssed out!!!!

I'm soooo stressed from work....overload!!! gotr pissed at mom, dad, and the whole damn world....Grabbed my workload, drove to my parents shop, parked my car, met up with T and drove to his home. Had lunch...kebbe and sheesh barak b laban....then workeda bit, and watched to Dvds: American Pie (Naked Mile) and Night at the Museum....okay movies...not very funny as I expected. t still sick, but medicine making him much better.
Rim missed called today...what's up with her!!!
T's sis still being scroogy, she came in the room, turned on tv next to me, up loud, when she saw us watching the dvd on the laptop....damn I'm beginning to hate being there when she'd around.
Anywyas LEa came over to take T's car, cause she wanted to take her parents out for a special dinner and she has a HONDA...I HATE HONDAS!!!!
Went home, was stuck out, cause noone there and I had the wrong Key. Then my sis came and I went in.
Spent night with more family fights and arguements....building a fucking mean dragon inside me.
T called me up a few times to calm me down...what a sweetheart....mmmmmm
I still hate that he LIED!!!!! I DON'T TRUST YOU MUCH TT!!! Just 50%...sorry
Goodnight

Beautiful Liar

Slept at 2:00 last night. Called TT at 12:30 to tell him to sleep, cause he refused to sleep before me. I stayed up till 2:00, emailed the client and fell asleep, only to awake at 8:00 to shower. Talked to T in the morning, he was too sick, didn’t want to go to Elie’s for breakfast but I told him I was up already, and Elie was waiting for us. Then drove my bro to work, and headed to our favorite car wash, met T threw the car there, T had bought his medicine, coughing a lot…anyways we headed to T’s friend “Khaio” Elie. Had kawarma and eggs with tea, labneh, oil, tomatoes, cucumbers, thyme mankoushis….it was a blessing. His friends home was weird: old Lebanese home, I hate them…so out of my world, besides I can never ever live in such highly populated areas….it was fun we left, and headed to the Dentist, Bassim. While waiting for T to finish, Daisy miscalls on his phone….I discover under dialed: J***a, Rim, Daisy, C***a, Abir….all names of former girlfriends!!! I freak out, leave the dentist office to head down to Christopher’s place (next door)….sat there….calmed down…bought T a lunch bag (diversion)….I hate him!!! FUCKING LIAR!!!! He said he never called them, they always call him…so he lied….I don’t trust him anymore…asshole made me cry...that's the third time this month!!!!!..fuck u T...I left my work to be with u todat...... I just wanted to go home, finish my work…men are such a waste of time….Anyway he opened up, said he was sorry as usual….that’s like 3 sorrys this month…I’m starting to change my mind about him….bye T….calmed down…played cool, got my car…drove off home….but then decided to shop….T looking at a lot of women today…maybe I wasn’t looking sexy enough….so I went bought something hot…then back home to work….T went for Ping Pong with Caesar his gym mate. We fought at night again.
Went to May's house to give her the work file..and it wasn't on my laptop...T has to take it to her Monday...damn
Oh and J***a called him home in the morning to invite him to lunch with her friend boyfriend…T told her he’ll miscall her if we can’t go. Someone is trying to size me up…I hate that….I’m pissed today….I wish everyone would disappear for a long while. Goodnight I got to go work. Work first, family second and men third…..no?

T smss C (7:13 pm): Cc cc bade koun 7adek 7ata mout. Plz ya amira

His jaw was hurting him from the dentist session.

C sms T:Remember the I HATE YOU message I sent when I met you...well this is another

Flu

T called me from the office this morning..Trying to save up on our bills. Found oil leaks under the car…means another trip to the garage. Broke my promise to T to never take off the ring, but it didn’t match my clothes.. Busy day at work….juggling 3 projects, but worth the penny. I’m exhausted. My friend left the job today…had farewell lunch together…busy day. Met up with T, chatted a while…discussed Saturday, so many plans but I don’t know if I will have the energy for it….I wanna shop. T was coughing a lot…he’s getting the flu I think...I hope I don't catch it from all that love kissing...hehehe

Boom boom

March starts with a load of freelance work no time to breathe…no time to notice T didn’t miscall me last night before he slept.

Morning phone call was dry and he kept giving me attitude, and I just didn’t get why….then he blurted it out that he was trying to call from 10:00 till 12:30 last night and my phone was busy…ooopss!!!! I was so into work, and it wasn’t me on the phone…it was D!!!! AHHHHH and stupid me didn’t realize he never missed called….poor baby slept angry…and I was unconscious. Anyways I sent him an: I adore u: sms this morning to cheer up, before I knew of the situation then I smsed him: WLAK T, ma ana raiha bi dabadeebak!! Boom boom boom, mich sami3 dakit albi!!!

Saw him for 5 minutes after work, he was staying at work for a while longer and I had to go shopping for a gift for my colleague and a sexy dress for me, and by stuff from the market, then run home to catch up with my freelance work. T went for PING PONG!! Won 3 matches:)